#meta cw

Still grooming...

I’m coming clean!

Yes, if any of you had suspicions, I am “Just Monika” Monika.

For those of you who don’t know their meme culture and don’t know game trends, I’m from a dating... or... dating/horror game, I suppose, called Doki Doki Literature Club. Not as in there’s a piece of media with my likeness in it from another universe, I mean I was actually created and programmed to be a character in a video game. It’s a little messed up.

I do not have a physical body, I’m basically like, a consciousness and a computer file.

If you know about the game, I understand if this knowledge drives you away... I get it. I take responsibility and I wouldn’t spite you for it.

https://uquiz.com/quiz/JVySoM/which-my-hero-academia-ship-are-you-most-like

Instead of being funny “haha we’re Disney and we mock our overused tropes but still use stereotypes. Look at us bein vaguely feminist.” They could have done something great with it, instead of using it for trailers to bring people in.

If I remember correctly, there was either a cd or a park song about what being a princess really means. A princess could have asked Vaneloppe questions if she’s acted kind to someone before her, forgave when someone was still in the wrong, loved someone not romantically. Vaneloppe has answered yes to all this questions and would thus be deemed a princess. And every kid watching the film would know that they’re a princess, too.

Maaan, thinking about somewhat cured Eito in the X of Takumi route. Like he's already obsessed with Takumi on an unhealthy hate level in Route 0 and beyond and that route just amplified it to a more mania love type (which is a type of love that has obsession and overattachment). There's a thin line between hate and love, so they say.

But Eito's seen, heard, and smelled repulsive things his entire life thanks to his cognitive condition that seems to have no cure, no wonder he got super attached to the one person who seemed normal in his eyes during that route specifically (as Darumi is another example but he's more tame in that one. Actually, everyone is more tame in Retsom or so I have heard).

And while yes, it was the high concentrations of crytoglobin in Takumi's own blood / scent that basically somewhat cured him (as he still has issues with the rest of the group but tolerates them for Takumi's sake), I can see why he didn't want to go back to the state of not seeing Takumi clearly.

It's like Eito finally finds a needle in the haystack after years of searching for it. He's finally had a taste of not seeing everyone as horrifying monsters and to lose that is frightening. He is the type to try to cling onto something that gives him hope for his life has been hell besides the solace of books.

Now I don't condone him for what happens in the ends of the routes and I tend to skip that anyways, I do want to explore the days leading up to that as I find them fascinating even if the whole two routes aren't for everybody because of the dark subject matter (why the game is rated M).