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PAIRING โขย jack abbot x Paediatric nurse! male reader
SYNOPSIS โข Stuck in student debts from your nursing school had you reaching out to more drastic measures, which meant signing up to be a sugar baby to none other than the Doctor Jack Abbot. Of course, you have no idea youโre working at the same hospital and thus never expect to meet up. However, it all comes to a head when youโre called down to the ER and sees a very familiar man in a SWAT uniform.
CONTENT WARNING โข no use of y/n, YEARNING, fluff, angst, panic attack (probably very incorrect), reader is mentioned to have muscles, age gap, jack calls reader โkidโ, slightly ooc Jack, hurt then comfort, sexual innuendos, flirting, sexual tension, bad descriptions of hospital stuff
WORD COUNT โข 10.7 k [request]
AUTHORS NOTEย โขย as you can see, I absolutely RAN away with this although it is not exactly like the request, because the way the story flowed just worked out differently than what had been requested, but I hope I did it justice anyhow. I donโt like the end so much, because at that point I just wanted to be done with it, but hope itโs up to your standards anyhow!
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You had never meant for it to get anywhere, to be something other than a way for you to earn some extra cash alongside your work. Student debt was killing you, but that was nothing new. It was killing all of the other nurses, as well. Still, it would have been nice to afford a proper meal at least once a day.
You mentioned it to a buddy of yours who off handedly suggested you start selling feet pictures. He was joking, of course. You hoped he was.
But it got you thinking of another friend who had gotten a sugar daddy and was now living life without any worries of her student loans. Gods, you would have lied if you said you hadnโt been jealous. So you reached out to her and she directed you to the site she had used, which was an immediate shock. Here, you could see multiple entries posted by sugar daddies and mommies alike, all of them in various ages and requirements for their sugar baby. You hesitantly filled out your own profile to be put on the site so others could see you.
Suddenly, it seemed too much. You didnโt want to compromise yourself or your body just for money. No offence to those who do, but a pit in your stomach told you that it wouldnโt be worth it.
Before you had a chance to close the site, you had gotten a message.
Your eyes flitted to the edge of the screen, a small pop-up message showing that a โJackโ had written to you. Curious despite yourself, you clicked on his profile. There was no picture, weirdly enough. You couldnโt blame him, though, as you had also chosen to refrain from using a picture. You didnโt want any random people finding you or recognising you. Your name, you could handle people knowing, but your face was uniquely yours. You supposed this Jack felt the same way, or according to his message, he did.
JACK You also hesitant of these websites?
You paused, looking at his profile again. He had the โSugar Daddyโ status, but nowhere did it say he was requiring anything sexual from you. It couldnโt hurt to reply, could it, right? Your fingers typed on your keyboard before you even had the chance to think about it.
YOU Yeah, is it that obvious?
He responded immediately, and it almost made you chuckle. This guy must really want to write with you.
JACK Takes one to know one, I suppose.
YOU What? Sceptical and cynical?
JACK You could say that.
YOU What are you doing here then?
JACK My therapist said I needed a hobby.
YOU Funny.
JACK Iโve heard I have a great sense of humour.
YOU Youโre not at all what I was expecting from a man on this site.
JACK What were you expecting? A creepy guy only wanting to jack off to younger men?
YOU Kind of, how do I know youโre not one of those creepy guys?
JACK For one, I am not asking for anything like that. I respect whatever your wishes are.
YOU What are you asking for then?
JACK Company I guess.
YOU What, the people in your life arenโt company enough?โ
JACK What is this, a job interview?
YOU Well, kind of. Since I am the one who will get paid in this.
JACK Touchรฉ. But then shouldnโt I be the one asking the questions huh?
YOU Guess youโre right, but itโs so much more fun if I am asking them.
JACK Fun for you maybe.
YOU Exactly.
JACK Okay. To be honest, I guess Iโm a bit lonely. I donโt have a lot of time for people outside of my work and when Iโm working all Iโm thinking about is, well, work.
YOU So you are still working? What do you do?
JACK Of course, how old do you think I am?
YOU Do you honestly want me to answer that?
JACK Now thatโs just rude. And Iโm a doctor. Pays pretty well you know.
YOU Thatโs impressive. What position?
JACK Attending physician at the ER. Not a lot of people ask for what position you work as when you say youโre a doctor. You in the medical field yourself?
YOU Hmmm, Iโm not sure I should tell anything personal about myself to a stranger.
JACK I told you, man.
YOU Well maybe you have less self preservation than I do. And here I thought with age comes wisdom.
JACK Good one. Maybe I want to get to know you.
YOU I hope you know that no matter wherever this goes, we will never actually meet.
JACK Wasnโt counting on it. Like you said, Iโm only a stranger. And like I said, I respect your wishes, whatever they are.
YOU And youโre willing to pay me to just talk to you? Nothing else?
JACK Yeah, nothing else. I promise.
YOU It seems too good to be true. Why?
JACK Listen kid, I respect how careful you are. The truth is I donโt have anything good to else spend it on and I like taking care of people. Probably why Iโm a doctor.
YOU Sounds about right. But why me specifically? Unless you have a group of younger guys youโre entertaining on the side?
JACK Oh god no. Youโre the only one.
YOU I must be special, then.
JACK Kinda. I mean you are the only one Iโve properly written to on this website. You seem interesting.
YOU If you are trying to flatter me then youโll have to come up with a better compliment than that.
JACK If Iโm the one paying you shouldnโt you be the one complimenting me?
YOU Maybe when I find something worthy to compliment.
JACK Youโre funny.
YOU I try. Listen, I hate to cut this short but I gotta go to work.
JACK Wait before you go. Give me your Venmo info.
YOU Why?
JACK How else do you expect me to send the money? Now come on.
YOU Well, thank you.
JACK Itโs my pleasure, kid. Until next time.
You watched with awe as you get a notification from Venmo that five hundred dollars had been deposited into your account. This guy must really want this agreement with you to spend that much only on the first conversation. You werenโt one to complain, however, as you could finally treat yourself to a good meal. Thank fuck to whoever this Jack was, and thank fuck that your friend had set you up with the site.
Over the next few days, you got to know him better as you conversed. You had told him that you worked in paediatrics as a nurse, and you learnt that he worked nights, which left you little option when to message him, mostly before your shift, when his was ending, and after yours, when he had just woken up. He was easy to talk to and you enjoyed his sarcastic humour.
