#mitsuyaya

☆༉ contains: spoiler for anime watchers, character death, angst, delusions, just pure angst

☆༉ end note: don't mind the errors i just want to get this out of my system, I'll edit it in the morning (hopefully)

Clouds obscure the glowing full moon, hiding the twinkling stars, masking the light with darkness, making the surrounding more gloomy and lifeless than they already were.

Your shaky, shallow breaths and the crunch of your footsteps on the leafy undergrowth are the only noises that filled the barren woods. During the daytime it was kept to the public, covered with yellow tapes that reads, ‘Do Not Cross’ — but when night comes to nigh, it's free to lurk around, it's free for your eyes to wander on. 

Each step you take, deeper into the heart of the forest and into the designated place you would always go to – your eyes caught the sight of blue ribbons tied around the trees. 

Aki – he was the one who put it there, saying that it's your landmark so you wouldn't get lost. 

He said it's because you have no sense of direction, often losing yourself at the mall or in any place you would go to. It's his way of looking out for you, he says.

Exhaustion is catching up on you, from the whole day you keep on working up to this point – your legs are already trembling, knees gradually giving up the longer you try to walk around.

No worries, it's only a matter of time til’ you see him again.

It's only a few meters, a few minutes til’ you see the person your heart constantly longs for.

Hayakawa Aki, the man who tied those blue ribbons in the tree, the man who would always lead you to the forest — he was the man your heart calls for every night, every day.

He's the man you see in your dreams and in the corner of your eyes, the owner of those blue eyes that you always find yourself drowning in.

Aki, the man your body, heart and soul always yearned for.

“Finally, I'm sorry it took me longer to arrive.” Your lips curved into a small smile, exhaustion long gone the second you arrived at your destination.

“Did I make you wait?” taking a deep breath, swallowing the lump that formed in your throat, you steal a glance at the man you fell for time and time again. 

He didn't change, he's still the same guy you saw the last time, though he's a little quieter than he was before, he's still the same guy you love.

“I've been doing well these past few days, are you proud of me?”

That's a lie.

“I gained weight and even finished my chores.”

And another.

Your head tells you to stop talking, to look at your companion and open your eyes to reality. The reality that he's dead — Aki’s dead.

But your heart tells you to hold on, keep breathing this cruel fantasy, keep fooling yourself that it's all but a dream — and the guy you love is still alive, still beside you and listening to your every word.

Your heart tells you to keep loving him, to continue loving him despite the way you lose yourself in the process. 

“I don't want this anymore Aki, what do I do?”

Talking to his grave or this made up tomb you made for him is futile. Your pleas and questions won't be answered—none of it would have a chance to be solved unless you accept the truth. 

The truth that he's not by your side anymore.

Leaning your head back, watching as the clouds disperse and let the moon glisten, a tear fell from your eyes.

“I miss you Aki, I wish you're here.”

contains: slightly suggestive, hints of sex, reader is called angel (I am uncreative when it comes to petname)

end note: @laineeey00-ontherun I tried to change your req from my ask game :D did it work :')

