bottom of the deep blue sea || mouse + cambie
[Mouseās jaw sets stubbornly, but other than that he stays relaxed and lets her press a towel to his hair. Objectively speaking, Cambie doesnāt deserve the harsh attitude he feels in response to the fussingāand the combination of that reaction and her genuine worry curdles in his stomach like milk and lemon, nauseating.]
[Heās not her kid, though. Heās not even in her House, and sheās overstepping all of his mental and physical boundaries right now. His hope is that by standing here impassively, sheāll come to that realization on her own, and he can skip to the part where she treats him like an equal and not a witless incompetent.]
Iāve been swimminā in the ocean since I could walk, Cambie. [He tells her, his tone firm but gentle.] Survived the apocalypse, tooāmight sound arrogant, I know, but I think I can handle ten minutes in wet clothes.Ā
[He pauses, and takes a half step back from her. At the very least he can give her some explanation, to help her see where heās coming from. That he feels like heās caged in here, day after day, and itās only getting worse.] I just needed to do one thing that wasnāt⦠[He searches out the words.] Someone elseās idea of what I should, yāknow? [He shrugs.] If I didnāt do this, Iādāve done somethinā proper idiotic, āstead of somethinā I spent my whole life gettinā practice at.
[She recognises his response, a reflection of dozens of Delmas over the years. Cambie knows sheās fussy, to the point of overbearing. Itās her response to everything, the mask she hides behind. Itās different to the way most of the people in her house are: itās not Corbinās swaggering cockiness or Ellyās dry sarcasm. But it is still unquestionably her stress response, and in the end it can be just as aggravating as anyone elseās.
Itās gotten worse lately, as things with the NWRF only seem to get worse. Cambie feels increasingly powerless, and she takes it out on feckless Delmas (and now even passing Torrens, apparently), fussing and mothering and gathering accusations of being patronising and meddling. Mouse doesnāt outright tell her off, but itās written in his body language and the hard set of his tone. Suitably chastened, as she always is when she realises sheās crossed a boundary, Cambie lowers the towel and folds it first one way, then another. She never knows what to do with her hands when sheās inclined to fuss but deprived of an outlet, so the now-soggy towel becomes that outlet.
As Mouse explains, she completely understands why heād been bothered by her. He needs some sort of freedom. She does still think it would have been prudent if heād brought a friend with him, but has the sense to recognise now isnāt the time to push that particular point.]Ā
Iām sorry. [Cambie says with a soft sigh; sheās not always the best with boundaries, but sheās always quick to apologise for crossing them.]Ā I know the last few months have been... tough. And I know you can handle yourself, I just worry. You know the NWRF havenāt exactly been forgiving of troublemakers lately. [Sheād barely slept after the reinking incident a few months prior, knowing how many people were locked up.]Ā Although I should probably thank you for just swimming, as opposed to picking a fight with a guard or something. Has something happened? Or is it just, everything? [Cambieās pretty ready to go to bat at this point, increasingly frustrated by the NWRF.]