#mlp fluttercord

The God of Chaos, who mocks every rule, laughs at authority, and bowed to no one.

He sat on his knee, looking up at the little lady he had long fallen in love with. An open ring box was in his shaky hands, displaying a simple yet beautiful ring that matched her perfectly. The way in glimmered in the light matched the twinkle of Fluttershy's widening eyes.

"Discord..."

His toothy grin widened at her sweet voice whispering his name. Sweat dripped profusely as the seconds passed. Was it hot in here, or was this the most scary moment of his life?

How many creatures can say they've seen Discord afraid?

Her heart beat against her chest. "Discord, I... W-We..."

Everyone was looking. Everyone. She just wanted to run away; her heart beat painfully against her chest. Why here? Why now? Why in front of everyone? Her body was shaking. Her mind was racing.

Immortal. Endless. Forever. Death. Mortality. Panic.

How can he ever love someone like her?

"I... I can't marry you, Discord!" The words bursted out before she could stop them. "It- It would never work! Can't you see? Discord, you-- I'm--"

She covered her mouth instantly, as she could unspeak her words. But the damage was already done. Her pupils shrunk as the moment set in. "Th-That's not wh-what..."

But the ring box was already snapped shut, and he was already off his knee, towering over the silent ballroom. His grin was gone. The audience couldn't look away; Pinkie began to cry somewhere in the back, and Applejack was too stunned to quiet her down.

But Fluttershy couldn't care less about them in this moment, let alone see them through the tears. All she could see what the man's color drained from his face. Panic clawed up her throat as she opened her mouth to speak, but--

"I see." He spoke matter-of-factly, without a single hint of playfulness. His low voice was stripped of any simulance of warmth. "I must have misunderstood our relationship. Rest assured, I shan't make that mistake again."

She had never seen him so calm, even at his calmest. Cold politeness would be a better description. Somehow, that hurt her more than if he yelled instead.

Fluttershy shook her head rapidly, reaching out her arms, "n-no, no, D-Discord, I panicked, its not-- Wait!"

A flintch- or a scowl- replaced his calm features a second before the air around them warped and the lights flickered, then

Poof.

He was gone like he had never been there.

Fluttershy collapsed onto the marble floor, a sob tearing out of her chest violently. Her hands covered her face like it would shield her from the stares she was recieving. But she must've deserved it; she humilated him in front everyone. Everyone they knew were there.

She had spoken the wrong words, words that would damage him.

"I... I love you," the whisper hardly existed at all. And Discord would never be able to hear it.

"Oh, for Celestia's sake, can't ya'll quit starin'? Mind your own business!" Applejack's voice boomed, causing noble to flinch.

Within a few moments, the ballroom returned to life. Elites returned to their conversations that had clearly died minutes ago, waiting for Applejack to walk away before gossiping amount the event they had witnessed. Even the Princesses exchanged sympathetic looks before continuing their conversation with forced composure.

"Fluttershy!" Rainbow Dash appeared from above with a gust of wind, panic across her face, "what in Equestria was that??" Twilight floated besides her, a sympathy softening her expression.

"R-Rainbow Dash," Fluttershy choked out between sobs, "how can he ma-marry me when I'm gonna die? H-He-He's immortal!"

"Oh, darling..." Rarity got onto her knees, placing her fur coat across Fluttershy's bare shoulders. "There, there... when you explain to him what you meant, I'm sure everything will be alright," her gentle words betrayed the uncertainty in her eyes.

"Yeah, maybe it'd be okay if this didn't just happen in front of, like, 200 people and- I dont know- THE PRINCESSES!" Rainbow Dash's voice squeaked, throwing her arms up. "Not exactly a private misunderstanding!"

"Will you hush, Rainbow?" Applejack warned sternly, putting her hands on her hips. "Ya think she needs to hear your fear mongerin' right now?"

But Fluttershy hardly heard them. She was hardly even present- stuck in her mind, replaying that look on his face. The face of the man she loved- the way it changed into something unrecognizable just before he disappeared. Did he flinch? Or was it a look of utter disgust?

It was haunting her-- gosh, she just wanted to leave and never return. She wished this night didn't happen. That wasn't the look of love or anger- no, it must've been hate. He must hate her now.

Her breathing picked up as she looked among her friends, hands soaked in tears.

"H-He won't e... ever talk to me again. Not ever..." she whispered between sobs. Her heart broke into another million pieces just at the thought. Life before Discord was hardly worth remembering. It was peaceful, sure, but there wasn't peaceful like hearing the teasing remarks and tea time with the God of Chaos.

Even if they never explicitly dated, let alone kissed, their relationship was more than friendship. It was love. More than enough love for a "yes, I do" instead of a "I can't, this would never work."

“Well, maybe if we go to your cottage right now, he’ll be there!” Pinkie Pie exclaimed, grabbing Fluttershy’s hands and pulling her to her feet, making Rarity's coat fall right off.

Rarity furrowed her eyebrows as she stood up, brushing any dirt off the coat, "we beg your pardon?"

“Duh! Discord can teleport! Maybe he’s back at your house being all sad and dramatic, reminiscing the memories of being Fluttershy's boyfriend, before deciding never to speak to anyone ever again."

Several glares were shot in Pinkie's way, but she brushed it off. "What, I'm not wrong!"

Fluttershy's breath hitched at the idea. If Pinkie's correct in her idea, what would she even say? Could she even speak without sobbing instead? And if Discord isn't there...

Oh Celestia, she couldn't imagine never seeing Discord again. Fluttershy turned to her most trusted friend, Twilight, with panic in her eyes.

