Hey friends. I hope youāre doing well during these quarantine times. I apologize that I only go on Tumblr when Iām expressing my thoughts and you are the ones who I cope with during my sad girl hours. I hope you are consistently washing your hands, practicing social distancing, and are avoiding the need to touch your face.
Besides the sad things happening, Iād like to take my time to write about the good things that Iāve improved on. Iāve gotten better at thinking before I blurt out anything I want. Iāve been better at controlling my self-insecurities and my emotions instead of saying something passive-aggressive or spiteful. Working out is still tough haha. Iām still pretty bad at taking criticism and wanting to run away from my problems when they get difficult. But Iām working on it. And so on.
I had a quarter-life crisis a few weeks ago. I was so excited to graduate and get out of school, but not in the major that Iām currently in. Iām an architectural engineering major, but I think I shouldāve went straight to studying architecture. I always felt unsure about what I wanted to do, because everyone in my life said that being an architect would be competitive and I wouldnāt find a job. (Back in 2014.) I thought being an architect meant that you were one of the extremely creative people who thought of, āthis is how Iām going build this house and this is how itās going to look like.ā I mean thatās really cool. I LOVE structures. But Iām not particularly too keen on being competitive. I just want to be on the design or planning team of how to make this building come to life. But since Iām on the engineering side of it, Iām doing tons of math calculations and I donāt think this is right for me.Ā Everyone states that the principles seems similar and itāll be ok. Iām sorry, it feels like such a petty complaint. But itās ok. I know everything will work out in time.
Iām super paranoid about the COVID-19. Itās actually terrifying. I donāt have any Lysol, but I carry a ziplock bag around with paper napkins and alcohol that has 90% Isopropyl. I hope they find the cure for it soon. Iām in a different state and Iām terrified about flying back. I live in Texas and isnāt it crazy that our state allows alcohol curbside pick-up for restaurants? Thank you to everyone who is working to try to keep this country working. Iām not too worried about myself, but I wouldnāt want to be the person spreading it. I hope everyone stays safe out there. There are tons of people who hasnāt been as cautious as they should be. Any who, have a great day today. I hope you learn a new hobby while you are quarantined. (Iām still taking my courses online and I stocked up on some yarn so I can crochet when Iām bored.)
Best wishes.














