#minji scenario

Unfortunately, you were also not able to listen to a single word she was saying. Only when all of your peers pulled out a piece of paper and a pen, you were forced into the real world again. Confused you looked around, absolutely having no idea what was going on.

“What is everyone writing down?”

You asked your neighbor silently and he looked at you judgmentally.

“Ms. Kim is explaining the group assignment that is going to be our final grade this term.”

He said before focusing on the front again and starting to take notes.

You really should start listening as well. Hastily you pulled out your notebook and tried to collect as much info as possible.

...at least two people...paper...presentation...personal experience...30 pages

Your notes were messy, but scanning them, you were sure that this lecture would not be easy. Despite her cute looks, Ms. Kim did not seem to have the intention to make your life easy.

“Ok now to the groups. I will randomly assign you now. Please give me a hand sign when I read your name out loud.”

One after the other, she read the names until almost no one was left.

“Y/N L/N?”

She called out your name and you jumped in your seat a bit, because you had been zoning out again.

“Here?”

You exclaimed shakily and her stern gaze fell on you.

“Oh, the latecomer.”

She said with a raised eyebrow and a pink blush spread on your cheeks.

Great. So much for the first impression.

“You’re going to work with Lee Gahyeon.”

She stated and a tiny looking girl in the first row overzealously raised her hand. She whipped her head around to search for her partner and when she found your eyes, she smiled at you widely. You reciprocated the gesture before looking back at Ms. Kim whose gaze was surprisingly still glued to you. When your eyes met, she quickly looked away though, seemingly feeling caught.

You were confused for a second, but then you quickly shook those thoughts. Ms. Kim continued to read the rest of the names before ending the class early. You were just packing your stuff when you suddenly felt the present of another person next to you. When you turned your head, you saw Gahyeon standing close by you.

“Hi I wanted to personally introduce myself. I’m Gahyeon.”

She said with a cute smile that made her eyes squinty while holding out her hand. You took it with a chuckle and shook it quickly.

“Nice to meet you Gahyeon. I’m Y/N.”

When you had everything stored in your backpack, you threw it over your shoulder and walked to the entrance with Gahyeon following close behind, who already started rambling about your project. Before you left the room, however, you couldn’t suppress the urge to look at Ms. Kim one last time. You turned your head and saw her standing next to her desk, surrounded by some students that were already showing her some papers concerning the project. She seemed to be immersed in what she was reading, but suddenly her gaze flickered over the edge of the paper and landed on you.

In surprise, you almost stumbled over your own feet, quickly whipping your head around and rushing out of the room. It was already bad enough that you were known as the latecomer, you didn’t want to be known as a creeper as well.

“...is that fine with you?”

Gahyeon’s face suddenly appeared in front of you when you had left the room and her eyes looked at you expectantly. You had totally been zoning out while admiring Ms. Kim beauty and hadn’t listened to a word that Gahyeon had been saying.

“Sorry, what?”

You stammered sheepishly, but Gahyeon didn’t seem to be annoyed by your ignorance.

“I asked if you had time tomorrow to start on our project.”

She asked and you were glad that you could get a hold of a partner that apparently was striving for a good grade. Maybe she could balance your lack of concentration. You nodded with a smile before trying to focus on what she was saying from now on.

Together you walked a part of the way and you learned that Gahyeon was still a sophomore, which explained her seemingly inexhaustible motivation and eager. Nevertheless, you were glad to be paired with her. She seemed to be a cute girl and you could imagine the two of you becoming friends.

“So tomorrow at 4?”

You asked her when you stood in front of your lecture hall and Gahyeon agreed before waving goodbye.

You spent the rest of your classes scribbling incoherent notes, hoping that you would be able to make sense of them later, because you weren’t able to focus on anything your lecturers were saying. Your mind always drifted back to certain brown eyes whose gaze felt like it was piercing right through you. A relieved sigh left your mouth when the clock finally struck 4 pm and you knew that you had survived your last class of the day.

In anticipation, you almost sprinted to your dorm where you would finally be able to hop into your bed. Right after you swung the door open, you ran to your favorite piece of furniture and jumped on it like a flying squirrel.

“Long day?”

