#mombebe

Titled: Fantasia X

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I know, same 😭

During my work with dogs, I’ve had to help put dogs down before and it's...never easy. For me at least, this feels VERY similar grief wise, tears and all. I’m honestly stunned by the emotions I’ve been filled with tonight/this morning. It’s a very real kind of grief but at the same time, I’m very grateful to Mark, Ethan, Amy, and everyone else for instilling this kind of emotion in me.

In the Brutally Honest video, with Mark talking about potential and how he hates when people waste it....it hit REALLY damn hard. Like....pain in my chest hard. Honestly, it wouldn’t surprise me if this channel, the family we've created, and the legacy follows me for a very long time, if not forever. It also wouldn't surprise me if this ended up translating to life in general and helping me at least some with pushing myself more when it comes to making my time count. I may be young for now but we all saw how fast that year went, it’s only a matter of time before another year goes by. Followed by another. And another.

This channel, this absolute BEAST of a project was so well done and was incredible to watch in real time. The messages portrayed, the emotions, the hard work and beautiful art and friendships to come out of it are all so intricate and just...beautiful. This experience was truly a blessing, and I mean that from the bottom of my heart and with every last fiber of my being.

For now though I’m very very overtired from the past few days so seeing as though it’s almost 4:00 a.m. for me, I should probably try to get at least some rest. So I’ll leave it here for now, and if inspiration strikes later I’ll write more.

So, I’m a mother. To a TEENAGER. Yes, you heard that right, a TEENAGER!  Now, this beautiful young lady that I happened to have been blessed with is a huge fan of Kpop. We share quite a bit of interests and do tons of things together, because we actually enjoy each other’s company, not just because I’m her Mom and she still lives with me..(I’m sure she’s laughing like Hell as as she reads this)...but I digress....recently she made it her mission to introduce me to Kpop.

Holy cow kids!! This Momma is now a MONBEBE!  Yes, you read that right as well. A real life Monbebe...or maybe that’s  MOMbebe  ;) Either way I thoroughly love this catchy music coming from new Kpop group Monsta X. It reminds me of my own fangirling of the boy band days when NKOTB and New Edition were the popular music of the day.  I realize I just aged myself, but I did warn you.

This afternoon, after school, we sat around watching Youtube videos. Some Kpop and some of my favorite groups from my *cough* recent *cough cough* teenage days. She was impressed with the similarities and differences of what makes each genre unique.