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All The Young Dudes Ch. 19. “Leaving their mark on Hogwarts”

I'm on chapter 51

Just wanted to talk about the scene where Sirius is locking himself up in the bathroom because of Snape insulting him about his family (that bastard) (Snevillus they could never make me like you)

It wounded me how James asked Rem to leave - the way it hurted him to say it, he was scared to pain Remus' feelings because it didn't meant to be mean, but at the same time all he wanted to do was to help Siri and he thought he was doing the right thing

What hurted me even more was Sirius letting Remus in but not James, even tho he was the one who tried to make Sirius feel better, tried to help - it wasn't the right way to do it indeed but my poor baby never experienced toxic family dynamic

I can't stop wondering how Jamie must have felt when Sirius said 'Remus can come in' and then closed the door brutally, even tho he was the one who tried to help the most - he knocked and tried to talk to Sirius through the door just for the latter to talk back harshly and letting Remus (who wanted to leave Sirius alone instead) enter

I'M NOT CRITICIZING SIRIUS OR REMUS, NOT AT ALL - just thinking of how James must have felt, he probably felt guilty for not being able to understand or help his best friend properly

However I loved that little moment between Rem and Siri - Sirius' anger issues implied by him not controlling his magic when upset was priceless, and the way he just wanted to stay with Remus and no one else was just the cutest

Anyways I love ATYD, I know I should have read it earlier!!

⚠️ Spoiler alert chapters 76 to 172 ⚠️

I wish I saved more but I either got this idea too late or wasn’t feeling like saving anything during the last parts. Phrases and lines I enjoyed (can you say so about the moments which hurt like a bitch?) the most are in bold.

“Anything for our Moony!” Sirius grinned again, and suddenly everything was back to normal, and the dorm room was just their dorm room, and these incredible people were just his friends.

- Chapter 76: Fifth Year: Moony & Co.

 “What happened to him?” Sirius asked, very quietly, “What happened to make him end up here, like this?”

“He got kicked out of St Edmund’s, two years ago,” Remus yawned, his eyes growing heavy. “Didn’t have anywhere else to go… can’t get a job because he didn’t do his exams at school. And I’m guessing he hasn’t got a proper address.”

“Remus?”

“Mm?”

“This wouldn’t happen to you, would it? Because you’ve got us.”

“Yeah,” he murmured sleepily, only half paying attention, “I’ve got you, Padfoot. Don’t worry about me.”

- Chapter 118: Summer 1977: Part 5

 “Tell me a secret? A nice one?”

Remus paused. He kissed Sirius’s hair.

“I’m mental about you, too.”

- Chapter 126: Sevenths Year: Christmas Part 2.

 “Rosmerta!” Sirius called out, raising a hand, “Another round, darling?”

“Right you are my love…” she called back.

“Flirt.” Remus nudged him under the table.

“I’m trying to get you drunk.” Sirius replied, piously, “As requested.”  

- Chapter 139: Seventh Year: Drunkards

“Sirius?”

“Yeah?”

“You’re magic.”

- Chapter 139: Seventh Year: Drunkards

“Anything for our Moon---”

Remus shut him up with a kiss.

- Chapter 143: Seventh Year: Breakdown

He didn’t want his only monument to be the whomping willow, or that godforsaken shack.

“How do ghosts happen?” He asked, thoughtfully, watching Nearly Headless Nick drift by, chatting with the Fat Friar.  

“Merlin, Moony, cheer the fuck up,” Sirius groaned, mouth full of chips, “You’d have to be dead to become a ghost. And I s’pose you’d have to die here, too, on school grounds.”

Remus shrugged. Dying at Hogwarts didn’t seem very likely, unless something dire was going to happen in the next few days.

- Chapter 149: Seventh Year: Legacy - Part One 

“But it's definitely him. Has to be.”

“You're sure?!”

“The first thing he said when he landed was ‘fuck’, I’m pretty certain.” Sirius snapped.

– Chapter 162: The War: Moony's Story

“Mm,” Remus shifted, making himself more comfortable, “Please call me Moony? No one has for so long.”

“Moony.” Sirius leaned forward and kissed his cheek very gently. “I love you.”

“I love you too.” Remus smiled, slipping into a warm and happy dream.

– Chapter 162: The War: Moony's Story

“I know who you are.” Sirius whispered into the empty quiet of the dark bedroom.

“Hm?” Remus asked, sleepy and confused. Sirius pulled Remus’s hand to his mouth and kissed his fingers.

“You said you don’t know who you are any more. But I do. You’re my Moony. Always will be. Ok?”

“Ok, Padfoot.”

For now it was enough.

– Chapter 163: The War: Late Spring 1979

“Imagine that!” Mary said, clearing away tea cups and mugs of coffee left behind from an Order meeting, “Their kids are all going to grow up together, and go to Hogwarts together… it’s sort of nice, isn’t it?”

Remus nodded in agreement. He would have given anything to be raised by any one of these people; to have a childhood surrounded by magic and love and laughter.

– Chapter 168: The War: Spring & Summer

1980 

“It’s awful, not trusting anyone, isn’t it?” Peter said as they left that meeting.

“Yeah.” Remus agreed glumly.

“It’s necessary.” Sirius said. “And if I knew who the spy was, I’d kill them myself. I wouldn’t even need magic.”

Peter and Remus stared at him, shocked

– Chapter 172: The War: Summer 1981

 “Hello? Hello, Remus, is that you?”

“Mary? Hi! I just got back - where the hell is everybody?!”

There was a strange silence on the end of the phone, and a horrible static prickle ran down his spine. “Mary?!”

“You haven’t heard…”

“Jesus Christ, Mary, what?!”

“Remus… something awful has happened.”

She started explaining, and Remus fell to his knees as the whole world began to fall apart.