Your roommate Yoohyeon chuckled from her bed and you turned your head to be able to look at her.

“I already know that I have to do four assignments the next month.”

You groaned, already being done with the term after one day.

“How cruel.”

Yoohyeon gasped dramatically to tease you and you threw a pillow at her.

“Talking about assignments. Do you know a Professor Kim? Young, long brown hair, she’s pretty thin, but still has an athletic figure. Very beautiful.”

You described your professor and Yoohyeon looked at you with a raised eyebrow.

“Thanks for the very professional description.”

She stated cynically and you looked at her offendedly.

“What? I’m just stating it as I saw it.”

You tried to defend yourself but Yoohyeon seemed to already know that your professor had struck your interest in a not so professional way.

“Whatever. But I know that she joined the university last year. It’s a wonder that you haven’t heard of her yet. Everyone was talking about her. She made all her students fall in love with her.”

Your roommate looked at you reproachfully and you started blushing a bit.

“But she’s known to be ruthless despite generally being a sweetheart. As soon as someone disrespects her, she doesn’t shy back from letting them fail.”

Yoohyeon continued and you gulped. So you hadn’t been wrong. She had conveyed the impression to be a person that took her job very seriously from the beginning.

“So keep your feelings in check, Y/N. You can’t afford failing that class.”

Your best friend warned you and you rolled your eyes.

“I’m not having feelings for her. She’s not even my type.”

You defended yourself but a little voice in your head told you that this was a lie.

Nevertheless, you managed to silence this voice the rest of the night and locked away the thoughts about your professor in a cage in the furthest corner of your mind. You wanted to peacefully finish this term without getting in any trouble.

Therefore, you exemplary met with Gahyeon the next day like agreed and started working on a concept for your project, because you had to present it to Ms. Kim the following week. Up until the day of the lecture, you even managed to think less than twice about your professor. Only when it was the day of the class, you felt a tingling sensation in your stomach. You left your dorm extra early, making sure that you arrived for the class on time. Gahyeon, of course, was already there and you sat beside her, starting to chat with her about your weekends.

Five minutes before the class started, Ms. Kim entered the lecture hall and like the first time you had seen her, your breath hitched in your throat.

Damn it.

You thought to yourself, realizing that you definitely were catching feelings for your professor.

“Good morning everyone.”

Ms. Kim smiled while scanning the crowd.

When her eyes landed on you, your heart skipped a beat. Her gaze lingered on you and you felt like jelly underneath it. Nevertheless, you held her gaze until she had mercy with you and shifted her eyes to someone else in the crowd. You let out a shaky breath, trying to calm your heart that was feeling like jumping out of your chest.

“You can talk about your project a little longer and then each group of you should come to the front and talk about it with me.”

Ms. Kim instructed, and all the students nodded before finding their groups and starting to chat.

You tried to devote your full attention to Gahyeon who immediately started to revise your already collected ideas, but you stole glances at Ms. Kim over and over again. Not only because you were still amazed by her beauty, but also because you began to think that she was doing the same thing. In the beginning, you suspected it to be pure coincidence, but after your gazes had met three times in a row, you were almost sure that she had to be staring at you as well.

If you hadn’t been confused already before, now you definitely were. Why was she staring at you? You either had to be delusional or she had to feel very uncomfortable because of your staring, you told yourself. Therefore, you tried to stop yourself from stealing glances at her and only looked at Gahyeon until you had to come to the front and present your results.

Sheepishly you walked behind Gahyeon, already feeling Ms. Kim’s piercing gaze on you. With every step your nervousness grew, knowing that you would have to face her in less than ten seconds.

“Hello, professor.”

Gahyeon greeted her happily and you finally looked at her. She smiled at the small girl and gestured her to sit down in front of her.

“Thank you for taking the time for us, Ms. Kim.”

You said while bowing lightly when you stood in front of her, hoping that your nervousness wasn’t showing.

“Minji.”

She responded shortly and you looked at her in confusion.

“What?”

You asked with your head tilted to the side, causing Ms. Kim to laugh and you swore that you wouldn’t even mind dying right now, because you had reached the peak of your life. You had made the prettiest person on earth laugh and it was the most beautiful sound you had ever heard.

