#milly talks

Excuse me but can we talk about this official art for the steam release? Like? Can we? I'm obsessed my guys like I can't stop staring at the hands and teeth, he looks so much more unhinged raaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah

Also is that a hint of a shadowy body that I see? Ethereal creature my fucking beloved.

So you have one group who are literal little shits

and ties said friend to a fucking tree!

Then you have these dorks, who just have zero faith in Bohn like 😂😂😂 I can’t

Bohn’s face omg 🤣😂

These absolute crack heads

+ this scene and this dude cracks me up

A couple of weeks ago everyone was all over Tine being self-deprecating, self-conscious, viewing himself as not worthy. Not seeing that he was the right one for Sarawat 

and in this scene here, he breaks down in front of Sarawat because he feels like he can’t have a happy ending because he failed to prove himself...

Honestly, I legit cried, it hit too close to home on so many levels. Also, Win’s acting 👌

He was talking about their relationship metaphorically... 

Here he is saying that he is not the one for Sarawat, because he failed to prove himself

But Sarawat tells him that he can still have a happy ending 

He gets to choose, he still has a chance

and prove that he means something by being happy with him 

So Tine decides to rewrite the story, because he knows that he feels that he has value with Sarawat and most importantly, it is the reality!!!

Making another comeback of a previous reference, showing that Tine now realises that it was all real, what they have is real, as well as just continuing their banter

and Tine BEAMS

And continues to beam about Sarawat being his boyfriend

He is too pure I tell you!

Look at this lovesick puppy

He has found himself some worth! 

While I’m glad that he is comfortable and has found a safety net with Sarawat, it is a quite disheartening that he didn’t feel comfortable enough to tell his friends or his brother...

Though I do think he would’ve told Fong if it was only him at the time, it’s just that a quarter of a braincell over here put him off

An added bonus because I love it

How cute was this?

So What I also take away from this episode in regards to Phukong is that he was actually trying to dial back the problem.

In ep 8 we saw that he was trying to hide any evidence of Sarawat

and was clearly conflicted. He has a crush on this guy and all this guy keeps on talking about as soon as he walks in is his hatred fro Sarawat 

This next expression is after Mil throws Sarawat’s shirt to the ground and said that anything that belongs to Sarawat should be burned

His face is literally “w-whaaat” he is clearly uncomfortable. 

Then go to ep 9 and he gets really interesting 

He doesn’t trust Mil because he asked what happened to his hand

It’s almost like he wants to believe him, but he can’t seem to. 

and he was confused about why he left so hastily 

He was in conflict, and I’m pretty sure he knew Mil was up to something. 

So when it comes to the game Phukong tries to smooth things with Mil

Which I feel is a fair point

I do feel he went there to see if Mil was actually being serious and when he joked about Sarawat’s dead body, Phukong didn’t take it as a joke, he could tell there was ill-intent

So when Mil asks “whose side are you on?” It was actually what Phukong was in turmoil over. He had been chasing after this guy who has it out for his brother, he still has some faith in Mil so 

He said he would be on his side still 

Then, when Sarawat enters the field, Phukong is behind the commentators, he isn’t on either side 

So this is why he “plays as his opponent”

And plays dirty 

And he owns up to being Sarawat’s brother. He is sticking up for his brother because no one should treat anyone like that. His crush for him blinded him and he is seeing how toxic Mil is 

The angle of the shot is meant to show he has the higher ground and just kudos Phukong! You stood up to a bully and overlooked your crush on him. 

Not the best thing to have done, but I commend you.

Plus we got this boss ass walkaway and like you could never

In the beginning Tine only entered the music club to get close to Sarawat.

Sarawat didn't appreciate this

As he has a special attachment to music and the music club

Sarawat’s explanation for his attachment to music is so significant, and I am reminded of it constantly, like I was with Tine stepping forward. Sarawat appreciates music, he feels like it shouldn’t be taken for granted, and Tine put it into words how epochal music is.

