#monthsaries

in commemoration of our seventh monthsary, i hereby pledge to do ten things during the span of our eternal relationship:

give you a daily reminder. and by daily i mean daily. no skipping, no forgetting, no- JUST DAILY, OKAY.

catch up on our couple photo challenge and complete it on the designated time WITHOUT missing another day or more.

greet you good morning and/or good night without fail for every day of our relationship.

not smoking in real life. ever. this sucks.

always watching over my health by taking proper medications and regular check-ups and eating healthy food and running the treadmill twice every day!

be with you through every anxiety attack. please tell me whenever you have one so i can be of help. i really want to help. : (((

finish the paulo coelho book you’ve given me before your birthday!

have more dates with you!!! be it sex dates or fluffy dates or- LET’S JUST HAVE DATES!!!

routinely reply to every session and never leave you hanging again. 😅

love you, support you, cherish you, and make you happy till the end of time.

should i break one or more of this pledge, be it by accident or on purpose (as if?), i am to give you three separate piggybacks in the span of three successive weeks (one week = one piggyback). what a punishment.

to my dumb diamond,

HAPPY SEVENTH MONTHSARY!!!!! damn, time really flies so fast. it feels just like yesterday when we first talked. i never forget that moment when you first said, "hi, han's here!" because that moment changed both of our lives forever for the better.

i hope you're having as much of a swell time as i am these past months, because i can't imagine anyone else filling that very spot you are standing in right now, anyone else completing me and fulfilling my every wish and understanding my soul just as much as you do.

we haven't had a smooth month, and for that i would like to apologize. i asked too much of you and it wasn't fair. on that day when you completely needed time to think for yourself, i felt strange and morose. the day dragged and felt empty because you weren't there. your presence has become so entangled with my day-to-day life it feels downright odd not to have you around. at that moment, i was so close to thinking that our relationship was about to crash and burn. but it didn't. we patched things up and i can't be more thankful that, as promised, we really don't give up on each other.

i know at times i always think of myself more and put my ego first, and i'm sorry for that. i focused more on what i was feeling and not yours. i should have never taken everything you've given me for granted, because i do know that your every action is accompanied by love. endless love. and i love you endlessly, too. your words, your encouragement, your presence, and basically your own self have become such integral components in my life and i wouldn't want it any other way.

thank you for celebrating my birthday! i honestly thought you forgot about it, because neither of us mentioned anything about it. i'm glad i could spend this year's birthday with you. my first ever birthday with you. thank you for your present, which i immensely adore. i can never thank you enough for what you've done for me. i'm happy to spend a brand new age with you, always together. i love you so much.

i still have another present for you, but i'll wait until you wake up! i feel like i always give promises at the end of every letter, but for now i will just say how much i love you. and i'm sorry for every mistake i've done for the past month, and the month before, and the month before that, and the month before that, and so on! let's have a long-lasting time and stand together from han and cheol, to kael and aiden, to rose and ryder, to intan and alex. i love you. happy seven months!

i have moved on from padlet.

okay. so. happy five months! i hope you like what i made! i had never really used tumblr before i made this, so i self-taught my way through. i’m just kidding. rachel taught me. now i realize how old i actually am. and it turns out that tumblr is really cool!!! there are a lot of tags and i still don’t get how queue works. but it’s okay. i’ll continue to familiarize myself. heh.

at first, this was called kaelandaiden.tumblr.com. but then you wanted to change your name when i already posted a bunch of stuff. i had to change everything. every single thing. i had to rename and reorganize the tags, change the url, basically all that jazz. but it turns out you can’t change gmail, so it remains kaelandaiden. it was some fucked up shit. i’m glad i had the thought of you to motivate me.

on second thought, we should name it almond.tumblr.com or something since neither of us will legally change our names, right?? i’m a genius.

so, i made a bunch of tags and by now i forgot why i made them. i’m just kidding!!

27 days of rosie: for twenty-seven consecutive days of june and early july, i wrote twenty-seven things/aspects that i love about you. i really did write one every single day, but due to work, i posted them at random times. why 27? i came up with this 27 days before yesterday. also our birth dates equal 27! i apologize if some or all of them don’t really describe how much i love those aspects of you; i get distracted at times and i tend to ramble. but i hope you will feel the love in it, even if it’s just a teaspoon. : )

2=1: i had some depressingly sentimental reason of why i made this but now i forgot, i. the point is that all the things we individually or collectively love are stored here! i already reblogged a few bits of things i adore and i followed the tags of stuff and people that you love! (i still don’t understand how that tag following thing works, but i’m setting my own pace, okay.)

