#MomentofTransparency and #TransformationThursday LONG POST WARNING These last couple of years have been crazy for everyone. I know this because they've been crazy for me, too. I've heard the sermons and lessons for years about how God may have to remove some things out of your life to grow you and shape you. But, when it actually started happening to me, it hurt me BAD. I was fighting it for the longest by trying to hold on to friendships and relationships that were dying or had died. I went to counseling crying and not understanding. Then God guided me back to school and my eyes were opened in so many ways. Regent is a Christian school. As we were learning about areas of our fields of study, we were learning how to apply these lessons and live and move as Christians in our fields. In my first semesters I was having to do a lot of self evaluation and re-discovering who God designed me to be. And as I looked at old journals and old sermon notes I remembered those lessons of pruning and was convicted. I realized at that point that I needed to stop fighting it and start accepting it. Now my inside was being worked on, but it didn't match my outside. After being depressed about what was going on in my life, I found myself at the heaviest weight I've ever been in my life. And it was effecting EVERYTHING (mentally, physically, and emotionally). My doctor kept trying to encourage me to have weight loss surgery. And I don't knock anyone who does it. I'm just scary and don't believe in having surgery unless I absolutely HAVE to. My doctor felt it was a HAVE to situation because we were trying to figure out ways to manage my blood pressure. The medicine I was on originally was causing my hair to fall out and making me gain weight. So I was frustrated by the endless cycle. How can you encourage me to lose weight but prescribe something to make me gain weight? My conspiracy side kicked in wondering if she was going to get a "cut" if I had the weight loss surgery she kept pushing. So, I changed doctors, expressed my feelings and concerns. She changed the medicine but, of course, said losing weight could help to manage it better. https://www.instagram.com/p/CeTg5vjL8FV/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=

It's funny how you can hear thousands of compliments, but you'll always remember and hold on to that negative comment for life. When I was in the 7th grade this guy said, "I mean, she's not pretty, but she's not ugly either." Why do I still remember that umpteen years later? That's why I try to remind my daughter to always be kind. #WordsDoHurt #StillOvercoming #BeKind #DoYouSeeWhatISee #MomentofTransparency https://www.instagram.com/p/Cc9f7YktAwT/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=

#momentoftransparency #realtalk #thankful #grateful #stillhurtstho #cantshakeit #RIP #MOM #coachbee #cabbyjr #justaintthesame https://www.instagram.com/p/CEew0qlgYEz/?igshid=1esjg4gm1rxv0

Hey Y’all Hey! Today’s #MindfulMonday is also a #MomentOfClarity and a #MomentOfTransparency • It just hit me (like literally, right as I snapped this photo) that I still had on my emergency brakes MOST of 2019. I was going to make a caption about the amazing opportunity that I’ve been given to participate in the Kennedy Institute’s #ASeatAtTheTableProject and link my teaching page @mswhitesallstars when it hit me how many amazing opportunities happened in the 4th quarter that we’re the setup for #2020vision and #TheSoaring20s. In that/this moment I realized that I spent the first 3 Quarters watching and cheering as y’all were #ALLGasNoBrakes in 2019! However, I was moving along with my excessive activities at a “respectable” and “safe speed.” While, I will never move at breakneck speed to get it all done #somegasomebrakes,I know that most of what didn’t get done for 3/4 of the year was because I hadn’t released the brake, not because I hadn’t accelerated. So this for all the folks who still have the emergency brake on.... Time to release and give yourself to accelerate. Things are not the way they are... Things are the way you are! #SelfCareEvangelist #HopeDealer #stayvulnerablemyfriends #destressmonday #explore https://www.instagram.com/p/B6_bf4BFsBM/?igshid=1bv4pypmdwxv9

流行日記. Throwing it back to my first photo session ever. Circa. 2013 I was taking into to photography classes in college. My best friend was starting up her fashion thing. I look back and see Ive progressed but I miss that drive and energy I had while in school. Now I have to split my creative brain with adulting. I can only imagine what my work would look like if I truly gave it my all again. Either way I'm proud of the process. . . . . #momentoftransparency #lifeofanartist #tbt #throwbackthursday #trusttheproccess #growth #lifeofanphotographer #alwayslearning #setbacks #vivalanet #nettiecustoms #honestyhour #personaldevelopment #fashiongram #fashiondiaries #lookwhereicamefrom #growwithme #growwiththeflow #georgiastateuniversity #gsualumni

We've all heard the saying that our attitude determines our altitude but what if I told you I know this to be true? My attitude was a major problem for a LONG time and I either didn't know it or didn't care to change until I got tired of losing out on beautiful relationships because of it. I fell in love and my attitude counted me out fairly early on, and I'm embarrassed to say not just once.... Now, I'm developing, succeeding, progressing because I threw my hands up in surrender and committed to going through the PAINFUL process of accepting correction and making the necessary adjustments but oh how I wish I had done this sooner. Take my advice, forgive the past, release the hurt, and DEAL with the things causing you to present the ugly sides of yourself and turn people off. If you don't, you'll end up alone and longing in life and love. Love hasn't found me yet but I guarantee the next time it does my attitude will not sabotage its longevity. #MomentofTransparency #SoTiredofBeingAlone #MyFaultThough #Growing #Forgiving #Developing #Thriving #BeingSomeoneWorthHoldingOnTo #NotPerfectButWontStopTrying