“The biggest deception is when you start to believe your own lies.” - Anthony T. Hincks
FALSIFY
I live in a world wherein truth doesn’t matter. Prisoned of flowery words. Small and silent words with loud impacts that cut deep within my soul. Deceitful things engraved in my mind. I heard them. I noticed everything but I didn’t say a word. Since then, I became numb.
My life has been full of lies. I don’t even know what truth defines. They made me blind of authenticity and deprived me the liberty I deserve. Honesty? Genuineness? What do those words mean? I thought everything was fine and perfect. I don’t know who I am anymore. They made me the person I never thought I would be. Worst? Yes that’s me! Want proof? Wait until you see.
Their clapping hands are like music to my ears as my adviser announces that I’m the top of the class. “Congratulations Falsify! I knew it! You top the class again!” There’s nothing new. I’m used to it. What do you expect? My father is a lawyer and he topped the Bar.
Flowers, chocolates and love letters always come after me. “Notice me, Falsify! Please be my girl.” Ughh, so annoying! I’m the center of attention. They keep on idolizing me just like my mom who’s the dream girl of her generation. She’s a former Ms. Universe. Excellence surrounds me. Perfection is all they see. Not until… “The former Ms. Universe is associated with the drug syndicates. Things are now under investigation. We are trying to get the side of both parties.” As I heard the news, my world fell into pieces. Our family’s reputation and dignity that we value for how many years vanished.
Now I know why I was named Falsify. Nice name! It suits me well. Want to know why? Let’s spill the tea. “Cheers! It calls for a celebration. Let’s party and enjoy the night!” They are so happy and I don’t like it. They don’t deserve that kind of happiness. I need to do something. “You are all expelled! Someone posted your pictures on social media lying on the floor, drunk, taking party drugs and you still wearing your uniforms! You're ruining the name of our school!” Are you suspecting me? Well, you’re right! I did it. Why? Simply because I liked to. I am now checking my social media account, asking what’s on my mind. Hmm? You really want to know? “The most prestigious school is tolerating their students who use drugs inside the campus.” Then I clicked “post”. Done! So satisfying.
This is what I’ve become. They made me do this and they brought out the worst version of me. It’s not fair that I’m the only one who’s suffering. I feel so betrayed by the people whom I trusted and treasured the most. I tried to hide this side of me, not until… “Maybe you don’t realize sooner that we have our own ways to know the person behind the fake issues spreading on social media. Well, Ms. Falsify, you’re wrong. You are going to face the consequences of your actions. You are no longer part of this school. You are expelled.” With that, I knew I was wrong and I learned it in a hard way. I realized that you cannot solve one mistake with another mistake. I was blinded by hate and I let it overpower me. Bad experiences are not valid reasons to do something worse and ruin someone's life.
