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Summary: You’re Rubys older sister and have always been close with Oscar growing up, but over the years you can’t deny how you’ve fallen for him, even though he’s a gang leader now you can’t help but crave him

Includes: flashbacks, 18+, angst, fluff, pregnancy, violence

Part.1

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It’s been a few days since I finally confessed to Oscar and in the moment I thought things would move further but it didn’t

Flashback

“It’s you” our bodies so close it was driving me insane, my heart beating so hard I’m sure he could hear it

I thought he’d kiss me, I thought he’d react the way I always thought of when I played this scenario over in my head but all I got was a smirk

He rolled onto his back and had me lay on his chest, I was confused and frankly a little hurt, these mixed signals were killing me

Now

It’s been days and I haven’t heard anything from him I haven’t even seen him around and usually we saw each other everyday either from me walking Ruby to school or when him and a few guys would drop by the diner

All I could feel was rejection and deep down I feel like I’ve ruined everything we’ve had together, I knew it was a bad idea but in the heat of the moment it felt right, now I’ve lost my best friend

I remember when I first met him we were just kids, I was playing with chalk on the sidewalk outside of my house when a group of boys came running along stopping all over my drawings

“Hey! That’s rude!” I yelled at them as they run off laughing, I turn back around to see my drawings ruined and then a notice a boy, I’ve seen him around a few times with that group

“Sorry about that chica” he said trying to act cool like the older guys on this block

“I’ve been out here all morning and they ruined it” I huff sitting back down with an array of colors around me

“I can help fix them” he said sitting next to me

“Really? Wouldn’t you rather play with you friends” I ask my face blushing at the attention of a boy

“Nah they can fend without me”

And from then on we’ve been friends, and as we grew he became my protector and biggest teaser

Just the thought of those moments made my heart ache I couldn’t lose him, not now not ever even if I have to settle for being just his friend

“Hun you seem really down lately, it’s slow today why don’t you head home and take care of yourself” my manager said as I was wiping down the counter

“Are you sure? I mean I don’t wanna add more stress onto you”

“No sweetie it’ll be fine, go on now before I change my mind” she smiles and I can’t help but thank her, my mind wasn’t even really here at work anyways

I hang up my waist apron and clock out, it was around 2 o’clock and the sun was still nice and warm as I walked home, I put in my earphones and listened to Me Jalo

How did things flip so quickly, I know being around the gang could be complicated but Oscar promised it would never change our relationship even though all the chulas hated me

I got to my block and was walking past the gangs spot and of course Oscar’s house, a few were hanging out on the front lawn just talking and smoking, I wasn’t gonna keep being the shy girl I pulled out my headphones and turned to them

“Where is spooky?” I ask with a scowl feeling the confusion and frustration grow

“He’s busy” joker said brushing me off, I never liked him much, just as I was about to explode Oscar came walking out of the house with a god damn chula hang off his arm

I gasped feeling my heart crumble more, Oscar’s head turned to me and I could see his rough demeanor drop and his eyes soften

“I can’t believe you” I say my voice waivering as I run home before he can tell me any bullshit, what the hell was he trying to do to me was he trying to push me away?

Once I get home I change into a pair of leggings and an oversized hoodie, I didn’t know what to feel, my body was coursing with rage, hurt, betrayal

“Sweetie what’s going on?” Abuela asks as I sit on a lawn chair in the back next to her

“It’s nothing….can I borrow a cigarette?” She pulls one out of the pack and hands it over, as I hangs between my lips she lights it so I can take a drag, feeling the ease as the smoke envelops my lungs

“You’re lying mi amor, it’s spooky isn’t it”

“How’d you know?” I ask let the smoke blow out

“I know you mija, you’ve loved that boy since the day you met him, but I want you to protect your heart, don’t let that boy walk over it” god how did she always know the right things to say

“I know it’s just complicated” we spend the rest of the evening talking until it became dark and the only light came from the street lamp

“You coming in Mija?”

“Not yet I just need to be alone for a bit” she nods kissing my head and going inside probably to annoy Ruby

What do I do now? It’s obvious I ruined us, I know he’s not mine but I felt special but obviously I wasn’t

I heard the rattle of the gate from around the corner of the house then seeing Oscar walk out straight to me but not with his usual confidence but it was definitely still there, he always had that energy about him, one thing that drew me in

I pulled my hoodie around myself tighter to try and ease the hurt that was growing, I looked down at my lap not being able to look him in the eyes, wanting to just remember how he looked at me that night in bed before what I said ruined it

“What’re you doing here?” I sigh as he sits next to me

“I can’t wanna see my chica?”

“I’m not your girl Oscar, that’s been pretty obvious to me after today”

“Come on don’t be like that you know I hate when you’re mad at me”

“Oscar….this isn’t like you forgetting to pick me up from work or something trivial, you’ve broken my heart don’t you realize that?” My voice cracks as I try to keep the tears at bay

“God I’m sorry, you know I’m not good at this feelings shit but am I really what you want mami? I’m the leader of the santos why would you wanna pull yourself into my shit”

“I’ve been part of that world since the day I met you estúpido, I don’t care that you’re in a gang or the shit you guys do, it’s always been you Oscar, it’ll only ever be you for me…..but if that’s not what you want I’d rather settle for being your friend than lose you completely”

“Mami why didn’t you say something?” He asks as he moves closer laying his hand on my thigh making me sigh

“I didn’t wanna ruin things like I obviously did, you’ve been ignoring me and well what’s the point you have all the chulas ready for you whenever you want” I hear him chuckle at that making me confused

“And what’s so funny about me pouring my heart out?” He looks back at me and hes smiling, not smirking…..smiling and it was so rare but everytime he did my heart exploded he didn’t show this side to many people

“Nothings funny mi amor just can’t believe the hottest girl on the block has been in love with me this whole time”

“Oh stop”

“And I was ignoring you but only because I didn’t know what to do with these damn feelings after you said I was the one you’ve been waiting for, puts presser on a man mija” he says rubbing his hand up and down my thigh

“What my virginity scared the big bad Spooky?” I smirked now feeling the tension ease

“Maybe, like you said don’t wanna mess shit up, ya ain’t like those chulas, they’re easy and there ain’t no feelings, but you and Oscar, you’re the only thing left I truly love”

My heart stopped and my breath stuttered, I never thought I would see the day where I’d hear those words come from him

“You….you love me? Like really love me” I move closer and he quickly shifts me so I’m straddling his lap, his hands on my waist and mine on his chest

“Always”

“I love you too Oscar, but if this is gonna work it’s just me, no more other girls”

“I think I can do that, I’m not some man whore” he said making us both laugh and I instinctively start playing with his cross

“Hmmmm I don’t know about that, I guess we’ll see”

“Come on let’s head back to my place, it’s late and I’ve missed your crazy ass in my bed”

It felt right again and my whole body was buzzing like I was on cloud nine I just hope nothing gets in between us

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Second part done more to come!!

These babies grew up. I'm crying.

Bonus because I haven't cried enough:

(Oscar Diaz deserved better)

And one more for the road (full circle):

“What do you want?”

“Can you stop being a little puta for a minute and hear me out?

“Why are you here Spooky?”

“I heard you were in trouble so I brought the homies to help”

“I told you to stop following me around”

“Lay your hands on me ever again and i’ll cut them off”

“Welcome home papi”

“Happy anniversary, through hell and back, ain’t it?”