Hyungwon has been your friend for years. You were taken aback when he told you that he wanted to be an idol and he was scouted when he was in a restaurant. He does have the looks and skills but you expected him to be a model rather than an idol. Nevertheless, you supported him in his decision. Unlike before, you can only meet for a few hours then he needs to get back to the company to train. Three years passed since he started training when you saw a new program in Mnet âNo Mercyâ. You were worried on Hyungwonâs fate. You know how much he wanted to debut. You felt relieved when his name was called on the last episode. You messaged him immediately expressing your happiness that he gets to debut. He replied the next day with a âthank youâ. Even though he replied late, you tried to understand that maybe he was trying to cope with different emotions yesterday. After a few months, thatâs when you realized that heâs been too busy that you havenât met for months. While you were in the train station, you heard some girls talking about Monsta Xâs first concert. You decided to attend it to at least see him. Itâs the day of the concert and luckily, you were able to get a seat near the stage. The concert started and you were amazed by how they put their energy in every performance. Not to mention that Monbebes are also amazing. How can they shout almost every time? The whole time, you were only looking at Hyungwon. You canât help but feel proud of his achievements. The powerful performances halted and they serenade Monbebes with âBlue Moonâ. They were looking at some fans while singing until you made eye contact with Hyungwon. You noticed that he was surprised to see you in the concert. You simply smiled at him. After that, he never looked at you again. The concert was a blast. They bid goodbye to their fans and even before everything ended, you already went to the exit so youâll avoid the possible âtrafficâ of fans going out. Before you can leave the venue, a staff came running towards you. âExcuse me, youâre Y/N, right?â âAh, yes. Is there any problem?â âOh, nothing. Hyungwon wants to see you backstage.â âAhh, okay.â Then you followed her until you arrived in front of a door. You knocked and you heard someone say âcome inâ. You hesitated since it is obviously not Hyungwonâs voice. You opened the door and you saw seven men inside. You went inside and closed the door. Before you can even greet them, Hyungwon suddenly hugged you so tight. You hugged him back. Then you realized that heâs still covered with sweat. âHyungwon-ah, youâre still covered with sweat.â He laughed and hugged you more tightly. âAhh! Stop it. You know that I donât like it.â He laughed again and pushed you a bit to have some distance. After you made an eye contact, he smiled at you and hugged you again. âAhhh! What are you doing?!â He laughed AGAIN. âSorry, I just got the urge to tease you.â âEveryone, this is Y/N, my bestfriend. Y/N, this is Monsta X.â You bowed to them and they also did the same. âSo, why did you ask me to come here?â, you asked. âHuh? Do I need a reason? We havenât met for like months.â âBy the way, do you have anything to do after this? Letâs hang outâ, he added. âAre you sure? Iâm sure you really want to sleep right now.â The other men laughed because of what you said. âYou really know Hyungwonâ, Minhyuk said while laughing. You smiled back at them. âThe thing is I really am sleepy. My energyâs drained after the concertâ, you said to Hyungwon. âThen letâs just sleep together. Where should we do it?â, he asked. You heard some gasps and âomoâ coming from Monsta X. âYah! Donât say it like that. People will misunderstandâ, you said to Hyungwon. âWell, I donât know how to say it in other wordsâ, he replied. âJust say sleepoverâ, you said while rolling your eyes. âAh..â The manager happened to hear your conversation. âHyungwon-ah, just to tell you that youâre not allowed to go outside with your friend tonight.â âHuh? Why?â âSheâs a woman. Iâm sure there are some fans who will probably stalk you if you go outside now. They might misinterpret your relationship.â âAh, then can she stay at the dorm?â âWhat?â, you canât help but be baffled by his suggestion. He asked the other members and theyâre totally fine with it. You went inside the car and sat beside Hyungwon. You still canât believe that youâre actually in the car of an idol group. The car arrived at the dormitory and you went inside with them. You had some small talk with the group but later on, the exhaustion kicked in and they all went inside their rooms and slept. âY/N, letâs sleep in the living room. Iâll bring foamsâ, Hyungwon said. Hyungwon brought the foams and set them in the living room. âHyungwon-ah, I donât have anything to change intoâ, you said. âAh, wait. You can use my clothes.