I know it's been 5 days but hey... what the heck. It's May. What does this mean exactly?? Well I guess it may vary from person to person. For me, it's a new beginning. A do over. Last year... May has been the gateway to a new life for me. I turned my back from a life I previously lived and entered a new one. Left behind some people and moved on in life. The days from last May and today have been filled with many stops and go's, ups and downs. It was filled with trials and struggles. I have found myself constantly wrestling with myself in my head and constantly forcing myself to keep pressing on and not to look back. It gets incredibly hard sometimes. We can't really stop ourselves from missing where we used to be. Especially when we step out of our comfort zone and we find ourselves in tough times. There were times in where I would've done anything, given up anything just to spend a day or even an hour in the days that I left behind. I know it's impossible and the only thing I could do is to keep moving despite that. I have gone through depression that nearly ate me up. I fought and fought hard until I got through it. At a time, I felt incomplete like there was a hole in my chest and like the world split in half, crumbled apart before my eyes. As time went on... I picked up my pieces and pulled myself together. I got it together and decided to go on with my life knowing that I can never go back to how it used to be. I take it as a lesson learned. We all went through tough times that we all wish we could take back. If you haven't yet... you will at one point. But these things are part of what makes us into who we are now and who we are destined to become. Take it in stride and learn from the past but never let it decide your future. :)