#mingiatz

friendly reminder that germany is currently trying to turn all of us into roasted potatoes 🫠

we're getting close to 40°C (that's around 104°F for my american friends), and unlike a lot of other countries, most homes and apartments in germany don't have air conditioning.

so if updates are a little slower than usual, please know i'm currently melting into a tiny puddle somewhere and using all my remaining energy to survive this heatwave 😭

i'm still writing and working on new chapters, but my brain has officially become soup.

stay hydrated, stay in the shade, and please send thoughts and prayers to all europeans who are trying to sleep in 40°C weather without AC 💛

Love Always,

just a quick little life update in case anyone was wondering why i’ve been a bit quieter than usual lately.

i took a small digital detox because i really needed to step back for a bit, clear my head, and just breathe without constantly being online. and also… i’m currently on vacation in france !! so i’ve been trying to fully enjoy that, be present, and soak everything in.

but don’t worry about me. i’m doing really well, happy and healthy ♡

and i promise i’ll be back properly soon… with a new san fic already in the works 👀

miss you all and thank you for always being so patient and kind.

p.s.: i will soon reply to all the messages and asks i got, sorry for the long wait 🩷

love always,

it's currently in proofreading and after that it's ready to be posted. 💛

which means... i need your help deciding what i should write next!

🍸 Hongjoong — The Cocktail He Named After You

Hongjoong owns the trendiest rooftop bar in Seoul. Every season he creates a signature drink, and this year it's called Lemon Drop. The problem? It's named after the woman who ghosted him two years ago. When she suddenly shows up at the launch party, old feelings mix with expensive liquor and unresolved tension.

📻 Seonghwa — Midnight Radio

Seonghwa hosts a late-night radio show under a fake name. Every night you call in and flirt shamelessly with him. Neither of you knows you're actually coworkers who spend all day pretending to dislike each other.

🍋 Yunho — Lemonade Stand Wars

The annual neighborhood festival turns into a competition when your lemonade stand ends up directly across from Yunho's. What starts as friendly rivalry quickly becomes increasingly elaborate sabotage and increasingly obvious flirting.

🌻 Yeosang — The Boy from Summer Twenty-One

Every summer, Yeosang appears in your hometown for exactly one month and then vanishes without explanation. This year you decide you're finally going to figure out where he goes, not knowing he is an idol.

📱 San — Wrong Number

A drunk San accidentally texts you instead of his friend. Somehow neither of you corrects the mistake. Three months later you're sharing your deepest secrets with a stranger you've never met.

🍸 Jongho — One Drink

A single lemon cocktail leads to a single dance, which leads to a single kiss with a stranger you'll never see again. Except the next Monday morning, your new boss walks into the office... and it's Jongho.

I am curious to see what you guys vote for! Also let me know what you thought about the new Wooyoung fic. 🤭

Love Always,

for the secret pregnancy au (fmc leaves without telling)… which member do you think fits this trope the best?

i’m torn between a few and i genuinely can’t decide 😭

consider the angst. the regret. the realization years later. the way it would absolutely ruin them when they find out… yeah.

vote wisely 🤭

Love Always,

I really thought things would feel easier by now. more familiar. more okay. and in some ways they are. Korea doesn’t feel as overwhelming as it did in the beginning, but the loneliness still sneaks up on me when everything goes quiet. that kind of loneliness where your thoughts get too loud and suddenly you’re questioning every decision you’ve ever made.

especially with my career. Don't get me wrong I love my job, i worked hard for it and my degree in Biotechnology.