â You changed into the t-shirt and pajama he lent to you but they looked oversized to you since heâs a lot taller than you. When you went to the living room, heâs already lying down. He looked at you and giggled seeing you with big clothes. He pat the space beside him to tell you to lay beside him. You lay down and he kept on touching your hair. You then proceeded by chatting about what happened in the months you havenât met. âBy the way, I have a younger brother nowâ, you said. âHuh? When?â âHe was born five years ago.â âWhat?! You havenât told me.â âWell, we only meet for a few minutes and I always forgot to tell it to you.â You brought out your phone and showed him a picture of your brother. âIsnât he cute? The first word he learned to speak is ânoonaâ and not âommaâ or âappaâ.â You laughed while remembering that moment. Hyungwon is just looking at you with a smile. âWhatâs his name?â, he asked. âWooju.â He grabbed your phone and placed it behind him. âYah, you shouldnât grab someoneâs phone just like thatâ, you said then you suddenly kept quiet when Hyungwon was simply looking at you. âWe should do this frequentlyâ, he said. âWell, youâre the busy one.â You just looked at each other for a few seconds when Hyungwon suddenly held your hand. âWhat are you doing?â, you asked. âI just want to hold your hand.â âOh. Okay.â You just let him be because you held hands with him before. One thing is different though, the both of you are lying on bed. He just kept on staring to you and it felt burdensome. The atmosphere changed. You tried to chat to uplift the mood. âDo you want to meet Wooju?â âHm?â âUmm, you should stop staring at me.â âWhy?â âItâs burdensome.â Right then, he moved closer to you. âYah, I just told you that itâs burdensome and now you even moved towards me.â âWhy? I just want to.â Why is he acting like this? He brought your hand near his face and you felt his lips. You pulled your hand back. You can tell that youâre blushing hard. You can feel your heart beating fast. Youâve put a pillow in between you and him. You faced the other side while still feeling your heart beating fast. âHey--â âShhh! Letâs sleep.â You said while cutting him off. âSorryâ, he said in a low volume. You were already dozing off when your phone rang. You tried to reach for it when you realized that it was with Hyungwon. You faced his side and you saw him looking at the screen of your phone. âMinseok-oppa... Who is this?â, he asked. âHeâs our new neighbor. Give me my phone.â âWait. So he calls you this late?â âDo you talk to him all the time?â âAnd why does he call you at night?â âHeâs a new neighbor but he already knows your number?â Hyungwon threw plenty of questions. âWait! Give me my phone for a minute.â âNo, answer my questions first.â Then the phone stopped ringing. âGreatâ, you said to yourself. âYah! Answer my questions!â âStop raising your voice. Everyoneâs sleeping already.â Both of you sat. âOkay, heâs our new neighbor and heâs new to the city so I offered to help him if he encounter some trouble thatâs why I gave him my number. For the past few weeks, he has been really nice to our family. He would always play with Wooju and he would always listen to my stories.â âGeez. Why do you have to tell your stories to him? You can just call me!â âYouâre busy. I tried calling you before and you never answered thatâs why I never called you again if I simply need someone to talk to.â âJust-- Just call me. Iâll answer it.â âGeez. Stop it. Youâre busy.â âAnd why do you have to call him âoppaâ?! You donât even call me âoppaâ even though Iâm older than you by 3 years.â âBecause heâs older than me. I never called you âoppaâ because calling you by your name has become a habit already. Geez, why do I have to explain everything to you? Youâre not even my boyfriend.â He pushed you down and now heâs on top of you. âDonât talk to him anymore.â âYah, s-stop it. W-what are you doing?â, you replied, completely surprised by his actions. âI said donât talk to him anymore.â âWhy? Iâm having fun talking to him. And can you just stop?! Heâs my only friend other than you.â Even with all the words you said, anyone can tell that youâre blushing so hard. âCan you just sleep? I know youâre tired.