#moretrauma

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I can’t wait for the days… The days where I don’t have to go days without consuming anything just to survive. The days where I don’t come home to a shit show, or dead silence. Both scary. The days where I don’t wake in panic from the trauma dreams. The days where being a adult actually makes sense for me and everyone in my life. The days where I actually know what the fuck is even happening. Those days are never gonna happen if I’m brutally honest, I’m trapped in this idea of how this is how life is lived, but I sometimes stand up and look around and realize that this is not the way to love life. But I’m so sucked in and trapped in this world, there’s no where for me to go. And having to keep living this way, it is braking every inch and surface of my soul