And he kept his promise, never pressuring you into doing anything more. However, you had noticed that Jack would occasionally address you with something that wasnโt strictly platonic but also not forthcoming enough to be discernible as flirting. But you would be lying if you said you werenโt flirting back.
It was simple and he was easy-going, and charming. Whatever ego Jack has, he wore it real well. He was cocky but not arrogant, and a little self-deprecating. And gods did he know how to bring a stupid smile to your face. Your conversation flowed easily enough that you didnโt even have to think about what to respond to him.
You still couldnโt help but wonder why he had chosen to talk to you, out of all the other applicants, who actually were willing to do more than platonic stuff.
You chose to ask him that a week later, one night after your shift, when you had arrived home and successfully crashed on your bed.
YOU I still canโt really get over why you chose to talk to me specifically. I mean, Iโm sure there are lots of other guys vying for your attention?
His reply came only a few minutes later. He had told you that he worked nights, so you guessed he was writing to you in between patients.
JACK I wouldnโt be so sure about that. And none are anywhere near as interesting as you.
YOU Still, my point stands.
JACK Are we not done with the twenty questions yet? Thought I showed I was serious about this arrangement.
YOU OK, thatโs fair. Iโll stop.
JACK You are terrible at letting up control. Let me take care of you.
YOU I just feel bad because Iโm getting so much from this and all youโre getting is sucky conversation from me.
JACK You better step it up then, kid. I told you Iโd be expecting compliments.
YOU Wow.
JACK Iโm only pulling your leg. Donโt sell yourself so short. Youโre really great. I enjoy talking to you.
YOU Thank you. I also enjoy talking to you.
JACK Look at that, I knew you could take a compliment. Iโm proud.
You couldnโt help the small smile that spread across your lips. Damn Jack and his easy charm.
YOU Maybe because this one was actually good.
JACK Thereโs more where thatโs coming from.
YOU Shut up.
JACK Unfortunately I donโt know how to.
YOU Damn, guess Iโm stuck with you then.
JACK Guess you are.
YOU Itโs not the worst thing in the world.
JACK High praise. You really know how to warm a guyโs heart.
YOU What can I say? Iโm a charmer.
JACK Oh I bet you are.
He was just so effortless in the way he spoke and complimented you that hadnโt you previously agreed to keep this professional between you two, you would have seriously thought there were something between you. The thought didnโt exactly displease you. Of course, you had no way of knowing if he even wanted more. His profile was suspiciously empty of any sexual wishes for his sugar baby and he had said he wasnโt expecting anything of the sort. Maybe he was the one who didnโt want anything non-platonic and was just acting under the guise of respecting your wishes to stay professional. Maybe you were the one who was going too far, flirting and acting this casual with him, perhaps even making him uncomfortable.
Fuck, the thought filled you with dread. Not only because youโd grown to care about Jack over the past couple of weeks enough to worry about making him feel uncomfortable, but also because this was technically supposed to be a business agreement. He was your client and you were making money from this. The agreement had been clear and you couldnโt let Jackโs personality lead you astray from that.
He had wanted company and conversation. It wasnโt his fault that it happened to make something stir within you, just by him being himself. You cursed yourself for letting yourself get in the way of yourself. Jackโs a good guy, genuinely caring and thoughtful, and he wanted to take care of you, so you couldnโt let anything ruin that what you had.
He just made it so fucking hard when he was such a gentleman.
YOU Hey, is there any possibility I could get an advance on this week?
The notification of your Venmo came before the notification of Jackโs reply and you inwardly cringed of how readily he sent you the money, without a second thought even. You knew he made more money than he had use for and was more than happy to spend it on you, but his willingness to help you still made your heart skip a beat.
JACK Of course. What gives?
YOU Just got in a bit of a bind. Needed the money quickly.
JACK Anything more I can do to help?
YOU You donโt have to do that, you know.
JACK Do what?
YOU You know, care so much.
JACK How do you mean?
YOU This is a professional relationship and youโre technically my client, Jack. Please feel no obligation to do any more than you want to.
JACK Well then, I want to. Simple as that, kid.
You rubbed a hand over the bridge of your nose, sighing in frustration. How was it that Jack managed to solve your problems that easily at the same time as he caused new ones? Because how were you supposed to maintain a professional relationship with him when he went around saying shit like that? He both infuriated and made you joyous at the same time.
Any hope of avoiding any growing feelings would have meant to avoid talking to Jack altogether, but that was impossible since your agreement meant literal conversation, and because Jack was impossible not to talk to. You kept your back and forth, messages sent between shifts and breaks, whenever you had the time over the next month. When you needed him, he was always there.
YOU Hey do you have a minute? You donโt have to pay me for it.
JACK Of course, is everything okay?
YOU Yeah, I just needed a distraction.
JACK And you came to me? Iโm flattered.
YOU Shut up.
JACK Wouldnโt dream of it. Are you sure youโre alright?
YOU No. Iโm not. I lost a patient at work today. A kid. I guess it just hit me heavier than I thought.
JACK Hey thatโs nothing to be ashamed of. Weโve all had those days where things feel a bit too tough to handle. You just gotta remember that none of this is your fault. You did the best you could but sometimes that isnโt enough.
YOU I know youโre right but itโs hard not to feel like this one is on me.
JACK I know you are terrible at letting up control but you gotta trust me on this. All you can do is focus on the medicine. The medicine is the only thing that saves the patient. And your sanity. You are excellent and there was nothing more you could do.
YOU Thank you, Jack. It means a lot coming from you.
JACK Anytime. Remember to breathe and try to take it easy. Even nurses deserve breaks you know.
YOU And god do we need it. Iโll try, but with the way people are getting hurt I canโt see me getting a break anytime soon.
JACK I hear you there. Hey I sent a little something as a pick-me-up. Enjoy it.
YOU I told you you didnโt have to do that.
JACK And I told you that I want to take care of you. Accept it and shut up.
YOU Sir, yes, sir.
It felt good to confide in someone like this. He could relate to the feelings and trauma that came with working at a hospital; that, sure, you saved and helped a lot of people, but you werenโt magicians. There were bound to be people you couldnโt save. Every hospital worker learnt not to take it personally,ย
Like Jack, you worked a lot of long shifts after each other, rarely having a free day for yourself. It didnโt exactly allow you to socialise or make friends with a lot of people outside of your work. You supposed you and Jack had that in common.