quotes: they’re quotes.

songs: they’re songs.

ryder: posted by me!

rose: posted by you! i posted on your behalf regarding the monthsary gifts. i don’t know if you want it to be rose or rosie, so if you want it to be rosie, change it yourself. : )

threads: our threads!

dates: our finished dates and the ones we still continue up until now.

monthsaries: gifts and threads of our monthsaries dating back from the very first one. i also made individual date tags of each monthsary if you want to skim further.

valentine’s day: everything we did on valentine’s day!

it’s alright. i didn’t really expect you to give me anything, and yet you did. so i’m immensely touched. i really am.

i don’t know. i just... feel mad and sad and overall upset. i want to be there for you. i want to be able to help you through your anxiety attacks and tell you how much i still care about you no matter what happens, but how can i do that when you don't even tell me what's happening? i was so hurt. i suppose i still am. i told you to call me or text me yet you didn't. you just stayed quiet and it hurts. it feels like you don't appreciate my presence or my will to help you. maybe it's just me. but it’s past. it’s fine.

i’ll make sure to call you sayang often, even when we’re talking in english! plus you still have to help me with my indonesian- which i don’t really look forward to. my indonesian sucks as it is. heh.

/laughs in victory. muahahaha.

i think i’m really getting old. i thought my memory served me right? i always thought that you brought the whole meeting thing first, but now it seems like i’m proven wrong. i’m sorry i can’t remember well. it’s okay. you can burn it if you want. you aren’t going to give it to me anyway, are you? with that being said, everything i stated in my HI letter is still on the table.

i’m going to stay with you through the sixth month, seventh, eighth, twelfth, one hundredth, and so much more. so you better spill your secret quick. : )

FRIDAY THE 13TH THAT DAY IS DAMNED I TELL YOU I PICKED THE WRONG DATE TO CONFESS IT’S A CURSED DAY!!!!

how can misteri terselubung dalam tanduk? tanduk is horn, right? so it’s smaller, right? and what is enyah? does it have anything to do with renyah? renyah like keripik? like crisps? are you saying that the sun is crispy??? and are bergelimang and bergelinang different? and what is kendi? why is it made out of sand?

BUT YOUR POEM IS BEAUTIFUL. I KNOW IT IS. < 3

you tell your jokes in a funny way! a reaaally funny way! heh. you have to be in my shoes to realize that.

... i just know ich liebe dich. don’t take it too far, sayang.

i think i should rephrase that. i know i’ve never seen you actually smile, but i love the fact that you are, you know? it means you’re happy and i want you to be happy. so i love the way you smile. you smile happily.

HURRY GET THAT IPHONE, YOU IDIOT.

your laugh is super cute! it really is. it’s the cutest thing ever. i love.

i had learned conversational french when i’d been in paris but now it all escapes me. what the fuck are you saying. you goddamn polyglot. je t’aime, though. < 3

it’s okay! i’m happy that if i had to lose, i lost to your mother. i know she’s truly important to you. perhaps she’s the most important person in your life. so it’s okay if you love her more. i can’t be jealous of my own mother-in-law, i.

happy five months to us, baby girl! time flies so fast. next thing i know, here we are, madly in love with each other.

i’m so happy that i’ve been given the chance to meet you, to get to know you, and to have you as my girlfriend. these five months have had their highs and lows, but i’m supremely glad that we didn’t give up on each other.

i went over our interactions for the past month for the threads tag. i never not read every single conversation and every single date thoroughly. reliving these memories makes me realize just how much i appreciate you for who you are and how much i love you.

i know i’m not the best boyfriend in the world. i upset you and leave you behind and am too insistent on things. but the amount of love i have for you does not depend on how frequent we talk in a day or how much we say “i love you” in a day, because if we spend a single day without talking with each other or saying how much we love each other, i will still love you.

why? because you live in my mind and my heart. you will always be the person i love with the entirety of my heart and nothing will ever change that fact. thinking about you and remembering your sweet words and encouragement are things are enough at times when i can’t see you or talk to you, even if they make me miss you too much.

with all of that said, i promise to be a better boyfriend who understands your heart and your thoughts more. i promise to always be considerate of you and see things from your point of view. i promise to understand your struggles and be with you every step of the way. i promise to always make time for you even when i’m busy. people always talk about things going downhill when the honeymoon phase is over, but i hope our relationship stays in its honeymoon phase forever. we can always overcome our obstacles along the way and love each other while we’re at it.

let’s live in each other’s hearts forever. i love you, soon-to-be wifey.