she's trying to change. or maybe that's all the pain medication talking. she sees no other option, not when she's been dethroned, and deep down, she knows she has to. the cold and heartless act worked for a while, and she'll miss it, the way everyone looked at her— but it couldn't last forever, regrettably. there's a long list of people she owes apologies to, most of which she's unwilling to actually give, but at the very top of that list is @massivelez.
in a way, she was the start of it all, the reason that regina crafted the whole mean girl persona in the first place. while janis was proud of her sexuality, comfortable with who she was, regina wasn't. when she came out, regina had no issue with it, supported it, but then it got her thinking about herself: the feelings she'd had for her best friend finally began to make sense, the disinterest she had in boys her entire life falling into place, and it terrified her. she had to prove herself wrong, that she was only having those thoughts because she was curious, not because she actually liked her— the kiss did the opposite of that, only confirming her fears: she had a crush on her best friend. one she couldn't handle, because it meant embracing something about herself she wasn't ready to face yet, so she pushed janis away, turned cold, ruined everything, all to protect herself.
out of everyone, she's the most difficult to face. not just because of the neck brace that makes it hard to physically look at her, but the knowledge that janis doesn't owe her any of her time. she has every right to hate her, because regina's betrayal to her best friend is probably the worst thing she's ever done— but that's why she has to apologize. and if janis doesn't accept it, at least she has the pain meds to soften the blow. “ nice suit. it fits you. ” the compliment's genuine, unlike all the fake ones she'd hand out before, only to roll her eyes and laugh the moment the receiver turned their back. “ can we talk? ”
