#maz737

It’s been almost 7 years for me and I still feel some of that. But I’m getting better, very slowly, but I AM getting better. You will too. 4 years might seem like a long time, but recovery is a messy process and we all backtrack a lot.

deliriousfaol replied to your post This is kind of really personal and really dark...

I think it’s dangerous to compare one’s life to the “one day that I’ll be well.” Our time recovering is not a static waiting period. It is not wasted, or worth any less than when we are “well”. the past is wind and the future is mist, today is real.

Seriously you guys, I can’t tell you how much it meant to wake up to these two messages. maz737, it meant a lot to know that I’m not alone in what I’m feeling. I’m so sorry that you’ve been suffering too, but at least we both are trying to recover bit by bit right? Seriously thank you for taking the time to reach out to me it means so much and I hope you get to where you want to be soon:)

deliriousfaol this was.... honestly so helpful. I really really needed this reminder. You’re right, always comparing myself back to the past or to how i might be in the future isn’t going to help anything. I just can’t tell you how much your words hit me and thank you so so so so much for writing them. 

Kick his ass baby I got yo flower

Congrats!!!! *confetti toss* :3

1. I procrastinate on everything. Even the things I WANT to do.

2. I sometimes think I rather be stabbed than take a speech class that I need in order to graduate.

3. I'm a Junior in college and I'm scared.

4. I love supernatural and paranormal and all that creepy/scary shit but when i do research and stuff online I can only do it when the sun is out, otherwise I get paranoid and scared. 

5. I find it hard to picture my future. it all seems like this big black hole of nothing.

What is this drawing!? I need to see it!