â Your phone rang again. âGet out of my way. Let me get my phone.â âNo way. Let me sleep here.â And he lay on top of you. âAh! Youâre heavyâ, you said while pushing him. You gave up and you can hear his breathing got slower. You can tell that he fell asleep. Why is he acting like this??? He is a bit childish but this is too much. Due to exhaustion, you canât help but also fall asleep. You woke up with the sound of whispers. You also felt something heavy on top of you. You opened your eyes to see the other members whispering while looking at you. Minhyuk even took some pictures. âGood morning. Umm, whatâs wrong?â You tried to stand up but canât. Thatâs when you realized that Hyungwonâs sleeping on top of you. âHyungwon-ah. Hyungwon-ah. Yah, wake up.â He opened his eyes and after looking at your face, he flopped down and hugged you. â15 more minutes...â, he said. Minhyuk gasped. Jooheon said his signature âoh my godâ. âJust sleep beside me. Youâre heavy.â âNo way. Youâre going to that âoppaâ.â âSeriously, why are you acting like this? Stop it.â You looked at the other members. âCan you please lift him up? Heâs seriously heavy.â âAh yes.â They lift Hyungwon and let him sleep beside you. You stood up and stretched. You washed up and wore the clothes from yesterday. âAre you going already?â, Kihyun asked. âYes. I have to see my brother in the kindergarten.â âArenât you going to say goodbye to Hyungwon?â âJust tell him that I already went. I donât really know why but heâs been acting strangely.â âAh, I see.â âGoodbye.â âGoodbye. Take care.â And you closed the door behind you. You went to fetch your younger brother in the kindergarten. You waited for like two hours in a nearby cafe as you were early. After waiting for hours, you went to the kindergarten to fetch him. âNoona!â âWooju! Come here.â And he went for a hug. âWhere were you yesterday?â âI have to go visit someone.â âLetâs go homeâ, he said. âOkay.â When you went outside, you saw a man with a noticeable height not to mention heâs wearing all black and a mask to cover his face. âHyungwon? What are you doing here?â, you asked. âI want to talk.â âOh, okay.â Then you both sat in the swings. âNoona, can I play with the other children?â âSure.â You watched Wooju approached the other children. âIs that Wooju?â, Hyungwon asked. âYes.â âSo what do you want to talk about?â, you added. âWhy did you leave without telling me?â Seriously? He went here to ask me this question? âYou were sleeping.â âYou told Kihyun that I was acting strange.â âYou were last night and up until now.â âNow? Is this strange?â âIt is. You can just call me if you just want to ask me this question.â âWhy arenât you looking at me?â, he asked. You didnât realized that you were looking at your shoes the whole time. Should I tell him? âHey.â âIâm getting weirdâ, you said. You can tell that he was confused. This time you looked at him. âMy feelings towards you is getting weird...â âWhat do you mean weird? Do you hate me now? Is it because of what I did yesterday and this morning?â, he asked. âNo. I-I like you. Not as a friend but as a lover.â âBut... Weâre friends...â, he said in a low volume. âI know. Thatâs why itâs weird.â You responded even though it hurts. âHyungwon, I think that we shouldnât meet for a while or even call each other. I need to forget these feelings. Maybe not seeing you would make it better.â âOkay...â You stood up and waved your hand to him. You called Wooju and you left the park. You havenât seen Hyungwon for a month but your feelingâs still there. Youâre now walking to Woojuâs kindergarten. You were asked by Minseok along with his fiancee and Wooju to have a dinner. As soon as you fetched Wooju, you saw Minseok waiting outside. You waved your hand to greet him. âThank you for coming hereâ, you said to him. âNo, itâs fine. Come, Yoora (his fiancee) is waiting in the car.â âOkay.â You were walking towards the car when someone pulled you. You saw him after a month. âHyungwon?â âCome with meâ, he said in a commanding tone. You tried to resist from his grip but you canât. âHyungwon! Let go!â You told him numerous times but with no response. âY/N! Who is he?!â, Minseok said. âItâs okay. Heâs a friend.â âOh.â âMinseok-oppa. Iâm really sorry. I hope we can join you for dinner next time.â âOkay, sure. Iâll tell Yoora.â And you just let Hyungwon dragged you. He brought you to the park where you last talked. He sat in the swing without saying anything. Heâs obviously angry. âHyungwon? Why... are you angry?