ย He, however, liked to keep much busier than you. Since he worked nights, you had figured he would sleep most of the day, but no, he was just as quick to respond to your messages during the day as he was in between your shifts. You started to suspect that he didnโt sleep much, since he had also mentioned he usually tries to keep tabs on the police scanner he owned in case of any emergency. You had asked if he had anything outside of saving lives to keep him busy and he had suspiciously avoided the question with a clever quip. So, you decided not to push it, allowing him to share however much he wanted to with you.
Eventually, you exchanged numbers with him, when you felt that you were more comfortable with him. Despite yourself, you had grown to trust this man, with his easy remarks and charm, disregarding all the safety measures surrounding strangers your mum had drilled into you since an early age. Jack wasnโt just a stranger anymore, but someone who you could confide in, trust with your doubts, and who could easily cheer you up with a simple message.
JACK Buy yourself something pretty alright?
You smiled when you saw the text, currently out shopping for things you needed. However, he changed that, and you decided to go get something you wanted. A nice top that fit your torso nicely. You took a quick picture in the dressing room, showing how the shirt wrapped around you, accentuating your muscles. Your face was still hidden, however, so you figured it would be safe to send to Jack.
YOU [ATTACHMENT: 1 Photo] This pretty enough?
JACK Very.
That caused a smile to spread across your lips. You werenโt sure if he intended for it to have the effect on you that it did. It felt like he was flirting, but it could also be part of his natural charm. You didnโt want to be the guy who misinterpreted every interaction and thought he was into you when he wasnโt so you didnโt dare say anything. But you couldnโt help but play along.
Especially when you started calling, two and a half months in, and you heard his voice for the first time.
โHey.โ He said it almost like a whisper and he sounded almost out of breath, as if he was nervous? That couldnโt possibly be the case, however. You were probably just imagining it.
โHey, Jack.โ
Fuck, his voice was amazing. It was all melodic and low, sounding as if it came from deep in his chest, a light rumble to it. You couldnโt help but imagine all the things that voice could tell you.
โFeels weird actually talking now that weโve been writing for so long, huh?โ he said, and you nodded subconsciously.
โWeird is one word for it,โ you agreed with a light chuckle.
โDonโt tell me youโre regretting it now,โ came his quick reply.
You scoffed. โNo, fuck, thatโs not what I meant.โ
โWhat did you mean then?โ he asked. Perhaps you were imagining it, but you thought you could hear a teasing tone to his voice, almost as if he knew exactly what you meant but wanted you to hear it for himself.
โYou know, youโre just as annoying to talk to as you are in writing.โ Despite your words, a small smile formed across your lips.
โSo Iโve heard.โ
โItโs a wonder Iโm still talking to you,โ you muttered.
โAnd every day I thank God for that.โ
You tilted your head, frowning. He didnโt peg you for a religious man, but you never knew. โYouโre religious, Jack?โ
โNot one bit.โ
โHmm.โ
โHave I told you you have a very pretty voice?โ Jack asked, a sweet roll to his voice. It was the most beautiful thing you had heard and you were sure he was aware of it.
That made something in your stomach flip. Stop it, you were scolding yourself. Jack had been the one that told you that what the two of you had was strictly platonic and professional. He was respecting your wishes, and you had to respect his. Still, with the way he was speaking to you, it was difficult to keep your heart in check.
โYou have not, no,โ you breathed out, careful not to let your voice shake with nervousness.
โOkay.โ
โArenโt you going to?โ
โHmm, maybe.โ
โGod, youโre an ass,โ you said, laughing lightly.
โI like to refer to it as my charm.โ God, he sounded smug. Somehow that made him even more attractive.
โHmm, donโt know if I would call it charming.โ Yes, you would. But no way were you going to admit that to Jack.
โI would.โ
โI know, Jack.โ
You heard how he took a deep breath on the other side of the call, the silence being filled by his slow exhale, before he spoke. โYou know, I do love hearing you say my name after all this time.โ
You werenโt sure how to respond to that except for with a witty remark, โSure you do,โ effectively letting the matter drop.
โโโ
Jack was a busy man.
Anyone who knew him knew that, and there werenโt a lot of people who did know him for that matter. You had been recently added to that list, with the amount of time he spent texting and calling you.
He liked to work as much as he could, usually sticking to the night shifts but occasionally taking on a double or jumping in during the day when he was needed. And even when he was free, he liked to stay at home listening to the police scanner he had or going with his buddyโs SWAT team as their field medic. He liked to do as much as he could. Robby had called it an addiction of his.
Jack knew he was right, and so was his therapist when he had told him that he needed to find something else outside of work and outside of SWAT. He also realised that he was lonely, because all the people he conversed with were tied to those two.
He knew he didnโt need a lot, but someone who he could bond with outside of it and perhaps care for. Ever since the death of his wife, he had missed having someone to take care of. He had a ton of disposable income that did nothing but collect interest in his bank account so he might as well spend that on someone, he thought. He knew that heโs not in the right place to meet someone the old fashioned way, and after seeing an advert for sugar babies, he went that route.
Jack felt hesitant to do that, though. It felt perverted to use his money to require sexual favours of a younger person, like he saw other sugar daddies and mommies do on the website he had found. Could he put in no requirements to his page? All he wanted was company and conversation to feel less lonely. Thatโs why he didnโt see a point in putting a photo up either. Since he didnโt want someone to talk to him merely because of his looks, but rather someone who could match him in conversation.
Thatโs when he found you, a younger man who seemed decent enough based on his profile, but it was hard to tell because like him, you had no profile picture. You had also specified that you would not engage in any sexual activities as your role of a sugar baby, so he thought he might as well shoot you a message. It couldnโt hurt, right?
From the very first message, Jack found himself interested in you. You matched him easily in his banter, had fun quips ready to respond to his, and he found that he had fun talking to you. Despite the unnatural arrangement of him paying you for conversation, it felt weirdly natural between the two of you.
As time went on, your messages developed from the regular get-to-know conversations to more banter and comments that bordered on flirty. Jack couldnโt ignore it, the pull he felt towards you, and he couldnโt help but indulge in it. It was just too easy to compliment you, or tease you, because your personality drew him in with something he hadnโt felt in a really long time.
