#mixedemotion

Hello 2018, This is the first picture of Calabia family. From left to right, Howell, Dade Kiko, Mame Karen, Trixia, Frances, Anthony, Mark, Frank-its me and Mikko who’s on the laptop’s screen. My only wish for this year is to have a happy family, can I?

Lemme tell the story behind this photo, honestly, I stealthily cried while seeing my parents talking with my brother who’s in another country. I should be happy but I can’t keep myself to feel the insecurity because of the words that they left to my brother, “Oh, Anak kamusta na jan?” I really felt how they put the emphasis on these words like they want to take him on screen just to be with us in medianoche. I envy those words coming from their lips because hapless, I can count on my fingers those sweet moments that they gave to me, I am unfortunate because they didn’t even give me compliments on my special day. The siblings said to be an ally, not an enemy but why they always gave me a shit like backstabbing me and tell the world the negative side of mine? :(

 Sometimes, I wish to be with another family because the unity always stands out and they really love each other. I can't help myself to be happy on this event because as we celebrate, every one of us has own roof doing their stuffs. l understand the situation but why they don’t give their special treatment to the people who are in front of them, and who’s in the other place is lucky to be given so much attention. I may be stubborn to them but whatever the reason is, I love them from the bottom of my heart. 

Happy new year and let this year be a fruitful one.