'Most of the time'
Is always the victor
And 'easier to do'
Always comes in second place
But the 'sometimes'
That come on a dark night, as melodies pour through you from those tinny headphones;
That come in a museum as you see the ancient instruments that outpace many of the ones of today;
That come when listening to a symphonic orchestra- your heart wrenching not because the music is some sort of masterpiece
(in fact, the second violin just missed a note, and the french horn is decidedly off key)
But because you know it will never be you up on that stage.
Hopes and dreams that come through on a 'sometimes' can never even compete, forced to lie on the wayside,
Nothing more than a daydream, but even then you have
No time to dream.
(it could've been you up on that stage-
if it was a 'most of the time', so you could spend your days with your fingers dancing across the notes,
if it was an 'easier to do', so you didn't need to chase diagnosis after diagnosis to find out why the world of woodwinds has been closed off to you-
it could've been you.
but now, you sit in the aftermath, the silence,
an eternal performance of 4'33''
resting in the footnotes of your own life
just a dream. :||
