#meredithredfae

1. Have you ever been in a physical fight before? Over what, with who, and who won?

Yes, several. Most would get separated by teachers before a winner could be declared. I remember winning one that went uninterrupted. My father didn't like that. But she pretended to be my friend while leaking much of what I told her to gossip columnists. It didn't take long for me to connect the dots... I think she deserved it, betraying bitch that she was. 

                                                     2. What do you feel most strongly about?

Protecting those I care about.

                                                    3. What do you pretend to feel strongly about, just to impress people?

Nothing. I have better things to do than put up an act to impress anyone.

                                                              4. What trait do you find most admirable, and how often do you find it?

Honesty and Loyalty. Rarely.

                                                   5. What’s the worst thing that can be done to another person? Why?

People often say 'death'. But there are worse things than death. Taking away someone's rights, someone's power of autonomy... Breaking someone's spirit or taking something away from them without their consent. All of these things are worse than death.

                                                  6. What’s the worst thing you could actually do to someone you hated?

Revenge is a dish best served cold...

                                7. Are you a better leader or follower? Why do you think that?

Neither. I don't want to be followed, but I sure as hell won't follow.

                                                  8. Do you think redemption is possible? 

Rarely. Because if someone does something once, it's usually a tendency that's ingrained in them.

                                              9. Is it okay for you to cry? When was the last time you cried?

No. It's not okay. If I cry, things have really gotten unhinged. And I'll do anything before I sink to that level. 

1. Would you consider yourself straight, gay, bi, or something else? Why?

Straight. Why? It's in my genes, baby. Pun not intended.

                                                    2. Who was the first person you had sex with? When did it happen? What was it like? How well did it go?

His name doesn't matter.  I was 18. We weren't even dating but there was a charge between us that had been simmering for about a year. One day in the middle of one of our regular debates, we got caught in the a thunderstorm as he was walking me home. Our debate died when we realized that yelling rebuttals at each other didn't have quite the same effect when we looked like wet cats. So then we started laughing... And by the time we got home, we didn't even know what we were laughing about. We looked like crap, I was cold to the bone and the power had gone out. But one thing led to another and I woke up curled beside him sometime in the middle of that night... I guess I can't complain.

                                                3. What is your deepest, most well-hidden sexual fantasy? Would you ever try it?

I have ideas... But all of those ideas need the right type of guy. I want him to be confident, in charge, taking the reins. I've had experiences that didn't go so well and since then, I preferred to be the one in control, setting the pace, each move in motion. I want someone to wipe my mind. I want it to be rough, raw, wild.

                                                 4. What was the wildest thing you’ve ever done, sexually? Who was it with and when did it happen?

I'm not as promiscuous as people like to imagine. That said, I'm not exactly a prude either. I'm open to experimenting, as long as the guy manages to hold my interest long enough. - And therein, lies the real problem.

                                                5. Do you currently have a lover? What is their name, and what is your relationship like? What are they like? Why are you attracted to them?

No.

                                                            6. Do you ever want to get married and have children? When do you see this happening?

That depends on if I find the right person... I've never been one of those girls who says "yes i want to get married" no matter what. As if it's something set in stone. I've seen young marriages turn into metaphorical prisons. If the right guy isn't around, there's no way in hell I'm letting him come anywhere near my ovaries. And regardless, I don't see it happening for a long time.

                                            7. What is more important - sex or intimacy? Why?

Sex. Consensual sex doesn't usually hurt you when you least expect it.  Sex can't backstab you. You go in knowing what you'll get. There are no bitter surprises. Intimacy is a whole 'nother ballgame. 

                                             8.  What was your most recent relationship like? Who was it with? (Does not need to be sexual, merely romantic.)

Nothing worth mentioning. I got involved with him in order to forget about someone else, really. He was a douchebag. He was more interested in my wealth, name, social status - Pretty much anything but me. I was too busy trying to forget, that I didn't notice how big of a problem he was becoming. Things didn't last long after that.

                                             9. What’s the worst thing you’ve done to someone you loved?

Broken Hearts.