#mbrdevelopment tasks

Shit fasho gets easier, well maybe not easier, but definitely better. Especially in comparison to the things you have to endure right now in this part of your life. Shit, in 2022, you coming up for real. You dropped a song that went viral, blew up, and all the long nights that's going to come--when you and your niggas up late in "White Tim's" garage in a makeshift studio, and dropping cringe shit on soundcloud gon' pay off. Nigga we got SIGNED. How ironic that "Lonely" was the song that changed your life, and lonely is the perfect way to describe where you are now. Yeah you had your sister on the many nights mama wouldn't come back.. and I hate to tell you fam, but one day she ain't gonna come back at all. We pass her sometimes when we driving through the old hood nowadays, but we don't even look her way... Aye, I ain't say we was perfect.. we still got some shit to work on right now but I have to admit, when I do see her, I turn back into you and think about how fucked up she was. But enough of that shit for right now, back to the important shit. Nigga, you pulling up in a SRT Hellcat now, got you a diamond grill--a real one--and not the ones you make out of gum wrappers every morning outside of your school before class start. And the bitches, bro the bitches.. the fattest asses, the biggest titties. Stripper bitches, lawyer bitches, thug bitches all kinds of bitches. You still only had one girlfriend ever though because commitment ain't really your thing. It's more than likely cuz of our mama though, shit, and our father too. Oh, you finally met that nigga though at 13. They bought some big convicts over to the juvie to talk to us and his ass was in the line up. That shit crazy. First convo you had with that nigga and yall both was in jail. Apparently, that nigga known for putting in work. From California to Atlanta and when word got out you was his seed that was your gateway to the streets... and it paid off for a lil while, but. Anyway tho.

I know you're a dreamer, you've always been a dreamer. Even now, at 21 you still be dreaming hard as fuck. You know what's crazy? Even til this day we still got that uglass green composition notebook where you used to list everything you ever wanted in it. And it goes from stuff you want in this moment in your life (and eventually got because I made sure of it) and goes to stuff I want now. I never stopped adding to it. Lol. I think it's wild to see shit I used to think was a delicacy.. like being able to take a bath without having to boil your water first, having thanksgiving dinner, or having a christmas tree..or being able to buy Tahara an actual gift on her birthday instead of "best big sister" construction paper cards, to now like owning businesses and getting sponsorships. Oh and the gushers? Boyyyyy, we got so many Gushers in 2022.. a whole drawer full and we don't even have to save them, Tahara don't have to steal them, and nobody can take them from you to hurt you no more. So right now, I know it's a lot of cold nights for you. I know you go to school in pain from sleeping on a floor with Tahara, or stuffing your feet in kicks she outgrew about two years prior. Or waiting around for the lunch lady to close the cafe down afterschool so you can beg for another pizza to split with ya sister. But just stay down, pimpin. It'll get better.

P.S we still tenderheaded.

Dear Baby Tashari Cromwell,

Life is going to deal you a pretty shit hand at life and what sucks the most is, you never really have a chance to take it all in. All the mess starts from very young. Oh, for future reference when you went to "work" with your mother, she wasn't doing shit but turning tricks. That's the true tea right there. That's one thing you know for a fact you learned from her. How to get what you need from a man you were entertaining. Your mother would always so "Never leave with just a wet ass" and of course you never understood what it meant, but the older you got, the more sense it made. That's something you still follow til this day. If he's into you, he'll court you, and if he don't then he ain't worth shit because it's niggas out here that will. But anyway, It wasn't long before you was taken from her and placed in the system at the tender age of six, and having to fight for everything you own started there. Being in foster care, you had to literally fist fight for the necessity. Like a meal for instance. Make no mistakes though, your mother definitely tried to get you back and she even did so successfully but only to get you taken away again.

Being in and out of Foster Homes were tiring, once you hit fifteen you just never went back. You did manage to join a house, and you vogue DOWNNNN. There wasn't a ball you pumped and you didn't collect your tens. It was that world where you felt like you finally belong. Your gay mother took you in, and everything was nice until you started to fight with them too. Your temper is out of control, even still. It's something we still have to work on but hey, Rome wasn't built in a day. So far, you've fought yourself out of foster homes, gay homes, jobs, and even relationships. The sad part is I don't have anything super fascinating to tell you about our life now at 21. It's still a work in progress, and hopefully I get a letter from an older, wiser version of us. That'll let me know there is still hope for me because right now I'm feeling a little hopeless. I guess to sum it all up, get ready for neglect, and disappointment. It's a running trend for you.

MÉLANIE SAINT-YVES

growing up as the only child is the reason why it’s possible for mél to be as social as she is and make friends easily. her parents were very well off and she was able to experience many things growing up that contributes to her living for excitement, pleasure and fun. with her being the only child she does hate being alone at times.

with her being a general practitioner and being in the medical field in general, her people skills were able to grow which also aided in her social life and networking. her career it’s usually where she takes the most advantage of her impulsive nature, having to be quick on her feet. things can happen in an instance that she has to be ready for.

she’s a very animated person and it doesn’t take much for her to take something to the extreme with being a drama queen. her dramatic antics reign supreme and anyone who knows her would agree. the only thing that isn’t fully true is her being optimistic. she doesn’t fully see or trust the good in people or situations all the time and she sort of lives in reality and take life for what it is.

DEVELOPMENT — SAHARI ROYE

Sahari has a dark temper and her emotions tend to be unstable, she bottles up her feelings until they boil over or she releases exactly how she feels to the person or people.

She’s withdrawn and introverted, open to being friendly but this has gotten her in many situations that caused her to be in trouble or harmed. This includes past relationships with men and women. So she’s very cautious. She becomes distant unintentionally.

If she loves you or holds you dear, she cherishes you and spoils her friends with gifts, shes very busy but makes time for her loved ones and friends. She will give you her last, she’s very generous and loyal. If she’s your friend, you have her for life. If she’s your lover there’s nothing in the world you can’t have or she won’t do for you. That’s a gift and a curse for her.