â âNoona, can I play there?â, Wooju said while pointing at the slide. âSure, go.â âHey, why are you so angry?â âIs it because we havenât met for a month? I already told you about it when we last met, right?â After a few seconds of silence, he spoke. âIs this how youâre going to forget your feelings to me? By hanging out with another man?â âHuh? Another man?â âYes. That âMinseok-oppaâ. So do you like him now?!â His words is slowly getting into your nerve. âMinseok-oppa invited me and Wooju to dinner thatâs why we were with him.â âDinner, huh? Youâre eating dinner with him when you canât even eat with me.â âSeriously somethingâs wrong with you. Youâre acting too possessive and you donât even own me.â âFor your information, we were supposed to eat dinner with his fiancee. His fiancee! If that makes you better.â His angry face slowly faded. âOh, he has a fiancee...â âI told you already. Heâs an oppa because heâs simply older than me.â âAh, I see.â Now, heâs looking at the ground. At this time, youâre the one whoâs getting angry. âHyungwon, remember our conversation? I told you not to appear before me until Iâm okay. But here you are. Can you just stop appearing? Iâll definitely call you if everythingâs okay.â âOkay...â His answer pissed you off. After storming at you like that, heâll just end it with an âokayâ when youâre hurting just by looking at him. Tears suddenly escaped from your eyes. You tried to stop it by looking up. You felt his hands on yours. You pulled your hand away and stood up. âDonât touch me. It seems like you canât understand. I still have feelings for you but here you are, getting all possessive. Stop it already! It gives me hope and I know that I shouldnât interpret it that way. Iâm sure that youâve fallen for a woman also and just imagine that she doesnât like you back. Thatâs how painful it is to see you.â You felt someone tugging your sleeve. âNoona, what happened? Why are you crying?â, Wooju asked. You quickly wiped your tears away. âIâm okay. Something went to my eyes and it really hurts.â âOkay... But letâs go home.â âShall we?â You carried him in your arms. You walked away. âAh, noona. Arenât we going to say goodbye to that hyung?â Facing him is the last thing that you want to do right now. âGoodbye, Hyungwonâ, you said while looking at the ground. You saw his shoes getting closer to you. He lifted your chin. You looked at the side, trying not to make an eye contact. Youâre getting teary again when suddenly, you felt his lips on yours. Youâre eyes gotten bigger and you looked at him. âW-w-what d-d-d-o you think your doing???â, you said while blushing hard. He grabbed you on your waist and pulled you towards him. He planted his lips again, this time while looking at you. He pulled himself away. You just looked at him, not knowing what to do. âIâm sorry I got angry. I just felt jealous.â Jealous? âWhile we were not meeting, I realized that Iâm actually inlove with you. I get angry when youâre with someone thatâs why I always drive men away from you even when we were still in school. I also feel happy when youâre happy. The smile you had when you showed Woojuâs picture was beautiful but at that time, I simply thought that it is because you are my friend. Iâm sorry youâre pained every time you see me. But I really do love you.â Wait, is he confessing? âHuh?â, the only word that got out of your mouth. âThatâs the only thing you can say to me, after confessing to you?â âAh. Sorry. Itâs just that I canât believe it. Are you doing this... out of pity?â âNo. I really love you. How many times do I have to tell it to you? Itâs quite embarrassing, you know?â, he said blushing. âI-I donât know what to say.â âYou still love me, right?â, he asked. âI-I do.â âThen weâre dating now?â, he added. He looked at you in the eyes. You nod. He hugged you tightly and kissed you on the forehead. âNoona, what did you just do with hyung?â, Wooju asked. You and Hyungwon were flustered by his question. âAh, that was...â, you trail off. âDo you want to know about it?â, Hyungwon asked him with a grin on his face. Wooju nodded to his question. You lightly hit Hyungwon. âAre you stupid?â, you exclaimed. He held your hands and laughed a little. âGuess you have to call me âoppaâ now.â You smiled at him. âNo way.â âThen should we sleep together again?â, he said with a grin. You blushed hard from what he said and elbowed him from embarrassment. Thank you for reading!