He found himself telling you things he didnโt tell a lot of other people, some things even Robby didnโt know about. Jack told you about his past; his time as a war physician, his leg that had gotten amputated, his late wife. You took it all in stride and somehow it didnโt feel awkward after heโd told you, like it did with most people, but he rather felt much lighter in the chest. However, he did not tell you about his problems sleeping, at keeping the trauma at bay, because he didnโt want to worry you. In truth, he didnโt want to be a bother.
It was ironic that he wanted you to be able to rely on him, so he could take care of you, but he was afraid of being a burden to you. So, instead, he usually sent you small comments each day, updates about his shifts or his coworkers, or just little observations about you. He could talk to you for hours if youโd let him.
You had told him about starting a new job soon. Youโd still be a paediatric nurse, but it was in a new hospital because your last one hadnโt treated you so well, is what you had said. You hadnโt shared which hospital it was, and Jack hadnโt pried. It wasnโt like he wasnโt curious, because he wasโwhen it came to you, he wanted to know practically everything he couldโbut he didnโt want to force any information you werenโt willing to give up. And you had made it clear that you werenโt ever going to meet, so what was the point? He couldnโt pretend that he wasnโt the slightest bit of disappointed by that fact, but he refused to let it cloud his relationship with you.
It got you talking about your jobs one afternoon, almost three months in.
JACK I donโt think I could ever do pedes. I tried it during my MS days, but itโs way too boring for me.
YOU Hey, watch your words, old man.
JACK Oh I know youโre not calling me old man, kid.
YOU Keep running your mouth and I will keep calling you that.
JACK Okay, sorry. Itโs way tooโฆ Advanced for me.
YOU OK, now youโre just being patronising.
JACK Alright, letโs just say itโs not for me. Donโt get me wrong, I do like kids. But thereโs something about how busy the ER gets that keeps me coming back.
YOU And thatโs fine. I love pedes because itโs so much calmer. The ER stresses me out. And well, kids can be really sweet. Itโs just like night shifts are not for me. They sound brutal, I donโt know how you do them.
JACK My therapist thinks I find comfort in the darkness. I like nights. Donโt you?
YOU OK Batman. I like sleeping through them.
JACK I canโt argue with that.
YOU Damn right you canโt. Iโm sorry, Jack, no matter how much I like you my bed will always be my #1.
His heart skipped a beat at that. You liked him, you had said. Then he shook his head, mentally berating himself. No, you had merely meant platonically that you liked himโnothing more than that. You had made it painfully clear that you wanted this relationship to stay professional, despite his unconscious attempts at flirting. He couldnโt help it! You were just too easy to compliment.
JACK Thatโs hurtful, you know?
YOU You can handle it.
JACK Iโm not so sure, I might need some reassurance now.
YOU I think youโre being a baby. But, sure. [ATTACHMENT: 1 Photo]
What you had sent had Jack choking on a breath, his eyes flitting over the phone screen in rapid movements. He could feel the beating of his heart as he took in the view before him. What you had sent him was a picture of your chest, your skin revealed by the top buttons of your shirt being unbuttoned, and your throat adorned by a silver chain. It wasnโt even that revealingโJack saw plenty of undressed guys at work every nightโbut something about the thought of you posing for him to see this made his stomach tighten.
JACK You must be an amazing nurse because Iโm suddenly all better.
Maybe he had read you wrongโor, well, right. Maybe you did want something more with him, despite what you had said. Or, were you only sending that because you felt pressured by him? Oh god.
He rubbed a hand over his neck, closing his eyes. Had he been too forward, too much? Had he made youย feel so uncomfortable you felt you had to play along with him in order to still receive the money? The knot in his stomach wasnโt from happiness anymore, but now from worry. He silently cursed himself. You had made it so clear to him and still he kept walking that line between flirtatious and platonic because he couldnโt keep his damn feelings in check. Sure, he was a flirt by nature, but you managed to draw it out of him so easily, and he wanted to with you.
Jack decided to try to keep himself in check from now on, despite how difficult it would be.
โโโ
Today was the day: the day you started at your new job.
You were slightly nervous, seeing as this hospital seemed much better than your last and you really wanted to keep this job, so you couldnโt fuck up. Despite their ER being nicknamed โThe Pittโ, you were impressed by their stats and by the few members of staff you had met at your interview. And besides, you werenโt going to be working in the ER, but in the paediatrics department.
A message from Jack and you smiling at your phone. Somehow, he knew you would be nervous for this without even having to tell him anything. Thatโs how well he knew you.
JACK Hey kid, good luck today. I know youโll knock it out of the park.
YOU Thank you, Jack.
The message ended up not being needed, since your first day went swimmingly. You decided against telling Jack that, though, because any praise or encouragement was more than welcome from him.
To be honest, anything he sent was more than welcome. Usually it was banter, a flirty comment here and there that never failed to put a smile to your face and made you question the nature of your relationship, or some updates from his work and the occasional gossip about his colleagues. Sometimes it were heavier things, like things from his past that made you frown with sympathy for him, because no one deserved to have gone through all that. But it never got heavier than that.
Thatโs why it came as such a surprise when he called you in the middle of the day when you were at work, his breathing uneven and words clipped with a cadence that you didnโt usually hear from him.
โHey, Iโ Iโm sorry, itโsโฆ fuck!โ he started, then coughed. โIโm bothering youโโ
You immediately put down what you were doing, rushing to go into an empty room. โYouโre not bothering me, whatโs up?โ
โIโI just, fuck. I canโtโโ He was breathing heavier now, sounding as if he was gasping for air but unable to take any in.
โOh shit, Jack. Jack, listen to me. Just breathe. Hey, focus on me,โ you tried, calming your voice to the one you usually used for patients in distress. Jack needed you, and that was all you needed to know for you to enter a deep state of focus.
โI canโt breathe, I canโtโโ
โYes, you can,โ you interrupted him. โListen to me, I know you can do this. Just focus on my voice. Breathe inโฆand breathe out. Slowly. And again. Inโฆ and outโฆโ
There were several minutes of silence, the only sounds being Jackโs breathing on the other side of the line. They were ragged, heavy and deep, with quiet sobs accompanying them every once in a while. You waited patiently, a steady presence for him to lean on. You only wished you could do more for him.
When the breathing had gotten quieter on his end you dared speak again. โJack, howโre you doing?