“You can call me Minji. I’m not a fan of rigid hierarchical structures.”

She smiled and you awkwardly nodded because you were unable to speak before sitting down next to Gahyeon.

“Ok, cool. I’m gonna start presenting then if you don’t mind.”

Gahyeon chimed in and you gestured her to start, because you still needed some time to sort your thoughts again. Like always, your overzealous friend started talking like a waterfall and Minji and you simply sat there and listened to her rambling. Another time, you could feel your professor’s gaze on you and even though you wanted to be strong, you caved in after a while, stealing glances at her as well. Every time your eyes met, one of you broke the contact sheepishly, but nevertheless, neither of you stopped this game. Gahyeon was completely oblivious to all of this and you almost started giggling when you continued your staring contest without your partner noticing it once.

“Does that sound ok to you?”

Gahyeon asked eventually and you quickly sat up straight in your seat, realizing that you had missed her whole presentation of your project. But apparently you hadn’t been the only one that was distracted, because Minji was looking stumped for an answer as well.

“Um... yeah that sounds absolutely amazing. I’m looking forward to the development of your project.”

She stammered a little helplessly, but Gahyeon just smiled widely in response, not realizing that she had been the only one paying attention at the table. Almost feeling bad for your friend who had really put a lot of effort in this concept, you gave her an encouraging thumps up before standing up.

One last time, you exchanged some glances with Minji before following Gahyeon to your seats.

At least you were sure that you weren’t delusional now.

The following weeks, the tension between Ms. Kim and you grew steadily. You stared at each other more often and soon you even stopped to be embarrassed when the other noticed.

Nevertheless, you never really talked with each other. A fact that you wanted to change today. After five weeks of staring, you decided that you needed more. Therefore, you told Gahyeon that you wouldn’t go to the next class and sent her ahead. In slow-motion, you packed your stuff until only Ms. Kim, and you were left in the lecture hall. Although you had made the decision to finally talk to her, you weren’t quite sure how to start a conversation in that moment. Therefore, you were glad to see that Ms. Kim was struggling to carry several books and her bag at the same time, so you rushed down to her desk.

“May I help you?”

You asked and Ms. Kim looked at you gratefully and nodded in response.

Quickly you relieved her of the books, causing her to smile at you, which made your heartbeat pick up.

“Can you help me bring those to my office?”

She requested and you agreed gladly, intending to use this time to talk with her.

But you were already halfway at her office when you still hadn’t talked a word and awkward silence was hanging between the two of you.

“So the weather is nice today...”

You tried to start a conversation eventually and cringed at your own statement.

Suddenly you heard Minji giggle from the side and you looked at her in surprise.

“Did you really just try to start a conversation by talking about the weather? Has that ever worked?”

She questioned you teasingly and you blushed, because you realized that until now you had done nothing but embarrass yourself in front of your professor.

When she saw your insecure expression though, her laugh died down however and her expression softened.

“It’s nice indeed. I want to drive to the seaside this weekend. Have you ever been there?”

Her eyes were lingering on you expectantly and a fuzzy feeling started to spread in your stomach.

“As a child, I have often been at the seaside with my family. I really loved playing in the sand and splashing in the water. But lately, I never really had time to.”

You answered regretfully, reminiscing about your childhood.

“I’m sure you’ll find the time again eventually.”

Minji tried to cheer you up and you thanked her silently with a smile.

Finally, you had found a conversation starter and you continued talking about your plans for the weekend. You had already reached the office for a while now, but you were so deep in your conversation that none of you wanted the other to leave. Eventually you had to leave for your next class though and you apologized yourself reluctantly.

Nevertheless, the ice between the two of you had been broken now. From now on, you helped Ms. Kim with her chores after every class. You carried her books, cleaned the whiteboard or collected something from your peers. And every time you used this opportunity to talk with each other.

Your conversations after class grew more and more private and soon you would say that you knew who Minji really was. And you only fell harder for her. At first you only fell for her elegant and mature side, but now you realized that she also had a really dorky side and you loved to see her this way. She made incredibly bad jokes or tried to do some aegyo which only led to her being embarrassed of herself.

