Iโm sorry Iโm not enough to wash away all the hurt inside of you. Iโm sorry I canโt fight your demons alongside you. Iโm sorry Iโm taking care of myself less and less. Iโm sorry because there are times that my mind is clouded by selfishness and so I count how many times I did things for you. Iโm sorry my mind is recently clouded by doubt and couldnโt see the things youโve given up just to be with me. Iโm sorry you lost a few friends because of me. Iโm sorry we sometimes hide in other labels. Iโm sorry depression is calling out again. Iโm sorry pleasure is slipping out of my hands. Iโm sorry I canโt take you to places Iโd like us to go. Iโm sorry for being silent for no apparent reason. Iโm sorry for sometimes thinking that when we fight, Iโm the only one thatโs hurting.
Thank you for being there when I get home from school. Thank you for those mornings that you and food are waking me up. Thank you for luring me into the art scene. Thank you for pointing out my faults and trying to correct them. Thank you for kissing me more than everyday. Thank you for taking care of me when Iโm sick. Thank you for some nights when you sing me and pat me to sleep. Thank you for opening up to me. Thank you for letting me in your world. Thank you for being bare and naked and nude with me. Thank you for holding my hand when we walk. Thank you for being my pillow during bus rides. Thank you for cleaning the house most of the time. Thank you for choosing me. Thank you for the poems you wrote for me. Thank you for the pictures of me that you took. Thank you for praying with me. Thank you for going to church with me. Thank you for believing in me.ย
Please love me extra on days when I feel bad. Hold my hand whenever I start to play with my fingernails again. Kiss me hard when I stop doing what ever Iโm doing because stress is starting to get to me. Hug me at once when I ask you because sometimes I think you are more interested in whatever you are doing/reading than you are in me. Pamper me whenever I canโt pamper you. Love me harder everyday. Please please let us choose to love each other everyday, in thoughts, words, and action. I love you.