#mmay

*for some reason the fic header wont load and im impatient lol*

Tick, tock. The clock never seemed to stop. It was always moving forward, pushing farther, but I, I’m still stuck. Stuck in a paradox of being lonely at my own demise and being alone because the universe couldn’t seem to let me be with someone.

Alone.

I sat alone in my apartment at 22, watching couples kiss on television. Chinese take out boxes and ale bottles scattered across my coffee table as the world prepared to take on a new year. A new year to better themselves, a new year to let go of old grudges and move forward. Like the ticking clock that hung on my kitchen wall.

Unlike me, who sat in my reeling chair in flannel pajama pants, and a t-shirt that could be a dress on me. I look out my window that showed my small city’s downtown skyline, hoping this would be my year. I would get my raise, I would get the small house that I wanted, I would meet someone who make me less alone. The vibration of my phone pulls me back to reality. The blue message from my best friend lights up my dark sitting room. I click on the video that she sent me.

“Ara, sweets, HAPPY FUCKING NEW YEARS BABE! I don’t know why you wouldn’t come tonight, Rob- Robert come say hi!” My best friend’s fiancé came onto the screen. Half drunk, both of them smile at each other with enough affection that could make one sick, but I was used to it. People passing by in the background in a home full of loud music and people I didn’t knew meant that my friends were at the party that they invited me two weeks earlier. The reason I didn’t want to go wasn’t because it was New Years and I would be in a place where the only people I knew would be throat deep with their tongues in each other’s mouths. It was because I was tired of the same thing happening over and over. I would come over there, drink a few beers, find someone to make small talk with and feel like there could be something, but in return I would never hear from them again after the night.

I wanted something different.

“Hey Arabella, too bad you couldn’t come, but hope you have a good night!” Rob’s shaggy brown hair flipped across the screen as he began to suck on my best friend’s neck.

“Rob, stop, not nowww”

The video cuts off and I’m left with my TV illuminating my dark room. I sigh, putting my phone down on the arm of the chair. Only a few more minutes until the ball drops in New York City…

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Willy handed me another beer as I watched on the Telly. Seacrest was announcing Harry on stage. God, I can’t explain how proud of him and all the boys I am. I turn around on my stool, looking into the crowd of couples getting cozy as the ball is getting closer to dropping. In this bar, I’m the only single person in the room. The feeling of this is something I’ve always dealt with. Except for the occasional flings, I've never felt the need to be in a relationship. With work and what comes with it, I don’t have the time for a girlfriend, and I don’t mind it, except for times like these when I’m the only one who doesn’t have someone.

“Niall, mate, come on, the balls about to drop!” I nod to my cousin as I leave my place at the bar. Stepping outside into the cold air, I look up to the night sky, looking for the brightest star I could find, and wish that I could find someone who loved me for who I was and not what I brought to the relationship.

“3….2….”

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“1!” The ball drops on my tv and I close my eyes, wishing on the bright ball that represented new beginnings that I could have a new beginning.

For example, I felt so sorry for Kong when Arthit started avoiding him. On the other hand, I understood Arthit, too. Kong made him feel confused and not a little uncomfortable because he made him question everything he thought he knew about himself. No wonder he needed time and space.

And May and M. M really wouldn’t have said anything, right? About liking May. He knew that May liked Kong and he didn’t take it out on her or on Kong, even though it hurt M took it in stride. And he was there for May when Kong rejected her - like a friend, he didn’t take advantage of her. He still would’ve kept quiet about his feelings if she hadn’t asked him outright. Gosh, I loved his answer!

“You don’t have to like me back. Just don’t change the way you are.”

“You took a Polaroid of us then discovered the rest of the world was black and white, but we were in screaming color..”

Arabella hated being single. She was the only single one out of all her friends, who were either married or in a content relationship. Sure, she knew that every relationship wasn’t perfect, but time and time again all Arabella wanted was somebody who wouldn’t make Friday nights so lonely.

So after one fateful wish when the ball dropped in New York City, she woke up in a strange bed, a strange room, and a strange body only to find out she isn’t herself anymore.

Time and unsettling events lead Arabella to the only person who she knows that could help her….her soulmate who’s she possessing, who is none other than world popstar Niall Horan.

a mini fic about being careful what you wish for and finding your true love in the midst of chaos.

Animelo summer live 2015 day 1 making 

pic 1: for cute purpose