Vent (also gross cw) ed as an adult culture is knowing no one can really tell you what to do and not to do and kind of literally letting your kitchen become the biggest mess so you just disgust yourself into not eating but then you get disgusted in yourself for letting it get that bad.  like I had literal bugs in my kitchen because I had been using the cleaning up as a way to avoid eating because everything's gross so why would I want to touch it and then I found bugs in my kitchen now I fucking hate myself and it's disgusting (I literally ended up buying raid and spraying a lot of it in my kitchen and I'm leaving it overnight so they like die off and I can just clean up everything tomorrow but I'm so mad at myself for ever letting it get that bad but I never hear of anyone else doing this so this might just be a uniquely me being insane thing )
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