โUh, better. Not great.โ His voice sounded like full of gravel, thick with unshed tears and sobs that he seemed to be choking down.
โOkay, thatโs something,โ you said. You took a breath before asking, โWhy donโt you tell me whatโs going on?โ
Jack sniffled. โI, uh, had a pretty bad dream. From the war.โ
Ah.
โI was back there, and, um, I was getting shot at and, uh, shit, andโโ His voice was getting unstable again, his words quivering as he got worked up again. You interrupted him before he had the chance to.
โHey, itโs okay, you donโt have to explain more,โ you said.
You heard a small laugh come out of him. โI just, fuck, all I could think about when I woke up was you.โ
His voice sounded pained and heavy with memories of his time as a soldier and you could only imagine the trauma he carried with him from it. A stab of pain shot within you in empathy for him. A sudden urge to be there, physically, with him to be able to hug and hold him better.
โListen, Jack, itโs OK,โ you said, trying to stop any oncoming protests from him.
It didnโt work. โIโm sorry,โ he breathed. โI know this is far beyond what our agreement wasโโ
โI donโt mind, seriously. I like being here for you.โ You said the last part especially slow so that he could really understand how much you meant those words. You donโt even think you had known how much you meant them before that moment, but now you did.
โOh, thank God.โ He let out a relieved laugh, before sucking in a breath. โDonโt know what I wouldโve done if you turned me down.โ
A smile spread across your lips. โI would never do that.โ
He cleared his throat and let out a small laugh. โI think Iโm good to go now. I need to try to get some more sleep, and you shouldโฆ go back to work?โ His words were clipped and dismissive, as if he wasnโt telling the entire truth.
You frowned, but nodded. โAre you sure? Please, I donโt want you saying that just to not worry me.โ
โIโ thank you. But I am seriously alright,โ Jack said, and you chose to believe him. โIโll send the money later. Thank you.โ
That made you pause. โDonโt you dare,โ you said quickly.
โWhat?โ came his shocked reply.
โJack, you know I care about you,โ you said, your shoulders relaxing. Did you really need to spell it out for him? โLet me be here for you, without the money.โ
There was a small moment of quiet where you feared he wouldnโt respond. When he did, his voice was smaller, somehow. โOkayโI will talk to you later?โ
โI canโt wait,โ you chirped, smiling.
โโโ
Jack was confused.
The way you had spoken to him and cared for him, without the expectation of money, made him feel all warm inside and as if your relationship had grown outside of your agreement. Maybe it wasnโt such a crazy thought to have. Jack found himself smiling more since he had begun talking to you and even imagining meeting you in real life, despite that you had said that would never happen on the very first day. He had to respect your wishes, because he was nothing if not a gentleman.
No longer was he only losing sleep because of the nightmares from the war, but he also found himself thinking about you. When he closed his eyes, all he could think about was how you would look and all he could hear was your voice, talking to him in that sweet way of yours. It kept him up, thinking about you, but he found that he didnโt mind one bit. Especially as it seemed that you were just as eager to talk to him as he was to talk to you.
YOU Iโve been thinking.
JACK Should I be worried?
YOU Thinking about you.
JACK Okay now that sounds more promising. Canโt say I donโt think about you either.
YOU Iโm relieved to hear that. Well, Iโve been wondering what you look like.
JACK Wow is my sparkling personality not enough? You need to see my handsome face as well to satisfy your needs?
YOU I donโt know if I would describe your personality as sparkling.
JACK You didnโt deny about the handsome face part.
YOU I havenโt seen it yet so I canโt really judge, can I? That was sorta the point.
JACK No you donโt want to see this old face. Surely itโs got nothing on yours.
YOU I wouldnโt be so sure. What Jack, are you shy?
JACK I donโt get shy.
YOU Time to put your money where your mouth is, then. Iโve heard your voice and if you look anything like how you sound Iโm sure I wonโt be disappointed.
A warmth that had nothing with the actual temperature in his apartment spread across his body, feeling it colour his cheeks. How could you say those sort of things and not expect them to affect him? There was no way you werenโt aware at this point, but the thought that you were aware and still did it made his cheek grow even warmer. Fuck, what were you doing to him? And he hadnโt even seen you or met you! Not that he would ever do the latter thing, anyway.
JACK Jeez I knew you were a charmer but not like this.
YOU That isnโt a no.
JACK Fine. But only if you also send a photo of yourself. This is an equal partnership you know.
YOU That sounds fair, but you first since I asked first.
JACK If you insist. [ATTACHMENT: 1 Photo]
It felt as if the beating of his heart thundered in his throat as he stared at the three dots on his screen. Despite his usual confidence, Jack was scared. He knew that he was good looking, if all the comments he had received over the years was anything to go by. But he felt an unusual sense of nervousness at the thought that you would finally see what he looked like and reject himโwhich was ridiculous, but still he couldnโt help it. He wanted so badly for you to think he looked good, because the alternative was too scary.
YOU You have freckles.
JACK How did you know thatโs exactly what I wanted to hear?
YOU Sorry, I just wasnโt expecting it. It suits you.
JACK Thanks? I hope.
YOU Yes, itโs a compliment. Thought you wanted more of them. Now take it.
JACK Wow bossy. I kind of like it.
YOU What can I say? I have many sides.
JACK I canโt wait to see them all. Now you go.
YOU Since you asked so nicely. [ATTACHMENT: 1 Photo] Canโt wait to hear all your compliments now.
Fuck, Jack thought as he stared at the photo you had sent. He felt the threads that kept him together so carefully start to unravel, because it couldnโt be, could it? But he knew he was lying to himself, trying to convince himself that what he was seeing wasnโt true. There was no doubt about it, it was you. The same nurse he had caught a glimpse of in the hallways a few days ago at the Pitt. He had thought you were handsome, his eyes following your movements, and of course Robby had teased him about it.
But now that it meant that the guy he had been talking to and grown closer with over the better part of three months, who he was effectively dreaming and thinking about every free moment he had, who could put a smile to his face much easier than anybody else he knew, and who he had made peace with never meeting, was the same guy he was looking forward to seeing on the rare chance heโd come to the ER. Which meant that you could be meeting, which he was sure you did not want. Sure, you could have been flirting with him this entire time, but you had made it painfully clear that you did not want to meet up.
YOU Jack? Hello? OK, I was only joking, you know?