The time the two of you spent together was always filled with laughter and comfortable conversations and you almost forgot that she was your professor. However, at the back of your mind the knowledge that this was a dangerous game was torturing you. Therefore, you tried as best as possible to keep your group of friends aside of Minji alive. Whatever this was between the two of you could end any time. So you spent most of your nights with Yoohyeon and your other friends. More and more often, you were also joined by Gahyeon.

You had realized that you actually shared the same kind of humor with the younger girl and that both of you enjoyed spending some lazy nights in, cuddled up on the sofa while watching movies. She even made you look forward to classes. Although the class with Minji wasn’t easy, you considered it manageable because of Gahyeon.

Contently you sighted while you were walking to your next class, knowing that Gahyeon would be there. Everything was going great lately. You hadn’t ruined any classes till now and even gained a new friend. You were aware that your relationship with Minji was a tightrope walk, but you hadn’t done anything that crossed the line till now. So there was no reason to stop it. With a smile playing on your lips, you opened the door to the lecture hall.

Not a lot of students were there yet, but one familiar voice caught your attention.

“Y/N!”

Gahyeon exclaimed happily when she saw you and waved you over. As soon as you sat beside her, she interlinked your arms and rested her head on your shoulder.

“I’m really not motivated at all today.”

She pouted and you ruffled her hair teasingly. Although she wasn’t much younger than you, you almost considered Gahyeon your little sister by now and often found yourself babying her. Especially because she was such a clingy person. Which she proved right now. She kept clinging to your side, but you didn’t mind.

Slowly the lecture hall began filling with people, but the two of you kept joking around. You chatted animatedly despite the early hours and your laughter only died down when a loud noise from the front caught your attention.

In shock you whipped your head around and saw Ms. Kim standing in the front. She had slammed her books down on the desk and was now scanning the students. When her eyes landed on you, her gaze was ice could and a shiver ran down your spine. She didn’t smile at you like usual and you wondered what you had done to deserve this treatment. Throughout the whole class, your professor’s mood didn’t get better and Gahyeon scooted even closer to you, because the aura of Minji was truly frightening.

As soon as the class ended, you wanted to flee the scene like all the others, but your plan was defeated.

“Y/N, could you please stay? I need your help.”

Minji’s cold voice echoed in the lecture hall and you hesitantly walked closer to her desk. Wordlessly, she walked to her office and you simply followed her. As soon as you had entered, she closed the door behind you, and you gulped. Now you were trapped.

You expected her to scold you, but Minji didn’t say anything at all. Silence stretched between the two of you while she motionlessly stood in front of you with her back turned to you. Your nervousness increased exponentially with every passing second, until you couldn’t stand the silence anymore.

“Is everything ok?”

You asked nervously and Minji whipped her head around.

You could see an expression in her eyes that you weren’t able to interpret. It wasn’t anger though like you had expected after her bad mood during the lecture. You were about to address her again, when she suddenly rushed forward with big steps, grabbing you by your shoulders and pushing you back until you were pressed against the door. You looked at her with wide eyes while her face was only inches apart from yours and her shoulders were quickly rising and falling because of her agitated breathing.

Automatically your look fell on her beautiful lips and that was all the permission that you needed to give her. Minji crashed her lips into yours, making you immediately moan into her mouth and giving her the chance to slip her tongue through your parted lips. But you didn’t mind. Your arms found their way around her neck, pulling her against your body. Her hands immediately started to explore the new gained territory, making you ache for more.

Feeling your impatience, Minji suddenly pulled away, making you whine in response. Smugly she grinned at your reaction before reaching behind you to lock the door and pulling you to her desk. Carelessly she threw down all the utensils to be able to place you on the desk instead. Not wanting to make you wait any longer, she stepped between your legs, attaching her lips to yours again.

Her hand wandered to your chest in the meantime where she squeezed your breast through your shirt, making a gasp escape your mouth.

“Is this ok?”

She asked breathlessly and you eagerly nodded in response before pulling her face closer to yours again.

This time Minji aimed for your jawline. She left wet kissed up to your earlobe which she bit gently, making you miss the fact that her hand had made its way to your pants the same time. With a swift move she unbuttoned it, sneaking her way into your underwear.