“Gonna have to let me go now y’know” Stilling yourself on his chest, you tangled your legs into his, uncaring about the words he just said. “Come on, I need to clean you up.” you still refused to budge, nuzzling your face into the crook of his neck, nails digging into his forearms. You felt Higuruma heave a sigh, too exhausted to even argue with you any longer. Hands finding solace into your hair, pads of his fingers rubbing your scalp as he let out a hum. It was silent. After the rigorous activity earlier, the pain, pleasure and lust, devolved into contentment and ease – like it all fades to black. The throbbing pain from earlier is still evident, along with the bites, marks, handprints that littered across your body – mirroring the marks in his body as well. Breaths heaving in unison, the man in front of you – the man whose heartbeat is just beneath your palm, rapid and frantic perhaps because of the said activity or probably because you're here with him, the insatiable effect of your body, scent, essence mixing with his – entangled with Higuruma's. “You know, sometimes I still find myself falling asleep with you on my mind.” he muttered those words casually, fingers gently ghosting over your shoulders. “Like what kind of wedding would we have, how many kids will we have, or will you prefer pets- just you and the future.” with every drip of his words, it renders you speechless. He punctuates them with a loving smile, that even if you can't see it just yet – you can feel it, you can feel the genuinity and the sincerity in every word. You detach yourself from his arm, backing away to meet his gaze. “You're already thinking of the future?” he laughs, not to mock you but out of affection, adoration, earnestly. “I wouldn't be dating you for five years if I wasn't serious, angel.” the hammering in your chest pounded as if it's gonna leap out from your chest, feels as if it's engulfed in flame “I love you so much, angel. There's no other person in this world I'd rather spend my whole life with.” Higuruma kisses you thrice; velvety lips pressing into your forehead, the tip of your nose, then lingering into your lips. “Never forget that.” He cradles the back of your head, forehead's touching, noses nudging against one another. The smile on your face never left as he uttered those words, tears threatening to spill yet you hold it in – until he wipes them away, kissing your eyelids when you shut them. “What's gotten into you?” “Nothing, just felt like telling that to you.” And just like earlier, it's quiet again. Save from both of your breathings and your hearts beating simultaneously.

it's upsetting how fleeting promises are: the countless assurances, envisioning the future, longing stares and fits of giggles accompanying each and every childish claim – will be morphed into nothingness once the thrill expires.

“you told me you'd wait ‘tsumu, you promised.” tears that you've held back once you had seen the news (a devastating news about how the MSBY’s setter has been seen kissing someone) came pouring down, falling without intention of ceasing.

you tried to hold it in really, but when nights like this – devoid of outside noises, memories flooding your mind, your body searching for the familiar feeling you've missed – you can't help but think of all the times you spent with him.

how Atsumu would repeatedly tell you how much he loves you, compliments you in every single thing you do, how his eyes would only be fixated on you no matter how many people come his way, and how he vowed that even with this distance his heart will only call and beat for you.

it turns out all of it was just temporary.

“why can't you wait?” your voice sounded hoarse, like you're stuck in the desert with no water in sight, just like how Atsumu’s oaths are nowhere to be found.

“am I not enough? have I made you wait for too long?”

was the assurance you told him lacking?

was the distance between his work and yours really so far that he couldn't help it and find someone else?

or were you just that replaceable?

but to be honest, even with the anger and bitterness residing in your heart – “please come back atsumu.” – you can't still find it in yourself to let go of him completely.

☆༉ end note: a repost from my old blog <3

🏷️ nsfw masterlist

The car moves in sync with every thrust, the heavy pouring of the rain was left unheard by the couple inside the car. Both are preoccupied with their desire to chase each other’s high, and the need to be as close as possible.

“F-fuck tsumu don’t stop” nails raking his back, legs wrapping around his waist, encouraging him to go deeper. Atsumu complied, tightening his grip on your waist, adjusting his position to hit that one spot that makes you see stars.

Being stuck in the middle of a highway, heavy rain flooding your route, made Atsumu decide to park somewhere so you could wait for the rain to stop. You weren’t expecting this, maybe because the weather is too cold, or perhaps it was the primal need to warm each other up using body heat, you didn’t know. All you know was, you didn’t regret it one bit.

“Angel- god yer so tight” Atsumu let his other hand wander your upper body, caressing and toying your supple breast. Spewing praises about how good you are, and how hot you look right now.

The sudden strike of thunder made you claw his back much harsher, hiding your fear by moaning out his name, he let out a growl when he felt you tightening up. His heels were digging on the seat below him. Atsumu wanted more, wanted to be closer than you already are. Panting, he inched his face closer to yours, forehead touching as he felt his cock reach deeper, nudging your cervix.

Your hands flew to his hair, with every strike of lightning his position changes, it’s making you delirious at this point. You tugged his hair, feeling yourself close to your much awaited release, Atsumu groaned loving the way you pulled on his hair, seeing your fucked out expression made him crazy, dragging his cock out of your cunt slowly, as he watched with adoration how your pussy greedily sucking him in.

Atsumu fucked you in every position, in every hole, in every space there is yet the rain won’t stop, as if it wants him to lose his mind over your body. But Atsumu wouldn’t lie though, he loves it, he loves how he’s stuck in the middle of the highway with you, warming each other while waiting for the rain to cease.

