I'm trying to just not hold on. As much as it hurts, what I get told is steering me on a path that I'm not sure I want to follow. I really like her that much and in the end, only time can determine what will happen. Pend my time for the girl I really like right now or to follow the "guidance" of the ones who say to just let go. Everyday my heart is pounding faster from all these thoughts. They're making my mind race and it's just frustrating. Right now, I'll admit I want to just ball up and cry. Cry until it's all just gone. My emotions and thoughts need to be locked away. I know it's repetitive of my previous blogs, but I can't shake these feelings off. Its just constantly hurting. Maybe that one day will come when all the answers will reveal themselves to me. Or at least, I can only hope.