You were already beyond desperate for Minji’s touch, so when her digit touched your wet folds, you soaked in a sharp breath while throwing back your head.

“Beautiful.”

Minji whispered before starting to pepper kisses on your neck and to circle your clit. Your hips automatically rolled into her hand, showing her where you needed her the most. Your breathing became faster with every pointed move of Minji’s finger.

“You look so gorgeous right now.”

Minji kept praising you and when you opened your eyes, you could see that she was admiring you with sparkling eyes, causing your heart to swell. Being unable to speak, you grabbed her neck and crashed her lips into yours again, because you were missing her taste already. The same time Minji finally slipped a finger into your entrance and you harshly bit down on her lip in reflex, making her wince in pain. Apologetically you ran your tongue across her bottom lip before planting a soft kiss on it, while she continued to pump her finger in a steady pace.

When you started to become eager for more, she added a second finger, causing you to dig your fingernails into her shoulders. Combined with her lips caressing every exposed part of your body, you could feel yourself getting closer to the edge, making your moans louder and louder.

“Minji...”

You choked out as you could already feel your legs starting to twitch.

Being able to read your body language, Minji pressed her lips on yours again, perfectly curling her fingers inside of you one last time, making the bottled-up pressure finally being released. Reflexively you pulled Minji even closer, while she tried to let you enjoy your high as long as possible. Your loud moans were muffled by her mouth and you clung to her body until you were too weak to do so, causing her to remove her fingers from your core.

Lazily you let your arms hang around her neck and she calmingly ran her hands in circles on your back, while she left kisses on the side of your head.

After your breathing was back to normal again, Minji pushed her body back to be able to look into your eyes.

“I’m really sorry, but I have to run to my next class. You can stay here and recover as long as you want.”

She said apologetically, brushing a few loose strands of her out of your face.

Still being overwhelmed, you only nodded in response. Quickly Minji pressed her lips on yours a last time, before grabbing her bag and leaving you alone in the office. As soon as she closed the door behind her, you took a deep breath, leaning back until your back laid on the desk.

You had just had sex with your professor.

In disbelief, you buried your face in your hands, thinking about what had happened a few minutes ago. Should you regret it? You didn’t know if you would be able to. Only thinking about Minji’s lips on your body, or her fingers hitting the perfect spot every time, made shivers run up and down your spine. Even if all of this was a mistake, you wouldn’t have done it any other way. You would give anything to have her touch you like this again.

But as it turned out, you didn’t have to give much as Minji was feeling the same.

She kept taking you to her office after every class like she already used to for months now, only that you took it further than only talking now. Minji even made you her teaching assistant, so that the amount of time that you spent in her office wouldn’t seem weird to anyone.

Therefore, you were able to fool everyone. Everyone except your best friend. Yoohyeon had observed your weird behavior for a while now and it didn’t take long for her to develop a theory. Although you tried to cover up your feelings, you couldn’t help but smile whenever someone mentioned your professor. And all those extra hours at her office weren’t plausible for her either.

So after searching for evidence in the course of several weeks, she eventually confronted you.

“You’re having an affair with her, aren’t you?”

Yoohyeon asked you when you were just laying on your bed and texting with Minji.

“What? With who?”

You chuckled nervously, trying to act dumb.

“Don’t play dumb. You know who I am talking about. You’re having an affair with Ms. Kim, it’s obvious.”

She called you out and you gulped. Obvious? Did others notice too?

“Do you think anyone else knows?”

You asked anxiously and Yoohyeon scoffed.

“I can’t believe you, Y/N. What do you think will happen if anyone else finds out about this? You’re risking both of your careers. And for what? A short-lived fling? Or do you think she has serious intentions with you?”

Your friend’s question hit right where they could hurt you the most. You had started thinking about the type of relationship you had with Minji for a while now. Your feelings for her definitely were strong and you wouldn’t hesitate a second to agree if she would ask you to date her. But was she feeling the same? She had never implied anything, and she had never seemed like wanting to expand what you had to outside her office.