Fuck, what was he supposed to do with this now? He couldnโt ignore you and he couldnโt lie about the fact that he knew you worked at the same hospital as him.
A reminder popped up on his phone that his SWAT shift was starting soon and he cursed. He didnโt have time to think through what to say to you, but figured he would respond later when he was free. Jack thought that he could use the time on his shift to figure out what to respond with.
โโโ
Fuck.
That was the first thought that flew through your mind.ย
First it had been because of finally seeing Jackโs face because, unfortunately, he was unfairly attractive despite his older age. Second, it had been because he wasnโt responding to any of your messages.
What the fuck was Jack thinking, leaving you on seen like that? You had sent your picture, just like he had, and then he didnโt respond? Did he not know the effect he had on you? This was something that could easily send you spiralling, and it would have, had you not been called in for work.
It was looking to be a busy 4th of July, but without any other plans you might as well work and earn some extra pay. If nothing else, it would also keep your mind off of Jack and his lack of reply.
You had finally seen the looks of him and he was the very picture of handsome silver fox, someone you would dream about had you met them for real. The fact that the sarcastic and funny guy you had gotten to know the last three months was someone this good looking sent your mind spiralling somewhere too far for you to reach right now.
So, you did the only thing you could: put on some gloves and got to work.
You had been right, it was a busy day. Other than the normal chaos of a holiday, it was unusually hot today and Westbridge hospital had been closed down as well, so the PTMC was taking the brunt of it. It was difficult to keep track of everything amidst the chaos. A the beginning of your shift, you had gotten a call from the ER that they had a baby Jane Doe who needed tending, and despite your dislike for the ER you had gone down to check on her every once in a while throughout the day.
However, as you went down slightly after 12 PM, you were met with a sight you had not expected. You had just checked on the baby when you went to the reception to talk to Princess. Despite not working in the ER, it was difficult not to become friends with the other nurses here, as they were more than chatty and sometimes friendly..
A team in army uniforms, โPOLICEโ written over their chests, rushed inside from the ambulance bay with a gurney carrying another one of them between them all. A figure you recognised as Dr. Robby moved to them immediately, looking to the man who was holding the ventilator balloon to the patient.
You followed his gaze and swore your heart stopped.
He was rattling off the words, looking increasingly stressed. โIntubated neck wound, sats not great. We were diverted here.โ Then he turned to the reception, and you hoped against everything that he wouldnโt notice you. Luckily, he seemed to only briefly glance up and shout, โIs there a trauma room open?โ
Princess pointed to a room to the right. โTrauma 1,โ she replied.
As they all went into the trauma room, you felt your breath return to somewhat normal, the initial shock settling for something else. You had to be seeing things, right? It couldnโt be him.
But however much you tried to convince yourself, you knew you were wrong. Despite only having seen one picture of him, you knew you would recognise that man anywhere. It was the same salt and pepper curls, the same faint constellation of freckles smattered over his face, and that same voice. The voice you had so often heard on your calls with him and more often than not in your dreams about him, as well. And the fact that he was dressed in a SWAT uniform. It all checked out. There was no doubt on the matter. It was Jack.
You still had to make sure, however, so you turned to Princess and cocked your head to trauma room 1. โWho the fuck is that?โ you asked.
She tilted her head to the side. โWho?โ
โThe guy in the military uniform.โ
Her answer confirmed both your worst fears and your greatest hopes. โOh, thatโs Dr. Jack Abbot. Heโs the attending on the night shift.โ She glanced at your face, smirking smugly. โSmoke show, right?โ
โRight. OK. Fucking great.โ You nodded, absentmindedly, before turning to go back upstairs.
Fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck.
You swore inwardly with every step that you took up the stairs. What were the chances, out of all the hospitals in America, or even in Pittsburgh, that Jack had to work at the very same as you? Technically, he had been working here longer than you, but that fact didnโt matter. All that mattered was that the man you had tried but effectively failed to get out of your head, was some kind of boss to you. Not directly, of course, since you answered to the paediatric department. But every once in a while, against your will, you would be called down to the ER when they were short-staffed, and that would put you under Jack.
You dragged a hand across your face, groaning. You couldnโt believe your luck, that the man you were practically dreaming about and definitely flirting with was your once-removed boss. Would you need to get HR involved? No, nothing had happened. Yet, a small part of your brain supplied helpfully. But you and Jack had agreed to never meet, so what you would do with this information now was as of yet unclear to you.
That was also when you remembered the fact that Jack had avoided answering to the photo you had sent him. You had never thought of yourself of ugly or anything of the sort, but maybe you just werenโt his type? Maybe that was the reason he hadnโt replied. The thought of then having to see him in person, knowing of all the times you had flirted with him and must have embarrassed yourself, mortified you beyond anything else. You werenโt sure if you could live with knowing the answer.
But not knowing was so much worse, you realised, and against your better judgment you stormed back down to the ER in search of him. You grabbed hold of the first nurse you saw, which happened to be Jesse.
โHey, is Dr Abbot here?โ you asked, trying to sound more cool than you felt.
He blinked at you before nodding. โI think I saw him go into Central 7.โ
โGreat, thanks,โ you threw over your shoulder as you rushed in the direction.
Without allowing yourself a moment to hesitate, you threw open the door and pushed away the curtains. There, shirtless and tall, stood Jack Abbot in all of his glory. He had his back turned to you, showing off the broad muscles that rippled under his skin as he moved, as well as the constellations of freckles that extended across his shoulders and down his arms. God, he was in good shape, was the first thought that popped into your traitorous mind. The second being that there was a wound on his left shoulder, but that fact catalogued itself somewhere in the back of your brain in favour of the view of a shirtless Jack in front of you.
โJack?โ you said, before your brain had time to catch up with the fact that you were currently seeing him shirtless, of all things. โOh, shitโโ Hereโs to first meetings, you supposed.
He turned around with a frown before his brows lifted in shock. โYeah? Oh.โ
You bit your lip, crossing your arms over your chest. Jack looked just as good from the front as he did from the back. You had to physically shake your head to rid your thoughts, focusing instead on meeting his eyes. God, he had a steady gaze, you realised. It was difficult not to feel put on the spot underneath it.
โMaybe I should be calling you Dr. Abbot, instead?โ you asked, although rather unkindly.
Jack only nodded dumbly, his mouth still hanging open slightly.
