#modglo

Surgery is tomorrow! A couple peeps were curious, so... To clarify, its not one of the (many) surgeries I've had to remove my bone growths or anything. Its actually related to my gender dysphoria. This post is also a semi small rant, and more just a call out to the god awful medical side of the US. I was getting through the (many) hoops for full top surgery, but my medicaid retroactively stopped covering it last year, unless you fulfill certain requirements (i.e been on hormones for at least a year) So instead, I'm getting a reduction. And if you know me, My worst gender dysphoria is based on my chest. And the likely best they can do is down to a D cup.. (and Im still going to be her largest ever reduction.. it just proves how overly large my stupid chest is) So, while tomorrow is going to (hopefully) help some, I still feel a sense of.. mourning I guess, that Im still stuck with some of my chest. Stupid insurance.

Second Surgery has.. not been easy to say. More pain than the first, and they didnt give me the stronger pain med because they think I'm lying when I say someone where I live took it. When that person IS labeled an addict as well... So now I'm in so much pain.. It all finally hit a couple nights ago, and I was agony. I never cry from pain, too high a pain tolerence from living with this stuff my whole life... And I was sobbing like a baby. I cant move. Its constantly there, throbbing in pain. This is much more worse....

I dont share irl photos often, maybe once or twice in the past. But.. I'm so happy now. So so happy. She got it smaller than I even hoped for. Baggy shirts make it almost fully unnoticeable. I finally don't mind taking pictures of more than just my face. When I look down, Im so surprised by just.. not being a view of just boob. I can see my stomach. The floor. Its just.. insane. Surgeon removed about 9+pounds total, about 4.5~ on each.

I cant seem to go long without having some sort of health issue...

Hey! Yeah I'm doing pretty good! Got the wrist brace off, and my surgery incisions healed, so I'm just drawing and relaxing! How have you been? ^_^

Oh gosh, I dunno really? I don't like it when people assume what you mean/are trying to say. And when people interrupt me or others. Like if its an impulse to add a quick thing it doesn't bother me too much, but if they take over the conversation when you are in the middle of something, i think that is rude. Common noises don't bother me, neither do people on their phone usually. uwu I guess swearing a lot in a super aggressive way toward someone counts maybe? Idk xD

Tbh Ive currently been listening to Enemy by Imagine Dragons on loop the last two weeks!