#modannie

If there is one thing that bothers me most about this website, it is how people romanticize mental/neurological disorders. I have Asperger’s Syndrome, which many consider to be on the autism spectrum. I see so many people on this site go on about “how wonderful it is to be autistic”, saying they “love being autistic” and “those without autism are missing out on the wonderness that is autism”. My Asperger’s Syndrome I could do without. I could do without ALL my neurological disorders (OCD, ADHD, dyslexia, depression, social anxiety disorder, and Asperger’s Syndrome). It makes my life HELL. Yesterday I was out at McDonalds to get supper for my family. I started talking to this person while waiting on the food. He seemed nice enough and I gave him my number so we could hang out. He called me and told me how he is happy to have me as his girlfriend. It never ONCE occurred to me that he was hitting on me and trying to ask me out. Someone from McDonalds came out to my truck with me and told me what was happening. I brushed it off but his texts are coming about how much he loves me. If I didn’t have Asperger’s Syndrome, I could have picked up on what was happening. My life could have been in danger, it still could be in danger now! All because of my disorder that I would give ANYTHING to be rid of. I’m terrified right now over this and enraged by how Tumblr makes it like having these disorders are the “ideal way to live”. FUCK THAT!! I do not want this. I never wanted this. I want to be NORMAL! But I can’t be normal. I’ve been “kicked out” of the neurodivergent “community” on here as well! Because I HATE having these problems and want to be cured of them! And I feel wrong for having them and feel wrong for not wanting to have them. Everyone on here says “it not a disorder, it a type!” and “never support anything or anyone who wants to find a cure for neurotypes!” and I am utterly SICK of this way of thinking and it puts me to tears.