#merate

Hiking path

Parco Regionale di Montevecchia e della Valle del Curone

Me: always hoping for art feedback and validation

Also me: spends three days drawing and animating a picture of the least popular character of Pangaea apparently

In times of flaring depression more than ever, I tend to tune in to the character with the bleakest mood of Pangaea - many other characters may suffer and be shaped by their hardships, but Tenotaka is really the poster boy for actual lifelong clinical depression.

When he can’t sleep, he plays the erhu, (or the Kayalan equivalent) - and after losing Na-Merate, his one love and light, there are many sleepless nights to endure. Note after hurting note the erhu will weep the grief the king may not, until dawn breaks and another day of disciplined duty begins.

“Lovers” is one of the Tenotaka tracks on my Pangaea playlist, and the song I had in mind for this scene. ♥

Anngry red rectangle noises

and Jove

Desolation.

Tenotaka’s profile picture. The last ZanTaoyaka in several generations to actually show old age. Then again, he greyed young and looked quite old and worn for most of his life.

With those golden bird-of-prey eyes, and his majestic sharp profile, he certainly calls to mind his celestial guardian Taka, the Thunderbird, and even the strongest men and women of Kayalana could be made to squirm under that steady gaze.

Once.

Am still alive. Drew this last night.

I'm feeling more sympathetic than usual of Tenotaka as of late. Battling crippling depression is awful. I can't imagine doing it while dealing with all the complexities and challenges as king. Forcing yourself out of bed every day and donning the crushing weight of that crown, because you're chained to duty, above all else.

Na-Merate was his light, his warmth, the one splash of colour in a bleak, cold world of never-ending hurt. She was his life. And whatever of him kept going after her death was just a hollow shadow, just barely more alive than the loved one he lost.

Ciao, domenica appena passata sono andato al Lago di Sartirana a Merate: nella Brianza lecchese. Sono andato con un’amica che non vedevo da un mesetto. Camminata tranquilla in piano nel sentiero intorno al lago. Posto molto bello e poco “turistico”: proprio per questa tranquillità mi è piaciuto molto. Ecco le foto: Luca