You grimaced. โYou know, for a man who can never seem to shut up youโre being unusually quiet.โ
โUhuh, well,โ he croaked, his voice unusually unstable. Then he let a small smile lift the corner of his mouth. โI am just a bit caught off guard. What are you doing here?โ
โI work here. Well, in pedes upstairs.โ You gestured upwards, scoffing as if it was obvious.
โRight,โ he replied, those beautiful hazel eyes narrowing at you. โWhat are you doing down here? Thought you said the ER stresses you out.โ
โIt does,โ you said, frowning slightly. You were surprised he remembered that detail you had mentioned in passing. โYou remember that?โ
โYeah, of course.โ Something about those simple words twisted something in your stomach. The casualness that he said it with, as if it had been obvious that he would remember the small things you told him.
You cleared your throat, coming out of your thoughts to answer his earlier question. โGot an abandoned baby that I was called down to check on. The better question is what youโre doing here? As far as Iโm aware, itโs not night.โ
โGood solve, Sherlock.โ
Even in person, Jack was quick to answer with a witty remark. Gods dammed his wit and his sarcasm and his humour. He was just as attractive in person as he was over the phone, if not more, and his intense stare made you want to avert your eyes. Was it always this intense, or did it just feel extra so under the circumstances?
โThis is less than ideal,โ he finally said after clearing his throat.
โYeah,โ you breathed out. You took in his shirtless torso, quickly looking away so that he wouldnโt notice your staring. โDo you want me to come back? Give you a moment?โ
โNo,โ Jack replied with a small smile. He was sitting down now and putting forward medical supplies and bandages. โItโs okay.โ
To avoid whatever that meant, you focused on the task his hands were doing, which also meant you had to keep your thoughts in check, because damn, even his hands were attractive. You cleared your throat. โWhat happened to you?
โOh. Bullet grazed my vest,โ he said simply, his eyes on his hands, as casual as if you had asked him about the weather.
โYou got shot?โ
โShot at,โ he corrected, eyes flitting up to yours. โItโs no big deal. I can take care of it myself.โ
As Jack said that, you saw him reach a cotton swab with a lotion over his shoulder, struggling to get the angle right. After a few minutes of craning his neck, you sighed and stepped forward, relaxing from your tense posture.
โLet me help you,โ you said, beginning to put on a pair of gloves.
His head turned in your direction as he grimaced, his hand gesturing as if to wave you away. โNo, donโt worry about me, Iโm fine.โ
An eyebrow raised in his direction. โNow whoโs the one being too stubborn to accept help. Iโm a nurse, let me do my job.โ You stepped around him, holding out your hand for him to give you the swab.
โA nurse in paediatrics,โ Jack pointed out, but relented with a small sigh. The brief brush of your gloved fingers meeting his ungloved one caused shivers to travel up your arms, almost as if you had been shocked by electricity.
You scoffed. โThat doesnโt matter. A wound is a wound.โ
You began cleaning his wound, carefully inspecting him for any sign of discomfort. Instead, you only found how much more handsome he looked up close. You could see the small wrinkles on his forehead, the way his eyes stayed dutifully ahead of him, and his posture was as straight as a soldierโs. Not the only thing that remained from his war days, you thought as you sneaked a glance at his right leg. But it didnโt make him look old, no. He looked like a weathered man, with tons of stories held inside that pretty head of his.
Your thoughts went back to the conversation at hand, sighing as you swapped the cotton swab for another. โYโknow, I never pegged you for one to look down on other areas of medicine,โ you mentioned.
โSorry, I donโt,โ he said, shrugging a bit as if bashful. โIโm just still surprised that Iโm actually seeing you right now. That weโre finally meeting.โ
You tilted your head. โYou donโt sound so surprised.โ
It took a second for him to answer, and it was with a grimace you could only half see has he turned his head away from you. โWell, I knew you worked here.โ
You paused in your movements. What? โAnd you didnโt say anything? How long have you known?โ
โOnly found out when you sent your picture,โ he admitted, craning his neck to meet your eye. โI recognised you.โ
โWhat?โ
โItโs hard to forget a face like yours.โ Jackโs smirk was infectious and you had to fight your own from forming as he then shook his head. โSorry, that was inappropriate.โ
โNo, um,โ you cleared your throat, โwhat do you mean by that?โ
Jack shrugged sheepishly. โJust that I noticed you, even before knowing that you are, well, you.โ
โOh,โ was your only reply, continuing to clean his wound. โWell, I hope thatโs a good thing.โ
โVery.โ
You could almost hear the smirk in his voice, that tone that you had gotten painfully familiar with over the past couple of months. And God was it a blessing to be able to see it now in person, finally witnessing how it made his eyes scrunch up in delight, wrinkles forming around them, and it made him look exactly as self assured as you had pictured during your long talks.
You ignored it in favour of putting down the cotton swab and beginning to dress his wound, clearing your throat at the same time.
โSo, care to tell me the story behind this?โ you asked, just to get away from his burning gaze.
Jack looked down into his lap, his smirk dropping. โGeniuses thought today was the day to rob a goods warehouse. Didnโt think about how long it would take to load the appliances. They panicked. All hell broke loose.โ
You narrowed your eyes at him, applying the wound dressing. โWhy do you do this?โ
โMy therapist said I needed a hobby,โ he said as he shrugged.
You scoffed. โThought that was the reason you reached out to me, remember?โ
โI can have two hobbies.โ
Your hands smoothed out the dressing before you removed the gloves and stepped around Jack, shaking your head. โNot if one is putting you under active fire.โ
โCareful, it almost sounds like you care.โ
When you looked at him you saw a tiny smirk playing on the edge of his lips. You averted your eyes from them, raising an eyebrow and humming a reply. As you turned around to walk away, Jackโs hand shot out to grab your wrist.
โListen,โ he started, letting go of your hand. You already missed the warmth from his skin. โI wanted to say sorry.โ
โFor what?โ Your voice was carefully devoid of any emotion that he had managed to stir up in you.
โFor not answering, earlier.โ
You merely hummed as a reply.
His eyes looked up to you, now shadowed by a hint of guilt and sadness, not unlike the eyes of a puppy. It made something twist inside you, a twinge of guilt suddenly shooting inside you from the knowledge that you were the cause of it. โIt wasnโt cool of me, I didnโt mean to worry you.โ
โYou didnโt worry me,โ you said, way too quickly.
