#milfeivor

2. First fic you clicked on this year

Man I WISH I had history on so I knew, but my best guess would be May The Sunrise Bring Hope Where It Once Was Forgotten by deathmallow (Arthur/Sadie, RDR2) which I was definitely re-reading over the winter break. I don't ship the pairing as a rule of thumb but this fic is so good I'll read it again and again. Their Sadie is so wonderful and real to me.

3. First fic you Bookmarked this year

Nachalo by phrenitis (Elizabeth/Philip, The Americans). Just gorgeous, tight, efficient prose that's so in tune with the characters. I loved this one. Man I need to watch The Americans again.

4. First fic you posted this year

Nostos (mostly gen, TGM)! My beloved writing warm up that went off the rails. The only fic I've ever written, copy-proofed, and published in the span of 24 hours.

13. Your personal favorite fic you read this year

oh GOD this question is so hard but I love reccing fics. Here's a couple over multiple fandoms I adored reading this year:

never the same river twice by Contra (Andy/Helen of Troy, The Old Guard) gave me full on body chills when I first read it. Gorgeous premise and a beautiful examination of history, time, and women's place in it. It will give you kassandra feels by proxy though you've been warned.

blue and permanent and the smoke that roams by deerscarer (Anne/Jack/Charles, Black Sails) are fics so good that nothing else for this ship could be written again and I'd still be satisfied because I can revisit these over and over.

The Ministry of Pain by elo_elo (Ghost/OC, Call of Duty) has utterly, utterly stunning prose. I read this fandom blind and having zero interest in character/oc fanfiction and still I cannot get the way it's written out of my mind.

Kings of the Air by FabulaRasa (Ice/Mav, Top Gun) is one of those fandom cornerstone fics that sometimes you think might only be popular because it's been around for ages but this fully earns its stripes and then some. Their characterisation of Mav and Ice is so perfect it's out of this world. I read it three times in two days.

14. Your personal favorite fic you posted this year

So I notoriously find most of everything I write cringe for a long while after I post, but I 100% had the most fun writing Rules of Engagement (Phoenix & Rooster, TGM). It's not the best thing I've ever written, nor the neatest, but their platonic soulmate best friend dynamic is something I was hugely passionate about exploring. It might not make the numbers of my big shippy fics but it's the darling of my heart.

'departures' is the working title for my kasseivor/valhalla last chapter fix-it wip! it was borne out of my disdain for how utterly underwhelming the last chapter was, as well as just me using any excuse to shove kassandra into any scenario. my hope is that, although i don't plan on it being a very happy fic, and i still want it to end geographically in the same place as the last chapter, the emotional and narrative payoff feels much more earned.

the premise is that eivor convinces kassandra to join her raiders and come live in ravensthorpe for as long as she wants. kassandra knows she shouldn't stay long (and aletheia is in her head doubling down on this thought) but ultimately as a big fuck-you to aletheia and also because she has the biggest gayest crush on eivor, she does accept the offer.

the fic opens with kass arriving in ravensthorpe, and the general idea is kass and eivor growing closer as in the background other characters come and go. vili returns to snotinghamscire to finally accept his position as jarl. gunnar and brigid have a child. randvi finds her calling in joining the hidden ones (under both kass and hytham's tutelage) and accompanies hytham back east. rollo goes to france. the raven clan kids' trio are growing up. "dreams" by the cranberries is playing in the background despite not debuting for another thousand years and i'm crying my eyes out just thinking about it etc etc.

eventually aelfred comes knocking and eivor and sigurd clash over what to do; sigurd wants to resist aelfred's army by any means necessary (aka all-out war), but eivor (from her own experience fighting in the south, and advised by kass who has already observed the spread of christianity through her travels and feels this is a force that cannot be resisted outright the way sigurd thinks it can) is inclined to follow in her father's footsteps and surrender/come to some kind of compromise in order to spare her people.

and that's kind of where the details end. i've got maybe the first couple thousand words written and everything else vaguely outlined up to this point. i have some ideas/inspiration for how i want certain plot/character beats to go, but a lot of it is heavily influenced by the final season of black sails, so for the sake of @milfeivor who is still watching that for the first time, i will keep my mouth shut for now :)

the main issue is that i feel like in order to do justice to any of the characters i would either have to re-play the game (which is too fucking long and i don't want to do it), watch clips of character interactions and cutscenes on youtube (which i could do but am lazy), or read fics featuring the characters i want to write about (which i don't feel comfortable considering "research" because i don't want to mistake authorial interpretation for canon fact or unintentionally pass off somebody else's ideas as my own). so for all those reasons, this one is on the backburner. i do hope to come back to it one day, but for now i don't feel any real urgency to work on it.