☆༉ contains: angst, major character death

“You know, they said if the clock reads 11:11 you should close your eyes and wish for anything you want” Baji smiled at you, soon closing his eyes and bowing his head, hands interlocking each other tightly, his brows knitted. His concentration made you chuckled.

The night is cold and quiet, stars decorated the heavens, clouds passing swiftly. Nights like this were spent with you and Baji on top of the roof, gazing at the skies, peering down at the streets, watching how the little kids started dispersing and headed inside their home. It's peaceful.

“They can't grant everything Baji” finishing his wish, he whipped his head in your direction and let out a childish huff.

He smacked your arm playfully, “You're mean, I just find it interesting, what's wrong with that?” Nothing, nothing was wrong with it. Rather, you find it incredibly hilarious, the fearless and feral Baji Keisuke believes in something so idiotical.

“What did you wish for?” you asked, still staring at the full moon. “Hm, I wished to keep my hair as luscious as it is.” The tone of his voice was nothing sort of a joke, he was being serious. But that still didn't stop you from laughing, fits of giggle and snort filled the quiet night.

“What's so funny about that? I'm being honest!” there he goes with his tantrum again, he really is childish. But you find it endearing, one of the reasons you fell for him, you guess.

“That's a stupid wish.” he still didn't look your way, and so did you. It was silent again, the swaying of the leaves the only thing you could hear. Before Baji broke the silence.

“And what about you, did you wish for something? Is it something stupid too?” you stay still, gaze moving from the moon to his face, you can't see him vividly, the dim surrounding won't let you. Still, you can make out his expression, excited, beaming with enthusiasm, just like he usually does.

“I wished for them to bring you back.”

His face morphed from excitement to realization to anguish. You once again stared at the moon, a tear rolling down your cheek, forcing yourself to remain as calm as possible, you mumbled. “Tell me Baji, can they grant a stupid wish like that?” Baji was no longer around you, you can no longer feel his presence, or his voice.

He's gone. “I wish he's still alive”

☆༉ contains: unedited, shitted my way all throughout this timestamp

“I'm not gonna blow that candle Kento”

Nanami's brow twitched, he kept on telling you to get it over with, to blow the candle so he could cut them to slice, and so he could rest already.

“Angel please” if you really could, you'd blow it without a second thought but the thought you had earlier is forbidding you to even breathe close to the candle.

“Tell me why don't you want to blow the candle”

“No” Nanami's losing his patience.

“Angel, tell me or I'll blow it out for you”

“You'd laugh at me” you crossed your arms, frowning at his words. you'd want to do it really, you want to tell the reason too but you're scared

“Highly doubt it, now tell me” he took a seat next to you, placing an arm around your waist, subtly soothing you.

“You won't laugh?” Nanami nodded, prompting you to continue. This isn't really what you plan on your birthday, this wasn't what you wanted to end the day with.

“Blowing a candle on your birthday means you're getting older right. I just, I just don't want to get older Kento, I want to stay with you longer.”

There's an old show you watched before, saying that if you blow your candle on the day of your birthday it means your getting older. Of course you thought it's hilarious before but when you met Nanami. When you fall deeper for him, awaiting for his arrival everyday, his little gestures made you yearn for him.

You don't want to grow old yet, you want to stay with him longer, watch society changes and grew as time passes by. You wanted to be with him longer, to spend all of your days with him.

“Well that's a bit foolish don't you think?” Nanami rose from his seat, leaving the seat next to you. That was really stupid. You knew for sure that this would be one of the outcome once you told him that. Covering your face from embarrassment, you suddenly felt arms wrapped around your waist. Warm breath fanning against your ear.

“That's a bit foolish, even if you grow old we'll still be together angel. We'll always spend all of our days for the rest of our lives.” You don't really believe in that stupid thought but the longer you fell for Nanami, made you just want to be a little bit selfish and greedy. You want him all for yourself, to keep him for as long as you could.

“I love you Kento”

“I love you too angel, now please blow out the candle it's starting to melt”

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