#mentioned triggering

(I just love mr. Patrick! I like Brody getting a good ending)

9.3.20xx - note 

Even after all this time, even after so many other memories, there are still things that hit me in the gut. A kid (god how old was he, 25?) in a suit jacket. He was probably going to a job interview, or maybe on a date. 

Sam wouldn’t even be that young anymore. 

But, 

The time that I spent waiting for him to walk through the door, for something to happen, to just not be alone. It was like it all came crashing back, like I was 18 again and so, so fragile. Like if I didn’t bend to his every whim I’d be left alone in the silence again. Jenna’s a saint, I swear she can read my mind some days and we left. 

note to self find her another pair of those socks she likes. 

Videochatted with Aries for a little bit, invited them over for dinner. It helped. 

Blake’s practice ends at 3:00, so I’ll pick them up and they need some new clothes so that’ll be fun. 

God I feel old whenever I see Blake’s style. I’m so far out of the loop. Maybe they’ll explain.