Choose violence ask game

the character everyone gets wrong

Hrm probably Barriss Offee! This is of course directly due to the racism of Filoni & swtcw writers, but certain sides of the fandom tend to misrepresent her intentions… ie acting as though her goal was to betray Ahsoka, rather than that betrayal occuring as a secondary consequence to her bombing the temple. The temple bombing was an incredibly islamaphobic plotline to begin with but reconciling it with her character is… possible… in that she was so traumatized by the horror of constant death around her that she felt the need to orchestrate a drastic demonstration to get the republic’s attention. But I do not feel as though she was meant to be interpreted as desensitized to that violence but rather reconciling it within herself as a necessary evil to prevent further deaths. But again there are far better and less racist directions Filoni could’ve taken her character in order to make the same point. Like if she left the Jedi order to join resistance fighters like Saw Guerrera, for instance, and we got to see more of the development on screen of her difficulty with alligning the jedi code with her actions. But I digress.

6. Which ship fans are the most annoying?

The easy, obvious and throway answer is obikin shippers lmfao. I definitely understand the appeal of exploring fucked up relationships through fiction. I’m an AMC’s Interview with the Vampire fan. But the romanticization of that particular relationship is sickening to me and a lot of them like to pretend that there isn’t anything like… fucked up to explore there. Like a master/padawan ship’s power imbalance is not typically what these people want to tackly. They just want to draw horny sith obiwan fan art and write about those two fucking from sex pollen (I have perused their side of ao3 out of morbid curiosity. Sex pollen comes up a lot. Unsurprising given the dubcon nature of it, I suppose)

The easy, less obvious answer is probably dinlukes (sorry Ky aslkdjf) or dincobbs like I really do understand the appeal of shipping the single dad with hot young twinks or dilfy men but like there is such barebones support for the ship in the show that it’s nothing to me. Like sorry but these men barely interacted with each other. There’s no substance

12. The unpopular character you like and why more people should like them?

My biggest one is Barriss, but I already talked about her a little bit so I’ll say Arvel Skeen, from Andor. I’ve found his character and what he represents to Cassian fascinating since the end of his arc, which I talked about here. I think the fandom had a tendency to kind of two dimensionalize him / hate him unnecessarily. And then everybody forgot about him lol. When I found his final conversation with Cassian very poignant in establishing Cassian’s values and in exploring Skeen as a character himself.

14. LOOKATME - jann 72. the mighty fall - fall out boy 98. dance little liar - arctic monkeys

Thanks!!

12: slidin by Kai

72: fake out by fall out boy

HELLO TREASURE <333

🦋 what are you most insecure about when you post a fic?

i have to really fight off the feeling that i haven't written anything in character or of any particular interest, and instead just projected my own feelings and tried to turn it into something else 🫥 also every time i post a fic i tend to get this horrible horrible feeling that someone has Just Posted the Exact Same Idea but Better 😭

💞what's the most important part of a story for you? the plot, the characters, the worldbuilding, the technical stuff (grammar etc), the figurative language

7. hair-ties or scrunchies?

hair-ties! my hair is way too thick for scrunchies or any other hair-restraining method (i.e. clips, etc) without underlying reinforcement from hair-ties.

27. about how many hours of sleep did you get?

i've been in this horrible exhaustion spiral where i get about 5 hours of sleep at night, and then find myself dozing off for 1-2 hours in the middle of the day when i should be doing work. it's horribly unproductive and i feel super drained all the time and i would not recommend it and am trying to "reset" it

36. how many times have you changed your url?

hmmm.... i would say in the first 2-3 years i was on here, i changed it several times. i got very attached to this one, though, and have been using it on here and sometimes other sites (by which i basically just mean neopets lol) for over a decade