#mental decluttering

We all live like wraiths. We look like living people, act like living people, love like living people, laugh like living people, fuck like living people, and have fun like living people, but then when its over we realize that something was off, that these actions and feelings are fleeting, and that something is “not right” with the world. So says a lone black Arab living in an old chapel in a foreign city trying to make sense of the world around him.

Originally this piece of writing was supposed to be an edgy, cool, dark, supernatural story about werewolves and stuff, but it had no teeth. There was nothing in it that needed to be said, no grand story arc that would trigger an “aha!” moment in the reader, no sex, drugs, and rigamarole. Just a lonely man looking for something and trying to pass it off as a metaphor.

Loneliness is interesting as an emotion. For some people, its an occasional traveling companion that disappears without a trace in no time. For others, its the most constant companion that they will ever have. Always there holding you in its familiarly empty embrace that paradoxically lets you know that something is there, while also telling you that there is nothing there. Loneliness is the friend you don’t want to be around anymore but always find yourself spending the most time with regardless of whatever it is you are doing.

Humans are not good at understanding abstract things. They need things to make sense, to represent something, to mean something more, to be true. They assign characteristics, or metaphors, or anything just to make a concept clearer and easier to swallow. It's why nihilism and nihilistic people are usually vilified and demonized, and generally avoided. To most, the realization that in this vast universe we mean nothing to the grand scheme of things, and that we quite certainly don’t matter, would be crushing. Some use that as permission to act out. “Nothing matters in the end so why are you so bothered by this?” Some try to ignore that and just say “They’re wrong, they don’t know what they’re talking about. “ and continue on with their lives while a part of them furtively worries if that nihilist is really wrong about everything or are they right.

Is there more to life than what we see?

That really isn’t for me to decide but seeing as you are reading this, you probably want to know if there is a point to all this or if this is a long-winded attempt to depress you. However, it is in my most humble (hah) of opinions that the nihilist is both right and wrong.

We really don’t mean anything to the universe at large. We aren’t the masters of the universe, we weren’t ever the center of the universe, and we will never colonize the universe. Or I’m lying and you can stop reading right about...........now.

Hello again!

yeah, I know.

Haha, that was funny and/or sad.

See just because we as humans don’t matter to the universe, doesn’t mean that we don’t matter in the universe. Cheesy I know, but humor me on this and I promise that there will be werewolves later.

We all know and generally agree that people can, and do, create meaning in their lives. We can turn symbols into things that hold power, and we can take away power from symbols. For a while there was such a thing as the MTV generation, also known as GENERATION X. I capitalized it because it sounds cooler in your head that way. You can make it sound like some cinematic narrator is introducing a villain/ item/ concept that needs to be remembered.

No really, listen to the voice in your head as it says: “GENERATION X! An evil organization of jaded individuals that are trying to tear down society and replace it with a NEW WORLD ORDER!

Now go back and say it out loud in your best movie voice.

Pretty cool huh?

Now do it again in your most condescending hillbilly voice.

Hard to take it seriously right?

Ok? How about we try it again but this time say it in your best impression of a child with a speech impediment. I’ll write it out for you.

“GENAWATION X! An eviw owganization of jaded individuwals that awe twying to teaw down society and weplace it with a NEW WOWLD OWDER!

Amazing right?

Now here is the fun part: How’d you know what a hillbilly sounds like? If you look at a dictionary, it usually refers to someone from a backwoods area, but I’m willing to bet that your hillbilly's voice is most probably vaguely American with a southern twang to it.

I’m not trying to make you feel bad, I’m just illustrating how meaning is created and assigned and spread around. Part of me kind of hopes that somewhere in history there was a William from the hill that inspired the idea of “hillbilly” and that over time it just transformed into something else.

Anyway, werewolves!

So here is the thing, I have ADHD. It sucks. I had lived my life without treatment for it for so long that I developed anxiety and depression before I knew what anxiety and depression were, and I learned to cope with stuff in different ways. Not many of them were positive I’ll admit but I got through it. Eventually, I got diagnosed (yay) got medication (double yay) and now I’m trying to find a therapist to help me untangled the web of life experiences and hopefully help me to develop the strategies I need to make sure the rest of my life is way more successful. After all, I have plans.

Hold your horses, I’m getting to the werewolf part.

So remember how at the start I mention I wanted to write stories and do all this cool stuff but then I shook it and convinced myself otherwise? That’s a regular occurrence for me. The writers' block mixed with anxiety makes me run away from writing anything because I have nothing to say.

Until I start talking to someone.

Almost instantly I’m not only able to speak on a variety of topics, but I’m also charismatic, knowledgeable, intuitive (as much as I can be), and I have tons of insight into any aspect of your life. It’s as if I suddenly transformed into another version of me by an outside force that I have no control over.

Hello to my lovely readers! It's the third day of March Madness! One more day to go! 

How are you doing on your journey? Are you consistent? Or have you thrown in the towel yet? You have to remember that consistency is key when it comes to cleaning and organization.

 For a personal update, I finally went through my closet and had two huge bags of clothes to dispose of. Yesterday, I finally took them to the charity and consignment shops! 

That is probably one of my number one tips for this month, make sure you GET RID of all that you wish too, or they will pile up and somehow find their way back into your life. 

 Today I'm here with my ten ways to mentally declutter. A clutter-free mind brings productivity, and productivity brings more organization and helps you become more motivated.

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