I still catch myself wondering if the path I chose was the right one. if I pushed myself in the right direction or just… pushed myself too far. and at the same time, I know that struggling like this is kind of normal. that life isn’t meant to feel good and stable all the time. that most of us are just getting through bad days in the hope of a better week, a better month, a better version of ourselves somewhere down the line.

but even when you know it’s “just a phase,” it still hurts. it still pulls your mood down. knowing doesn’t magically make it lighter.

something I don’t talk about much is how different I am in real life compared to what I show online. I’m not loud or confident. I’m shy. introverted. really bad with new people. so being far away from home, having to connect, speak up, stand in front of people and act like some sort of authority figure… yeah. nightmare fuel for me.

and yet, I still do it. every damn time.

sometimes I don’t even know why.

is it because I want to change myself?

because I don’t want to miss out on this experience?

or am I just incredibly stubborn?

maybe it’s a mix of all three.

I don’t have a big conclusion or a lesson here. I think I just wanted to be honest. to say that even when things look exciting or “better” from the outside, it’s okay if you’re still struggling on the inside. we’re all kind of making it up as we go.

Sorry for my brain dumb, but i felt like I needed to let my late night thoughts out somewhere.

on a happier note though. I really would love to connect more. and if anyone happens to have cute Jongho fics… please. I am desperately in need of them right now 🥺🤍

thank you for listening. and sorry for spelling issues, i just wanted to keep it real and didnt proof read this.

Love Always

Yesterday I was honestly a little down because of some of the messages I received recently. Some of them accused me of using AI, others said that I’m not genuine or even that I’m hateful. That one in particular really hurt and also shocked me, because I genuinely try my best to keep this blog a respectful and comforting place for everyone. So hearing that someone sees me that way stayed on my mind for a while.

But instead of letting it sit with me all day, I ended up opening my writing files and started working on a new story. It’s a Seonghwa fic that I’m actually going to start posting today. The FMC in this one is probably the most “me” character I’ve written so far.

She’s very similar to how I was back when I was at university. I even asked my friends and my fiancé what their first impression of me was when they met me, and I tried to capture that in her personality. So maybe you guys can also capture a little more how I am actually in Person.

you know what… since quite a few new people seem to have found their way here lately, i thought it might be time for a little re-introduction 🖤

hi!! i’m female, 28, and currently living in germany. i have a master’s degree in biotechnology and somehow ended up working in a big firm in quality security. which sounds very serious compared to the chaos that usually lives inside my head while i write 😌

outside of writing, i survive mainly on tea, have an undying love for schwarzwälderkirsch torte, and... very unsurprisingly... i cannot get enough of ateez. i’ve been stanning them since predebut days, which still feels a little unreal when i look at how far they’ve come.

and since we’re already talking…

can we scream about the reversed mafia au with san for a moment???

i genuinely didn’t expect to fall this hard for the story, but i absolutely love writing it. every time i open the document i get pulled deeper into the characters and the tension, and i cannot wait to show you the direction i want to take this fic in.

thank you @20-nps-03 for recommending this!

tell me honestly...did you enjoy the first two parts? do you have a favorite moment so far? i read more than you probably think, and your reactions motivate me more than you know.

i’m not completely sure yet how long the story will end up being, but i don’t want to drag it out just for the sake of it. right now, my goal is to keep it under five parts so the pacing stays sharp and every chapter matters.

whether you’ve been here for a long time or just stumbled onto my blog. i’m really happy you’re here. let’s suffer over fictional characters together 🖤

Love Always,

just a little update for you:

i finished writing part 3 of the yunho series and i’m currently in the editing + proofreading phase 🥹✨ so it’s coming very soon. i just want to make sure the emotions, pacing and details feel right before i share it with you.

also… little sneak peek for what’s coming after 👀

my next fanfiction will be a reversed mafia AU

the fmc is in the mafia

and one of the ateez members is a normal civilian

the idea originally came from @20-nps-03 it just stuck in my head so badly that i had to try it 😭🖤

i’m still a bit uncertain which member would fit this dynamic best, so that part is still open and evolving in my brain. i am still deciding between san, yunho and jongho. i feel like they would thr concept the most but if you have suggestions i am always open to those.

thank you for always being here, for your patience, your love, your messages, and for caring about my stories the way you do 🫶 it genuinely means more to me than i can explain.

love always,