Yoohyeon’s words kept being stuck in your head and changed your perception of your meetups with Minji. Without exposing your goal, you tried to discover what type of relationship Minji thought the two of you had. But every time you only came remotely close to talking about your relationship, she backed away from the conversation, causing you to get frustrated. No answer was an answer too and you realized that Yoohyeon had been right. This was only a short-lived fling. At least for Minji. And although you had enjoyed it till now, you couldn’t risk being expelled for something that didn’t have a future. Therefore, you decided to end it.

The next class you followed Minji to her office like always after it had ended and as soon as you had stepped in, she attached her lips to your neck, sucking on your pulse point. You hummed lowly in response, while your eyes automatically closed. Minji’s hand started to wander underneath your shirt and you were about to get lost in her touch when you remembered what you were here to do.

“Minji.”

You called her name, but she apparently thought it was an encouragement, because she started trailing her kisses further down. Therefore, you roughly pushed her back, making her look at you with wide eyes.

“Stop.”

You stated sternly although her shocked expression almost made your cold façade to melt.

“What`s wrong? Did I go too far?”

She asked concerned, stepping forward to grab your hand, but you escaped her touch.

“Go too far? Of course you went too far! Or do you think this is a normal relationship between a professor and a student.”

You spat out causing Minji to stumble back a few steps in surprise.

“Y/N... Where is this coming from suddenly?”

She asked and you could see that she was thinking hard about what she had done to cause this behavior.

“Does that matter? What matters is that I am risking my future for being a dirty little secret in these four walls.”

Your bottled-up frustration suddenly broke to the surface, causing those harsh words to leave your mouth.

“I don’t know what to say, Y/N. It’s not like you didn’t know that I’m your professor. Of course, we can’t run around campus while holding hands.”

Minji’s voice sounded more agitated now too. You didn’t know what you were trying to hear from her, but it definitely wasn’t what she just told you, because you knew that she was right. But your stubbornness forbade you to give in.

“So where did you want to take this then? Hook up with me on your desk until you get bored and then move on to the next student?”

You were aware of the fact that your words were unjustified. Although you had never taken your relationship with Minji to the next level, you knew that you were the only one in her life right now. She had never made you feel like a dirty secret, but you had hated the secrecy of your relationship, nevertheless. Your feelings for her were strong and you wanted to officially ask Minji to be yours. And the knowledge that you couldn’t, had been nagging on you until your threshold of pain was reached, causing you to snap at her right now.

Hurt flickered in Minji’s eyes, making you regret your words. You were about to apologize, when she cut you short.

“It’s not my problem if you’re delusional, Y/N. I’ve never said that you were more than just an opportunity to relief stress for me.”

She responded harshly and your heart cracked when you heard her words.

 You hadn’t expected her feelings to be quite as strong as yours, but you thought that you at least meant something to her. But apparently you didn’t.

You wanted to safe your face and shoot back a snarky comment, but your head was empty. Your heartache was crippling you, making tears spring to your eyes.

“If that’s so, I think you won’t mind searching a new source of stress relief for yourself.”

You stated shakily before slipping out the door, not wanting to have a breakdown in front of the one breaking your heart.

While tears started to stream down your cheeks, you ran across campus to your dorm room. As soon as you had slammed the door behind you, a loud sob escaped your mouth, alarming Yoohyeon who was just laying on her bed.

“Oh my god, Y/N, what’s wrong?”

She asked as she rushed to your side, wrapping her arms around you.

“I-I ended it.”

You stammered between sobs and Yoohyeon tightened her embrace.

“I’m so sorry. But it was for the better. Believe me. It will hurt for a while, but soon you will be glad to have made that decision.”

You truly hoped that she was right, because in this moment, you wished that you could turn back time. You wished that you had never asked Minji about your relationship and that you could just continue like before.

But what you had was broken just like your heart. You felt like a weight was pushing you down and you couldn’t get yourself to leave the house the next days. Especially not for your class with Minji. You didn’t know how you were ever supposed to be able to do a presentation in front of her. Right now, you didn’t even feel capable of being in the same room as her. Yoohyeon and Gahyeon took good care of you though. They kept you posted about most of your classes and brought you comfort food to cheer you up.