Note that, when Tine talks about how Scrubb songs make him feel, is before the scene where Sarawat asks if a person who has never been in love can write a love song, and we also have this:

This is why he was annoyed when he found out why Tine was in the group

But Tine grew an attachment, but took it for granted with Pear and with Sarawat 

Then he thought when Green had stopped, it was his freedom and didn't feel he needed to go

But his attachment to Sarawat was too strong

But now, it's different. He knew that people like P'Air and then latterly P'Dim and Green etc had been significant individuals and meant something to him.

So the fact that he was the one to stand forward and say this

Means a lot, especially to Sarawat, and this is why he is almost in awe of Tine.

Music means a lot to him, so the fact that Tine stepped forward for Sarawat and to help the music club was amazing to him because of how Tine had been previously.

Tine knows how important music is to Sarawat, and to him, but also period, and that is what I am trying to say. 

This is what I love and I thought it needed to be said because all of these people are now special to Tine as well. He has built a friendship with these people

And I love that P’Air is this shot, because she was there to support Tine a lot in his guitar lessons

I love P’Air okay

I'm glad they talked about Polyamory, and I have to admit, I thought the promo images looked like polyamory, but Pearl stated what I thought. She just seems to be a person who would devote to one person, but as Fonzy and Gino pointed out; people change and also wants can also change.

It's the decision of the ladies to decide what they would be happy with; but also they have to really think if they can do that. I think Pearl could equally devote to Karleen and Alex. However by the understanding of the other characters so far is that Karleen would always be insecure and would need reassurance. Karleen doesn't deserve to be put in that place to be insecure because she doesn't want to be a burden or have people leave her once more, so I don't think mentally it would be good for her. Karleen is also massively jealous and competitive, just adding to her needs which I think would be unfair to her and others. I don't think for her a poly relationship would be good for all parties. Then with Alex. I do believe she would be happy with that; but she is also competitive, but she isn't as jealous of Karleen as I think Karleen is of her.

In order for it to end with polyamory I think Karleen needs to seriously work on her insecurities, Alex needs to possibly back up a bit. Karleen and Alex both need to let Pearl fucking breathe and Pearl really needs to listen to her heart and figure out what she truly wants and can see. She is so selfless and doesn't want to lose either of these ladies.

I think though, if it doesn't end with Polyamory, I think Karleen will have grown a lot to realise that maybe being with Pearl isn't the best thing for her. Pearl is looking for a relationship right now and I don't think Karleen is in a good position to be a good girlfriend because she really needs to work on herself more than anything; and now she is putting all her effort in to "winning" Pearl. Karleen, I'm sorry to say, is still massively biphobic. Even though she briefly apologised, when she speaks to Jill (in previous eps) she invalidates her bisexuality and does the same with Pearl, and still did in this ep as well! Not realising that she was actually being biphobic!!! I want to know why Jill broke up with Karleen, I think that is actually the key for Karleen to grow and learn. Her other girlfriends were shit; I assumed that they most likely cheated on her. But Jill didn't! I want to know why Jill and Karleen broke up!

Maybe Pearl doesn't end up with either ladies. I love Alex, but she is a little headstrong and I feel sorry that she is giving out and Pearl doesn't give her much in return; though I think it's because of the position Pearl is in. And Pearl definitely is growing very fond of Alex. I'm a sucker for a slow burn, what can I say. Also I see Pearl remaining good friends with Karleen if she ends up being with Alex, and Alex would not mind or be jealous, as she knows how much Karleen means to Pearl. Whereas at the moment I can't see Pearl with Karleen without cutting out Alex as Karleen is so insecure.

I loved this scene because it shows you their dynamic. They are friends first. Tine was evidently worried about Sarawat

This is Tine, being concerned, but also a friend first and foremost. He cares about Sarawat, and he wants him to know that he will support him and be there.

Look at theeeemmmmm. Sarawat is being so cute and clingy and Tine is actually liking it. He’s finding it amusing

This was bloody hilarious! Finally Sarawat touched them!

