After careful deliberation...accidentally on purpose..
Are you living deliberatelyâŠsomewhere along my mid roaring 20s I realized wasnât! I was passively going through life. I was the poster kid for all things complacent! Life was literally a series of random & often unfortunate events. I didnât have any real sensory experiences to evolve me into a soul-sound adult. I wasnât connecting or cultivating anything more than a steady easy paycheck, frequent Taco Tuesdays & the ability to blurt out I had my own place every chance I got! That just wasnât okay with me anymore! I began exploring so many different avenues of passion and professional development. The need to conquer feats and reach new heights of things I had been good at or even just mildly been interested in the past became a new high! A really really good high! Iâve always been smart, Iâve always been athletic but at the end of the day who really gives a damn?! Through those different journeys and oh have there been some journeys (some Iâm still on); promotional modeling, professional cheerleading, dance instructor, wrestler, swimsuit model, pageant contestant, marketing professional, fitness competitor, traveler & spiritual gangster I found that two overlying themes were always apparent in my new ventures. Both experiencing this divine world we live in through multiple lenses and total temple preservation and health were all that really ever mattered to me. I truely want to be a little cultured gypsy if you will; itâs my calling in life! âșïž We often fantasize about the ideal job, the ideal âbaeâ, the ideal bank account without every stopping to think what am I doing to create these things? Those types of fantasy worlds arenât really fantasies at all but in fact highly attainable goals that we have to actively and DELIBERATELY pursue. I canât even begin to pretend like Iâve mastered the consistency it takes to create my type of freedom but my current consciousness wonât allow me to make any steps in the wrong direction! After all full self awareness & acceptance is the first step right đHereâs to a lifelong pursuit of freedom, a ride I never want to jump off! â€ïž
