#missingyoumom

It’s the happiest days that are the hardest.

Visiting mom...💗 #allsaintsday #missingyoumom (at Enfield Memorial Park) https://www.instagram.com/p/CVuj-JxpopndS2tCEX1SKNqF3TKUTxRSMJ4-vM0/?utm_medium=tumblr

Happy Mother’s Day in Heaven Mom 😢🙏🏽🌹❤️definitely #missingyoumom 💔 https://www.instagram.com/p/COrVkEoLnw0Ah2Np0cXRfa5uvzgxl6-nrCHGTQ0/?igshid=6ky60onkvy0d

Aku tahu, rindu ini takkan pernah menghilang Aku tahu, meski berteriak rindu pun percuma hanya menambah luka Aku tahu, takkan pernah bisa berjumpa kembali meski hanya sesaat . . Kadang, aku selalu berharap ini semua hanya mimpi di siang hari dan begitu terbangun, Mama ada di kamarnya sambil tersenyum hangat. Kadang, aku menatap dalam pada gerbang di depan rumah dan berharap sebuah kendaraan berhenti untuk menurunkan Mama. Kadang, ketika aku melakukan salah, terdengar suara Mama menegur. . . Namun, itu semua hanya khayalanku. Itu semua hanya harapan dan angan kosongku. Itu semua takkan mungkin terjadi. . . Kehidupan nyata takkan sama dengan yang ada di drakor Hi, Bye Mama! Kehidupan nyata selalu tak sejalan dengan keinginan dan harapan. Kehidupan nyata selalu menawarkan pilihan, antara belok kanan atau kiri dan maju atau mundur. . . Semua sudah menjadi suratan takdir yang takkan mungkin terhindarkan. Hanya mampu pasrah dan mendoakan, agar Mama bahagia selalu di rumah barunya. Hanya mampu berharap dapat berjumpa meski dalam mimpi. . . Menjelang enam tahun kepulangan Mama, tetap menyisakan rasa sakit yang takkan mungkin terobati. Namun, aku harus kuat dan tegar menghadapinya. Demi kehidupan selanjutnya dan Apa, orang tua yang masih harus dijaga. Semoga Apa panjang umur, sehat dan bahagia selalu. Semoga Mama bahagia selalu di rumah yang baru. Semoga kelak kami dapat berjumpa dan berkumpul kembali di akhirat-Nya. Aamiin yaa Allah. . . #feelinglost #missingyoumom #iwishyouwereheremom #ineedyourhugmom #ineedyoumom #missingsobad #aboutmom https://www.instagram.com/p/CAApmMzp8TH/?igshid=tr8oixlmh6a9

I don't usually announce my birthday but since it is my first birthday without my mom (she passed away Jan 31 2020) I want to honor her by wearing some of her clothes and accessories. She was a true #fashionista even later in life. At 79 she still loved clothes and accessories. In the first 2 photos, I'm wearing her old Christian Dior shades @diorunofficial she bought it in the 80s and always wanted me to use it too. I am wearing her embroidered white top. Mom loved embroidered stuff. I'm also wearing her bracelets/Bangles, belt, pearl earrings, necklace and shoes. Mom had great taste in #fashion and loved to shop. Mom never failed to greet me on my birthday. Growing up I always had the best birthday ever. And this is one of the many things I will truly miss. So as part of my birthday celebration I am posting some of the pictures from my childhood birthday and wonderful memories to honor her on my special day. #iloveyoumom #missingyoumom https://www.instagram.com/p/B_O18iqlet0/?igshid=uj3lb07wx8uf

#missingyou #missingyoumom #ripmom #march2019 #32819 #alwaysthinkingofyou #lifewillneverbethesame (at South Bethlehem, Bethlehem) https://www.instagram.com/p/B5I8SUFHuob1BqgYiKONfpGza_8W81-v6dCvJQ0/?igshid=bgdu43apt3hm

Remembering my mom who lost her battle with breast cancer July 4, 99...😞🙏🏽🕊🎈#breastcancerawareness #missingyoumom https://www.instagram.com/p/B3GiH22FTfiFqqMEAnoVcfYIhZtYjZJ0qXxmhg0/?igshid=1uag42jyiusnc

My mother would have turned 88 this Saturday. She died at 69, 19 years after suffering a massive stroke at 51. She was robbed of life. I lived angry for so many years, jealous of everyone who had a mother. Now, I just miss Ma every day. On her birthday. And mine. On Mother’s Day. On her death anniversary. On every milestone. And on every day that is not. This year, I will be at a friend’s wedding on my mother’s birthday, celebrating all that life has to give us. So I salute Ma tonight for all the love she bestowed on me and my brother. (This photo is of me and Ma when the world still counted my age in weeks. What I would not give to be held by Ma again.) #mother #motherdaughter #ilovemymother #missingyoumom (at Kolkata) https://www.instagram.com/p/B1aSgMgF91R/?igshid=1phyehhdmdy86