After one week and crying until you had no tears left to cry, you felt ready to step out into the world again. You went to all your classes despite the one with Minji and actually felt like on the road to recovery. However, you dreaded the beginning of the following week. You had missed Minji’s class twice, meaning that you either had to have a pretty good reason to miss another one or you had to finally face your fears.

You were sitting on your bed with Yoohyeon next to you, contemplating your choices.

“You could just say that your grandma died or something.”

Yoohyeon proposed and you looked at her disapprovingly.

“What? I just don’t think, you are ready to see her yet.”

She chimed in and you wondered whether she was right.

“You think so? I could just sit at the back and don’t engage. I wouldn’t even have to talk with her.”

You thought out loud, but Yoohyeon was nervously shifting around and you looked at her questioningly.

“I’m just afraid that you will run back to her. She hasn’t been doing great either...”

She answered slowly, suddenly catching your full attention.

“What do you mean?”

You questioned your roommate a little too eagerly, instantly scolding yourself inwardly for still caring about Minji so much.

“See? That’s what I mean. You’re still not over her.”

Yoohyeon stated and you sadly had to agree with her. Nevertheless, you kept staring at her expectantly, wanting her to elaborate her statement. She huffed annoyed but took a breath to tell you what you had missed while you were hiding from Minji.

“People have been gossiping that she had been really irritated during her lectures. She yelled a lot and didn’t really prepare her classes. And yesterday, I saw her when I walked to one of my classes. She looked really tired and kinda sad.”

Yoohyeon explained and your heart clenched again.

After everything she had said to you, you still didn’t want her to be sad. And maybe it even meant that she didn’t mean what she said. But this didn’t change anything, you told yourself. The two of you still couldn’t have worked out and your heart would have been broken anyways. So it was better that it happened sooner than later.

“You’re not going to run after her tonight now when I leave you alone, right?”

Yoohyeon suddenly asked, making you flinch in surprise. You had been zoning out and forgot that she was closely observing your reaction.

“Of course not. Besides, you’re not my babysitter. Only because I am a total buzzkill lately, doesn’t mean that you can’t go out and have fun on the weekends.”

You answered, trying to muster your best smile and bumping your shoulder against Yoohyeon’s.

She looked at you skeptically, but when you shoved her off the bed, she laughed and started to get ready for the party that she wanted to attend. After an hour, she warned you a last time to not do something stupid tonight, before finally leaving.

As soon as she closed the door, you wished that she didn’t leave though. Although you wanted her to enjoy her weekend, you knew that being alone right now wasn’t the best choice for you. The silence gave you way too much space to think and with your new gained information, you were afraid of where your thoughts would lead you.

Therefore, you put your headphones on and blasted your music at full volume. Thankfully you lived in the twenty-first century and the internet offered all kinds of distractions. Therefore, you spend your night watching weird videos on YouTube or putting random items in your shopping cart of several online clothing stores. You only stopped when you heard some loud banging on your door.

Completely shocked you removed your headphones, sitting motionlessly on your chair and listening whether you could hear some noise from outside. It was quiet for a while and you thought that whoever was in front of your door had left, but suddenly the banging returned and you squealed in surprise. Slowly you got off your bed to look through the spyhole and check who was disturbing you at this hour. The only people who visited you at your dorm where Yoohyeon and Gahyeon. One of them had a key and the other one was way too tiny to make such noise. You were halfway at the door when you suddenly stopped in your movements.

“Please Y/N, I know that you’re in there. Please let me in.”

It was Minji’s voice.

You stared at the door in disbelief, while you could hear your own heartbeat in your ears. What was she doing here? Was she insane? Everyone could see her right now.

“Please Y/N.”

She sounded desperate and her pleading was followed by a little thud.

Finally, your feet followed your demands again and brought you to the door, where you could see through the spyhole that Minji was leaning her forehead against the door in desperation. Your hand automatically wandered to the doorknob but didn’t turn it yet. You kept staring at Minji, who moved back a little, making it possible for you to see her face. She truly looked tired. Her eyes were puffy, indicating that she had cried.

“I’m risking everything for you right now, Y/N. Isn’t this proof enough that you mean something to me?”

She asked, fueling your inner conflict.

