#mjcl

That bitches eyes sparlkin like they be them geeeemmmmzzz

YOu seem him walking into school, head down, infinite frown, the night before his parents beat him like when they hit  the town, they go all out no remorse, just horsey gang nothing but force. See his eyes red an puffy you dont know what’s going through his mind, next thing you know he’s packing the lead and hes getting all kind. he can’t take it no more, no, this young boy got all his demons holding him down to the floor he wanna close them out and lock the door , but he can’t, you made him feel so sore. he comes to school with his head full of thoughts and his pistol full of lead, you know today is the only day he forgot to take his meds, it’s to late to talk him out of it in his mind he’s already on his way to see the feds. He’s all grown up now he’s staying in the shadows looking all shaded, to much bullshit, reason he gets faded, niggas be looking he feeln hated. The suiside note he wrote has got a typo, he’s the only one in his own lifeboat, help him out all he wanna do is scream and shout. His soul be screaming out to me he aint nothhing but empty i tell him “bitch dont ever disrespect me, all i want you to do is be my envy, dont you know how to shed me, mr lee, ill fuck with your chi, before you get to pick between the right thing to do and me. 

I'm unsure of what the future holds but I honestly hope it has her in it. Words can't explain the feelings I get when seeing her it's so unusual. Her smile is so so so perfect, her eyes, lips, body Ughhhh... I've like become attached to her and I can't stop thinking.. She likes me slightly maybe but she still likes him and he's not good for her 😔

I miss her. So bad. But i need to stop myself.Because hope is a fucked up thing.