#mentalmaze

A mental state of confusion A physical state of wonder A mental state of questioning A physical state of knowing Mentally asking where am I? Physically answering on my bedroom floor Mentally lost to what I want Physically knowing lust is open Mentally asking do I want more than this? Physically answering can I handle more? Physically I know where I am and what I am Mentally everything is jumbled Things I would have wanted a year ago are lost to the world of the forgotten and things I want now are sitting from row to my slideshow of a life I keep changing my mind in hopes of finding what I really want It never works I say all I want is to have sex Then I want to date someone All I want to do is workout and stay healthy Then I eat more black hole food All I want is to feel okay in life Then I fuck myself over Mentally I'm in a maze of wonder and hate Those are the dead ends Eventually I find my way out to love and success But I always have to start a new maze Because that's the point of life If we were always on the outside of the maze we would never be able to discover the things in the maze that help on the outside So I jump back into my mental maze and ask more questions How will I do this time?