Sorry if this is uber long...
** sorry in advance for my shitty spelling.. its being fucked up**
K, so, i hate my body with a passion, but hey, i have my good days! i just hate how i can hate my body after school, but i lay here in bed thinking about how i want to be a model and how amazing it would be and ll that.. my body doesnt even cross my mind! the only thing i thhink about is my anxiety (it controls my life, how can i not?!) but then im like 'hey, ill be on meds soon! ill be fine!!!'... ugh i just idk its so hard sometimes, hating myself to loving myself...
another thing... guys. omg. so done with them! I always fucking fall for the asshole.. i have a crush on a guy whos a major dick/ass/whatever.. hes knon as DickNeely.. a dick without a dick... the woman.. but, me being the silly girl i am.. i have a crush on him....... AGAIN! wtf head!??!?! cant you be normal for once and fall for someone who isnt a dick.. or who doesnt live far away?! plese and thank you! I either crush on the dick, or a friend in Alberta who's amazing and perfect nd ahhhhhh... why must this be a thing?! can guys just live here an not be dicks?
Some things going through my head right now as well..:
Why cant i clean my room without crying?
Should i clean off my bed and sleep or be annoying on tumblr?
Do i have enough energy to go clean my belly button?
Do i reallly have to shower tomorrow?!
How much longer on the laundry..
Why wont he text me back its not like its the weekend.. its a school night! (perfect boy in Alberta )
Do i have what it takes to be a model?
I hope my dr gives me meds on monday.. im going crazy..
Still cant beleieve i found $50 in my wallet... how and why is it there...
Awww my kitty is so cute omg omg omgÂ
Im probably annoying everyone so i should stop..
The word annoying/annoyed/annoy is so annoying omg
Thank you to those who read this! Sorry if i annoyed you!!! Im here if anyone wants to talk and i have kik, snapchat and all that if you wanna talk more.. i just dont have instagram becuase im not white gilr enough for it :P