i'm having a rough day, well a rough moment. You're not here and I miss you so f'in hard. It's like... there's nothing like it.
C had to put her cat down on Saturday. Poor Tia. It was hard. It brings back all the memories of loss. Mike last year. Mom, Dad, you, Deanna, Mike, my sister in law. Otis, Cynder, Stof/Dufas (all my gone kitties really). YOU Was at the ER yesterday with the youngest. She's fine. Well, she's not, but she will be. All tests came back negative for anything serious. Might be gall bladder stuff. Livable. Terrifying. My sister texted and made me laugh which was amazing. I have to tell her that. Was talking to C the whole time, too. When she found out where I was, she was really supportive. I have great people around me. I just MISS YOU.
I miss you so much and I'm trying really hard to do all the writing that would make you proud of me. You used to know all the stuff. Like where to keep it (here, there, everywhere!) how to crosspost sh*t. So much.
Grammarly keeps trying to get me to spell check this. I don't care. You would understand it. I'm still here. I wish you were. Crossposted this in your journal. I'm not sure why. It's like talking to you. I talk to you on Discord, too. It's like spamming the afterlife. Heh. I like that. More spam to come, Jaxie. Save me a seat at the banquet.
