#mattwo

All i can think about is what it felt like to feel your heart beat against me and to know you were alive and how for then i was in another world that was a lot softer with no problems and i was loved and i was okay

I l*ve my boyfriend

No offense but im in love with my boyfriend

And then i realized i was in too deep for him. I toured a pretty college campus and i felt for once like maybe i kept myself alive i could find a way to amount to something and all i really wanted was for him to be there and for him to proud of me and for him to feel at home like i did too.

In addition: hes also rly cute and funny and Wow

Usually i am absolutely terrified and in the best cases uncomfortable when people are attracted to me bc tfw Abuse but i guess whats different about my boyfriend is that he makes me feel like a person rather than just a desirable object someone wants to own. Like even when i let people know how badly people being attracted to me fucks me up there was just persistence and i felt like my own feelings didnt matter and id only matter to people by being a good fuck. Like i was never comfortable with romance directed towards me because itd always been that i was a commodity but like. My boyfriend makes me feel like i have genuine value as a person and im not just a doll.

I forgot to say no homo when i sat down next to my Bro and now were dating