“T-Twilight… do you think he’d really be there…?”

The Princess of Friendship slowly descended to the floor, biting her lower lip as she thought it over. "I suppose... I can imagine that possibility. He wouldn't expect you to appear so suddenly."

Rainbow Dash and Applejack exchanged looks, finding no room for disagreement.

Twilight sighed heavily, rubbing the back of her neck. “I mean… after something like this, I doubt he’d want to stay here.” Her ears lowered sympathetically. “And you probably don’t either.”

Fluttershy’s fingers tightened against the floral lace of her dress, creating wrinkles that made Rarity tense up at the sight of. She sniffed, wiping away some fresh tears.

“We’ll miss you at the Gala,” Twilight continued, giving her friend a light hug. Fluttershy returned the hug as the rest of their friends joined in for a moment, before pulling away. Twilight lit her horn, closing her eyes. "We'll see you soon, Fluttershy."

...

With a flash, Fluttershy stumbled into her cottage home, unaccustomed to the dark environment. Angel hopped away, startled by the sudden intrusion.

"Discord!" She shouted before she even came to her senses, rushing over the open window and looking outside. "Discord, please, if y-you hear me! I-I wanna talk, p-please! I'm sorry!" Tears streamed down her face as she spoke; each following second of silence was even more dreadful than the last. Utter desperation clawed at her throat, straining her vocal chords.

"I-I was wrong, D-Discord... I love you so much, please!" she cried out as she checked the bedroom, where they had slept together most nights. He was much taller, so he'd spoon her since the bed was too small for long legs.

"You don't need to f-forgive me! I was s-so stupid..." she checked the garden, where they spent most of their time together. The strange, talking flowers he made in the garden were gone.

"Y-You don't even need to show yourself to me... just know I..." she whispered as she checked the last place she could imagine him being next. The lakeside. "I-I was... I-I... I'm so stupid."

The only company she had was the large, full moon reflecting on the gentle ripples of the water. In any other circumstance, the view would have been serene. Now, its lonely.

And it never became less lonely.

By now, her friends had long since returned to Ponyville with little good to say about the Grand Galloping Gala- which, admittedly, was nothing new. They talked, laughed, complained, moved on.

But Fluttershy couldn’t. No matter how often they visited, no matter how gently they spoke, nothing reached her anymore. Not Applejack’s encouragement. Not Rarity’s comfort. Not even Pinkie Pie’s desperate attempts to make her smile. It wasn't the same without him. Life isn't the same without him.

How do you grieve when its your own fault he's gone? Rainbow Dash can say he never should've proposed in public, but regardless, what she said was wrong.

It grew lonely without her daily items coming to life with a snap of his fingers. It was too quiet without his sarcastic comments muttered said from nowhere just to hear her giggle. And worst of all, the bed was always too cold without him. Always.

And the memory of the look on his face played in her mind, again and again. Every night for the past month, she had replayed it. Discord kneeling awkwardly, with that toothy grin, holding out a ring with trembling claws while pretending he was totally calm.

And her panicking.

Fluttershy slept with the only photo she had of him each night. It was from whenever they first met, and he took the photo by surprise as he tore the world up in the background. She liked that photo a lot because it showed his nature better than anything. He was the chaos that was Yang, and she was calm Yin that needed him to function.

"...I didn't say I didn't love you... I was scared..."

Another sleepless night dragged on. She hugged the photo onto her chest as she stared up at the ceiling in bed, her legs pulled up close. The tears on her face had long since dried, but the grief within her ribcage was heavier than ever. "Please come back," her voice cracked, "...let me explain, Discord..."

"Explain? What exactly is there to explain?"

Fluttershy's gentle breathing went to a complete stop. She didn't have the courage to look at the foot of her bed, let alone speak. As a silent moment passed, she simply sighed, closing her eyes. The loneliness must be driving her crazy. She'd hear his voice a few times, but it was always just her imagination.

"... Just as I thought. You can't even bare to look at me."

A gasp sharp erupted as she sat forward onto her knees, eyes widened. Her fists gripped the bedsheets as she took in his appearance, the words slipping out before she could stop them.

"Discord! You're really here!"

The man stood tall by the foot of her bed, his expression unreadable. He looked tired, even if he didn't need sleep. His mismatched eyes stared blankly into hers.

As much as she wanted to smile, tears pricked her eyes within a moment- and then a wail escaped her lips.

"I'm sorry! I-I'm so-- I swear I didn't mean to- I--" within a moment, her babbling dissolved into pathetic sobs as she dipped her head into her hands.

“I love you so much,” she choked out. “I-I don’t want to die and leave you alone… I don’t want you to have to watch me disappear someday… I was scared!”

His expression completely faltered. She didn't even notice him approach her side until his arms wrapped around her head and pulled her into his chest. He breathed out unevenly as Fluttershy wrapped her arms around him desperately, hugging him like he'd disappear the moment she let go.

"...Oh, Fluttershy." His claws pet her head softly, already feeling his shirt soak from all the tears. "Shhh... Oh, you ponies are terribly emotional creatures," he murmured weakly, though no real mockery in it now.

His deep voice rumbled soothingly in his chest, calming her slightly as she pulled away just enough to look up at his face through tear-blurred eyes. His hand stroked her hair, brushing out a few tangles, with an expression almost as unreadable as before.

But, it looked relieved.

"Don't you think I had already considered your mortality?" He spoke as his thumb wiped away her tear.

His mismatched eyes looked even more beautiful from this angle.

"Fluttershy... I would rather spend one day as your husband than a million without ever knowing you."