But look at his face! He’s amused, both of them are

This is so good though. Tine’s reaction is so interesting

This indicates that Tine really does care about Sarawat and I’m wodering if he was thinking the same as I was “Exactly how often does he get beat up?” I don’t know whether he is also realising just how much he means to Sarawat also, by having so much power to make his pain go away by just simply being in his life

Tine also couldn’t help but keep on tapping Sarawat, almost like he was conscious he wanted to touch him, but didn’t know how

Then this cute little skit ahaha. Their comical aspect

I have this before and I will say it again, I appreciate that Tine can still be assertive

Sarawat was considering him like “bitch, that ain’t true and you know it”

This scene is so cute because Tine knowwwsssss. He deflected it, because they were teasing, but he knows what it means, and what they now mean to each other.

Look, I kind of believe him about Sarawat’s leg, or at least he regrets it, he may have not in the moment, and I think this is because he does have an attachment to Phukong already established, but his image is now tarnished, because of the horrible things he did and said about Sarawat. Let me break it down a sec.

The entire episode he tries to keep his distance from Phukong, obviously what Phukong said and did left an impression on him

Okay, I must admit the first scene he was in has thrown me off a little bit, but it still fits in with how I interpret what he is thinking, and that is that he is regretful, and doesn’t like the image of himself either internally or to Phukong. 

So, if this is correct, it explains why he goes and confronts those assholes

But what got me was his temper. 

This kind of reaction isn’t one you give to friends, or about something you were happy about having. I have thought before that he seems to feel things in extremes, I mean this dude stood up at the sight of Tine because he felt so overwhelmed. 

Anyways...

So I find it interesting that these punks felt the need to assure him that they didn’t intend to do anything more. Considering how relentless they were in beating up Sarawat, despite him not putting up anything of the fight.

What is also important to note is that Mil is not wise to Tine being hurt, only over the fact that he is regretful over hurting Sarawat, and that they shouldn’t have beaten up Sarawat and ganged up on him. 

He certainly has an attachment to Phukong otherwise he wouldn’t have kept his distance, treated him, or have this interaction with Jae Tun

It’s the fact that he said “he hates me”- it’s his perception because of what Phukong did and said 

But, to have this interaction alone, saying what he does with those expressions means that he is concerned about the image that Phukong has of himself, and he knows that that person looks so bad, and he doesn’t like that.

I’m sorry these screenshots are so bad...

This gets him thinking, and he probably does know that Phukong is interested in him because of the way that Phukong was with him... 

I also think that Phukong was mad about both things... it’s pretty low to not be affected about his brother getting injured.

But after this interaction and taking his leave from Phukong, he also leaves his treat for Phukong

Then later we get this interaction

That line seems self-deprecating... he doesn’t answer, instead he answers vaguely. 

And he honestly looks tired (again, these screenshots are hardly flattering). He is literally saying to put it in the past, and his expressions indicate that he is regretful of it happening in the first place 

Then we get this moment... and I think this is just enforcing what I tried to say at the beginning; he is putting distance between Phukong and himself

If he sussed that Phukong likes him (which I believe he does) it makes sense to hurt him in this way to get distance between them, the thing is, this is not because he doesn’t like him; I actually think it’s the opposite

First off the framing for this scene was too pivotal for it not to be meaningful for the both of them

And this guy literally decides that he needs to give Phukong something of his to remember him by...

But, you don’t hold it in his hands like that if you don’t care??

Then also says something along the lines of remember me when you do your exams

but these expressions... He is letting him go and it’s clearly something that he doesn’t want to have to do. 

Now the reason for this could be because he has some kind of role model complex, but this doesn’t work considering he only tutored Phukong after Phukong did that bet.

It could be because he doesn’t want to hurt Phukong because he doesn’t feel the same way, don’t believe this is true because of said expressions

It could be because he hates himself for what he said and did to Sarawat and feels that he has hurt Phukong enough and doesn’t deserve to have his adoration. This, I feel is the answer. 

This is not only for breaking Sarawat’s leg, I think this is also all the things he said about Sarawat

So I was very intrigued to see that he seemed to develop some dimension this episode...

He is obviously not forgiven, the thing that will make me believe that he has progressed would be to apologise... to Sarawat and Phukong, and Tine to be perfectly honest, and now next week he looks like he has gone straight back to how he was?