I've reached 500th post. This is the 501th one. Should this be any special? Probably no, but then again I need another source of relief. I am at that deja vu point in my life again, being in the same situation repeatedly, kind of got me thinking, will I ever get outof this cycle? Will my dad quit bugging me about my life choices? Will I get out of my debt? (I'm 20 for christ sake) Can I stop winging my life for once? Would I receive any loan or scholarship for my education? Will I ever stop bouncing from different jobs every few months? Wasn't I supposed to start living my life with expression not to impress? I have been sidetracked for too long.