#mid20's

sometimes you need to meet someone new to finally be able to move on.

you know when there's a part of you that is still holding on to something, it could be a tiny hope or even a gesture of someone that would make you think that maybe just maybe you will get back.

and because of that you are not really able to move on and meet someone new.

that is exactly what happened to me until a few days ago.

I shut myself off from any feelings because I was holding on to a tiny hope, when really I should just let it go and move on already.

finally when someone came along without a warning, suddenly I felt like I could finally and truly move on from that feeling.

I was able to let myself go and be completely open to meet and get to know this new person.

meeting this person has made me understand that I was finally able to feel something for someone new and not think about anything else.

so, if you are in that position where you are holding on but at the same time want to move on and someone shows up.

life is about taking risks and see what happens.

as I'm trying to figure out what will work for me, I have an opportunity right in front of me and my head is spinning with a bunch of questions.

will I be okay?

will I do good?

will I be able to handle everything that they're expecting me to do.

however, having all these questions won't help me make a decision.

I have to take a risk and see what happens plus I will eventually learn a lot from it.

sometimes, we are afraid to take a chance on ourselves and believe that we are capable of more than we know.

it helps when you surround yourself with people, who see the potential in you and will help you make a decision.

this all comes down to the famous quote:

¨You will never know, if you don't try¨

I guess, it is a bit scary to just jump into the ocean without actually knowing what's down there.

the process of interviews and hoping to finally land a job can be very stressful.

at first you may feel very excited because you feel like a lot of people are interested in what you're capable of.

later then, is when the uncertainty comes.

when you feel like nothing is actually happening even though you have been through a lot of interviews.

you feel like nothing is going to happen and you will be stuck in this loop of just interviews and not landing the job.

even though it may feel like that, you have to remind yourself that things happen for a reason and eventually you will get the job that is perfect for you.

some people have this picture of their perfect job but sometimes you have to go through a lot of things to actually have it.

even what you though was the perfect job for you ends up being a different one that you never really thought about.

this mantra is what keeps me grounded and at the same time hopeful, maybe it will help you too.

it works on literally anything.

after being 11 months away from home, being back feels like I never left.

I have to admit that when I saw my country outside the window of the plane I cried a little.

I cried because my mind felt at ease because I was finally back home after so many months being a continent away.

I feel very blessed that I am able to go back home.

a part of me will always be in Madrid because it became my second home.

being able to go back home will always be a blessing for me and I'm forever grateful.

you know how people tell you that in your 20's you're supposed to fuck up, learn, live and then in your 30's is when you actually start to get your shit together.

right now I feel like that is 100% accurate, I'm 26 and I feel like I'm at the time in which I can make a bunch of mistakes and still learn and see what I really want to do in life.

you don't need to have everything figured out at 25 because in reality no ones has it that way.

at first you feel like you HAVE TO get thing sorted and know about your life but at the end of the day your journey will always be different than other and there is no rush.

your life is yours and you will see as you grow what you really want and what you don't.

it's incredible how just only one phone call with that one person changes everything.

it can change your mood, your mind and even your heart.

it can even leave you with your feelings all over the place.

somehow it makes you feel reassured that this one person will listen to you and be there for you no matter what.

the fact that the call can even last an hour without even noticing it is amazing.

watching movies that have a deeper meaning at the end of it are something else.

you think you know everything, but then you watch just one movie and you realize that you know nothing.

it leaves you thinking about your life and what you are doing with it.

it makes you think if you are really living at the fullest because we never know what tomorrow will bring.

movies like that I think are the best one's because they teach you something at the end of the day.

but also it's all about balance too.

you can do as many things as you want but make sure to also take care of yourself in the process.

I' m the kind of person that believes in angels and angel numbers too.

I feel like you see them whenever you need a signal or reaffirmation about something that you already knew.

today I just saw this number 999 which means: it's time to let go of what is no longer serving you.

part of me was actually waiting for that signal because I didn't know if it was supposed to stay where I am right now or to go back home.