He ignored your words, still keeping that damned eye contact. โI should have just responded right away, but I wasnโt sure what to say. Or do. You said you didnโt want to meet, soโฆโ He chuckled, sounding a bit unsure of his own words.
You tilted your head to the side, crossing your arms over your chest. โSo, what, you figured you would keep it secret that we worked in the same hospital? Just so weโd never meet.โ
โI didnโt want to make you uncomfortable,โ Jack explained, a pleading tone now sneaking into his voice.
You sighed, rubbing a hand over your face. โJack, Iโve told you. You could never make me uncomfortable.โ
Something in his eyes lit into a spark. โReally?โ
โPlease,โ you chuckled, glancing to the side with a hint of a smile. โThe fact that you were ever worriedโฆ is kind of attractive.โ
The words were out of your mouth before you could stop them. You closed your eyes in frustration and berated yourself. It was one thing to flirt over text, because that gave you plausible deniability. But admitting he was attractive after he had effectively ignored you for the better part of the day after had had finally seen your face, was something else. If he really wasnโt interested and you hadnโt chased him away yet, you would surely have done it now.
However, when you looked back to Jack, meeting his gaze, all you could see was the mirth in his eyes.
โYou think so?โ he asked, and that smug smirk was back on his face.
Your eyes narrowed at him, taking in the way he was leaning slightly forward and looking up into your eyes, all open and honest. There was something in the way he was looking at you that made your stomach twist, but not in a bad way, as if he knew something you didnโt. You didnโt know what, but it felt like the air had suddenly gotten heavier in the room, your shoulders tensing and lips pressing together.
That smug smile on his face made you roll your eyes. โFuck off, you know youโre good-looking.โ
Jackโs head tilted to the side, but his eyes never left yours. โHmm, is that so? And do you find me that? Good looking?โ
He was enjoying this more than he should. โPerhaps,โ you said and shrugged, despite yourself. โAlthough I must say your picture does not quite make you justice.โ
โNow, thatโs a compliment.โ His smile had widened, reaching his eyes as well and the sight was almost too much for you.
โI do know how to give compliments, yโknow,โ you said with a scoff.
โWould love to hear more of them,โ Jack replied with small nod.
You gave him a meaningful glare. โDonโt know if your ego could take it.โ
At that, his smile widened into a grin. โI can take more than you think.โ
Your narrowed eyes met his smug ones and you had to fight the urge not to smile. He really had a reply to everything, this man. Then your eyes flitted down to his body, noticing the army pants he still wore, remembering how good he had looked in his SWAT uniform earlier.
โIn that case,โ you started, โyou fill out that uniform quite well.โ
โYou should see me as a flight attendant,โ Jack said. He didnโt miss a beat, his eyes still trained on you, eyes flitting all over your face.
โMmm, bet.โ When you noticed he wasnโt saying anything else, but merely staring at your face, you spoke again.โJack.โ
He nodded. โMhm.โ
โYouโre staring.โ
โIโm just looking,โ he said, but he was definitely staring.
You lifted an eyebrow at him, taking in the way he was staring at you. More than once, you had noticed how his eyes flitted down to your lips and that made your stomach fill with warmth. โNo, youโre looking at me as ifโฆโ
โAs if what?โ he asked, head tilted but that smile on his face that told you he knew exactly what you meant.
โNo, forget it,โ you countered, ever so stubborn.
Jack stood up, now looking at you from your eye-level. โTell me.โ
You tried to discern whatever he was trying to say behind those eyes, but all you could see was a hint of teasing and hopefulness in them, as if wanted you to say exactly what you were thinking. Could he really want the same thing as you, even after all this time?
You furrowed your brows but finally said what was on your mind. โAs if you wanna kiss me.โ
โWould that be so bad?โ His smile formed into something kinder, softer, as he took a step closer.ย
You shook your head before your mouth had a chance to catch up. โNo, not really.โ
โIn that case, may I?โ he asked, as one hand reached out to caress your cheek, the other landing on your small back. Your arms uncrossed themselves to grab his arms and the nape of his neck. You couldnโt help the laugh that escaped you at his questionโthe fact that he even had to ask.
โWeโre at work,โ you whispered, despite wanting to relent and press into him with all that you had.
Jack closed his eyes in frustration, forehead pressed against yours. He was so close, yet so far awayโฆ
โFuck,โ he muttered. Despite all his feelings for you and the desire to do nothing else than press you up against a wall right there and then, he still had some sort of decorum and professionalism in him. But when he gazed at you, looking so handsome in his arms, his resolve started to dissolve bit by bit. โIโm not on the clock, though.โ
โBut I am.โ
Jack bit his lip as he looked away, swiftly stepping out of your grasp and going over to close the door of the room before he pulled the curtain closed as well. Then he stepped closer to you, the question written in his eyes as clear as days. You couldnโt help but grin at him, at the slight flustered breath as he leaned in closer.
โYouโre such a dork. Cโmere.โ You saw his eyes soften as they traveled down to your lips.
โThank god,โ was all he said as he leaned in and met your lips with his.
Jackโs skin was warm as he pressed closer to you, his lips moving against yours with a hunger and firmness you werenโt expecting. The way he moved his hands over your body made you groan into his lips which only made him grasp you harder. He felt heavenly against you, the way his warmth seeped into yours.
You grasped the nape of his neck, deepening the kiss by pushing against him. It was hard to ignore his shirtless torso as well, so you made sure to run your hand down his back, noticing the shivers that erupted in your fingersโ wake. He let out a low moan at that and you made sure to file that information away for future use. When you pulled away, his full blown pupils were staring into yours with smirk on his lips.
โYou have no idea how long Iโve wanted to do that,โ he breathed, his lips venturing further south as he placed small kisses against your chin, your throat, down to your collarbone.
You let out something that was a mix between a laugh and a moan. โI think that broke the rules of our agreement.โ
โFuck the agreement,โ Jack said as he met your eye properly. โI want you, with or without it.โ
Your smile turned crooked. โDoes this mean youโll stop paying me?โ
โNo, you should be prepared to be spoiled even more,โ he replied, his own smirk widening.
โYou donโt have to, Jack,โ you said, meeting his gaze with a meaningful glare.
Jack merely stepped even closer, incasing you in his strong arms, his lips lowering to your ear as he whispered, โI want to.โ And looking into those eyes of his, you think you finally believed him when he said that.
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