#mod mcgee

Oh man, it was kinda trippy to have it hit full force that I was real? Like...I knew I was real, I had fronted before and stuff, but to know how I looked and acted was just beyond a character in a daydream...and actually a separate entity from the others? That was weird, man. -Mod Muse

For me, it was kinda just this moment of “oh”. Because kids even at a young age can tell when they’re different from other kids. And growing up I always knew there was something different about me, something I did the other kids didn’t have to go through. And when I realized I was the host of a system, it all just kinda fell into place. These guys help me tons, though, and I wouldn’t trade them for the world. -Mod Tim

I come out swinging with a dagger in my hand. I'm here to protect the others Keep bad guys out. 

I come out swinging with a dagger in my hand. Ready to hurt anyone who hurts us Designed to strike first Just in case. 

I come out swinging with a dagger in my hand Only my friends know I don't need it I could stop anyone needed by other means But that doesn't mean I want to. 

I come out swinging with a dagger in my hand Except for the days I don't. I stand firm, shield blocking the attacks 

The enemies are too strong for me to hurt them Or I simply cannot find it in me to fight I stand firm, shield blocking the attacks. 

I cannot let them in to hurt the others I am designed to prevent this, after all I have to prove my worth somehow I stand firm, shield blocking the attacks. 

Y’know, I know most people don’t care, because I saw it today, but just flat out refusing to listen to someone when they try to explain themselves is...really rude. Even if they’re not explaining it well, it wouldn’t kill you to be patient. We tried to explain something today and the body wound up shaking for about an hour. The bipolar still has us depressed, almost 4 hours later. I just...you expect...us to handle this. Tell us we’re not valid in our feelings and then refuse to let us explain, because we don’t fit one person’s idea of a rigid structure on a spectrum. We’re no less median than anyone else, just because we lean towards multiple!

“We're all one person, we're just different sides with different outlooks, and that doesn't really mean that those different views make us different. Anyone can look at something from more than one side, and that doesn't make them a full system. It's our attachment to the core that makes us median. But it's hard to explain that, even for me, and I'm the logic facet!”

^This is how I can explain us given time to process and think. I was not allowed that time. We’re a median system, because we are all codependent on one another. All of us put together are the core that made us. We can’t make it without one another somewhere along the line, and we most certainly have times where were we each our own individual person, we would have most likely broken down and never recovered. But because it’s easier to think of us as us, and sign each other’s messages to say who is thinking what, and treat each other like people rather than fragments, we’re not a median system anymore, apparently. No, we have to be a “full system,” because “that’s not what median is!”

I’m sorry. I’m mad and I needed to vent somewhere where the people who made Tim nearly make the body have an anxiety attack wouldn’t see. I just think that maybe, you should give people the benefit of the doubt when they fall on a spectrum, even if they don’t fit your idea of it.

A “moodboard”-style project in what we hope will be a series for some, if not all, all of the alters in our system! First up, our lovely host Tim! Sources under the cut!

Thank you!!! We’re very excited!