#misaamane

let's see paul allen's deathnote - @anibuz

☆MISA☆MISA☆

I'm in love with this one, finally a drawing I spent more than 2 hours on ;u; 2 Versions because L had to join in somehow

We all know how Misa is. She's this super obsessive slash toxic girlfriend that people romanticize (for some reason?).

Misa is an extremely excused character in the series. I always say this: if you don't justify Light's actions, you can't justify Misa's.

Especially because Misa goes hand in hand with Light.

I can get why you'd have a soft spot for her; at the end of the day, she and Matsuda are the goofy characters that make a serious anime not so serious. You can see that she's cute, funny, has a good style and BOOM: everyone LOVES HER....BECAUSE SHE'S AESTHETIC.

People don't defend Light on the same level as Misa because he simply does not have that essence...he's attractive, sure; but looking at his real personality (no Death Note) he's pretty bland:

"Who likes an anime character like that?!"

Says someone in the background.

It's all a matter about appereances really, but I think people do not notice that the personality they're romanticizing is in fact A PERSONALITY DISORDER

(WHAAAAAAATTTTT).

Sounds weird putting it that way, BECAUSE IT'S ACTUALLY WEIRD. A disorder is really something you wish not to have because it's a mental illness.

Now, I mentioned it's a disorder, but which one?

Well if you read the title correctly it' DPD, and I'll explain why:

"What is DPD?"

A Dependent Personality Disorder is a Cluster C illness.

"What is a Cluster C?"

Psychology divides disorders in Clusters (group of disorders that share similar traits).

◀ Cluster A: odd and eccentric patients (e.g: schizophrenia spectrum).

◀ Cluster B: dramatic and unpredicatable (e.g: ASPD, Histrionic disorder).

◀ Cluster C: anxious and fearful (e.g OCPD and this case, DPD).

So we know that DPD is characterized by an anxious personality. In this case, it's the NECESSITY of feeling loved and taken care of by someone, you're afraid you'll be left by that someone, and you act submissive with them.

Ring any bells?

More characteristics:

✓ Extreme reliance on others for emotional and physical needs.

✓ Fear of abandonment or rejection, leading to desperate attempts to maintain relationships.

✓ Difficulty making decisions alone and needing reassurance.

✓ Tolerating mistreatment just to avoid being alone.

This is basically Misa's personality.

Does Misa depend on others for her happiness? Yes, because she herself states that Light is her "happiness" and we know that her life as a model and actress is a non-important thing, because she was willing to leave HER JOBS for the sake of marrying Light and becoming a housewife.

She said: "If Light is happy, I'm happy" and "If Light wants to catch Kira, I'll help him!" (in the Yotsuba-arc)

Then this happens later on:

These panels also prove that she's unable to make decisions on her own. It doesn't matter if she's pro-kira, if Light desires to catch Kira, she'll help. She prioritizes being useful to Light and satisfying his necessities more than her owns.

Also I noticed that when Light worries about her being in potential danger, she looks surprised (?). It's almost as if she knows that the relationship is one-sided (after all, Light admitted earlier than she's the only one talking about both of them dating...so he IS technically confirming it's one-sided). Either way, that didn't stop Misa ACTING as if they were dating, because the only escape she has is making her OWN MIND believe that they are as a method of self-defense.

She's later shown as submissive when she says she doesn't care if she gets tortured if it's for the sake of helping Light catch Kira. Such a romantic notion don't you think.

She's basically hyperbolizing her love for him, because that's how it is, absolutely unreal. She shows no thresholds for her love for him, when, for a healthy realtionship, there should be.

Another example of how submissive she is it's: DIVIDING HER LIFE EXPECTANCY TWICE.

And this:

For the people that say that Misa is loyal: how the fuck do you explain that.

The only way to put it, it's that Misa just wasn't in love with her friend. It just shows that, Misa is not only a victim of this disorder but she's also a bad person.

Could we blame it on the trauma of her parents being killed? It could've shaped it. We don't know what Misa's past view on justice was, but after Kira killed the murderer, she made the equation: justice = personal happiness.

If she can justify Kira killing criminals (and even police officers and other types of innocent people), she can justify killing her friend because, this is all for the sake of helping Light and becoming his future wife.

But let's not focus on the killing part, but rather the framing part. She uses her friend's tapes to send the second Kira messages in case they got fingerprints. We don't know the beef between these two, so we don't really have a solid base to talk about this, but this isn't excused as in: "I have to help my handsome boyfriend."

Misa by that time didn't even know Kira was this handsome guy, maybe it was a 64, divorced and unemployed old guy that, either way, she's willing to incriminate her friend for.

So it's a matter of the relationship she has with her friend, and not with Kira.

Even Light wouldn’t frame someone unless it was strategically necessary. Misa did it preemptively and that shows how reckless she is with other people’s lives.

This also shows that she's aware that she's manipulated at times.

She just doesn't care, because: she has offered killing her friend, she has killed innocent people and criminals, tricked the police, she has stalked Light...:

...all of that because she confirmed that Kira's identity was a handsome boy, she fell in "love" at first sight and her only desire until the rest of the plot, was become HIS girlfriend and serve him unconditionally.

She has no personal ambitions or goals outside of Light. She drops her career for him and only acts when he tells her to.

She's desperate. And that's not healthy.

She also fears abandonment from Light: you know the famous "if you date other girls, I'll kill them."

When Light died, she committed suicide because, the only motive for her existance was Light. Nothing else.

She had no hopes in reliving her career, meeting new people, find her new self...she didn't value her existance at all, because she always classified herself as an object to please Light.

Light justifies his killing because he thinks it's justice, but Misa kills....because she wants to please Light. Which one is worse? I think both but, the intentions are different:

For Light, the main goal is to lower crime rate (he achieves that) and create a new society based on his ideals of justice.

But for Misa, her main goal is for Light to give her a few kisses before bed.

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TL;DR

I really do not suggest you to skip the texts if you support Misa's actions. Misa's just as worse as any of the other members of the Kira group, and she doesn't deserve being idolized, especially from 13 year-olds that think they're "just like Misa Amane!"