On the one hand, you were reminded of the day, she had broken your heart. Did she deserve a second chance? And hadn’t it been better for the two of you to break up? But on the other hand, her argument made sense to you. She wouldn’t been standing in front of your door if she truly had meant what she had said to you the last time you had seen each other.

Your inner conflict was a battle between your brain and your heart. The former told you to be rational and to not get involved in something that could ruin your future. But the latter didn’t want anything more than to finally pull Minji’s body against yours again. The conflict was paralyzing you and after a few more minutes, your hand was still motionlessly laying on the doorknob.

Minji sighted in defeat eventually and pushed herself of the door, slowly walking backwards. She looked right at the spyhole and your heart almost leaped out of your chest. Her sad eyes felt like boring right through your soul, causing you to rip open the door right when she turned around to walk away.

Apparently not having expected you to finally open the door, Minji jumped in surprise, staring at you with wide eyes.

“Y/N...”

She whispered shocked and you wanted to ask her what she was doing here, when both of you suddenly heard voices in the hallway.

Already seeing your future being ruined in panic, you quickly grabbed Minji’s arm to pull her roughly into the apartment before slamming the door. Minji was now trapped between the door and your body while the latter was only inches apart from hers.

You took in her beautiful features after not being able to see her for so long and you realized just how much you had missed her. Minji was standing in front you like a deer caught in headlights in the meantime, panting like she was physically exhausted.

Suddenly realizing how close you were to each other; you cleared your throat while stepping back a little.

“What are you doing here?”

You asked almost coldly, causing Minji to gulp.

“I want you back.”

She admitted straightforward and you were surprised by her honesty.

“W-what?”

You stammered, not having reckoned on Minji taking the initiative.

“I have been lying, ok? You have just really hurt me with your accusation of randomly sleeping with my students. I thought you knew me better. But this is still no excuse for hurting you like that. And I’m sorry.”

She paused for a second, waiting for you to talk back but when you didn’t, she continued.

“I know this is complicated. But I think we can work this out. This is your last year. We can keep dating in secret, or even wait till your graduation if you want to. I can wait. But please don’t give up on us.”

Minji pleaded and your heart immediately hammered against your rib cage.

She searched for your eyes, waiting for an answer, but you simply didn’t know what to say. Of course, you wanted to jump into her arms and yell yes. But the incident a couple of days ago made your careful.

This could all be just a giant lie. What if you were just one of many students for her?

But you couldn’t believe that. Not if she looked at you like that right now.

Although you wanted to stay strong, you could feel your heart slowly defeating your brain.

“I need us to go slow though.”

You answered eventually after finding that your brain couldn’t come up with a reason that was crucial enough to win against your heart.

Minji’s face lit up instantly and a relieved sigh left her lips.

“We can go as slow as you want to.”

Her eyes started to glisten in the light, and you could see the tension leaving her body, causing her to reach out to grab your face.

Just when she was about to caress your face though, she remembered that you had asked her to go slow. Therefore, she sheepishly let her arms fall to her side again while mumbling an excuse.

Not being able to stay away from her as well, however, you took a step forward and cupped her cheeks with your hands to be able to attach your lips to hers. Finally, being able to taste her again, you immediately hummed into the kiss, especially when you felt her pulling your body flush against hers. You deepened the kiss, but it stayed soft, nevertheless, while both of you tried to express your feelings. This had always been more than just a hookup.

When you pulled away, Minji was smiling at you widely and you planted a kiss on her forehead, causing her to giggle and bury your head into the crook of your neck. You kept standing there in each other’s arms for a while until an idea popped into your head.

“How about we watch a movie?”

You asked Minji but she looked at you insecurely.

“What about your roommate?”

She responded, but you already started guiding her to your bed.

“Don’t worry. She won’t return until tomorrow morning.”

With that you pulled her between your legs on the bed, letting her lean against your body. You wrapped your arms securely around her and she looked back at you with a soft smile playing on her lips. Together you decided on a movie and you kissed the crown of her head a last time before turning off the bedside light and pressing play.

You smiled to yourself as Minji interlaced your fingers and kissed the back of your hand. Even if you had to wait till your graduation, what you had was definitely worth waiting for.