Not Awkward At All
RATING: T
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Judy is spiraling.
Any moment now, Nick will arrive at the bullpen, hop up in the seat beside her, and cheese and crackers, she has no idea what sheâs supposed to say to him. Â
Itâs not that she and Nick are bad communicators. Theyâre actually quite excellent at communicating with each other, thank you very much. She has the framed certificate they received from passing Partners in Crisis saying exactly that.
No, the issue isnât poor communication. If anything, itâs the opposite. They know each other like the back of their paws, which is to be expected when theyâve been partners on the force for a year and a half and best friends for even longer. So the issue isnât their communication skills. The issue is how well she knows Nick.
And, worse, how well he knows her.
âYou good, Hopps?â
Judy starts and realizes too late sheâd been pulling at her ears. Turning her head, she finds Mchorn staring at her like sheâd spontaneously sprouted Midnicampum holicithius out of said ears and intended to sell them without a permit. âOh, ah. Yeah. Sure am!â She straightens and forces a bright smile. âJust really, really excited to make the world a better place.â
âReally?â comes Wolfordâs voice from somewhere behind her. âBecause you look like you just got caught with your paw in the carrot jar.â
A round of snickering, then someone elseâDalgato?âsays, âItâs probably just a hangover. We all saw those Snapcat stories. Didnât know you had it in ya, Hopps! Getting wasted on a worknight!â
âYeah, what the trunk, Judy, where was my invite?!â Francine shouts. Â
The laughter continues. Sheâs almost grateful for it. Not that she would ever tell them that. It gives her something else to focus on besides the impending mortification of seeing Nick Wilde again.
Especially after what happened last night.
Nope, absolutely not. Going there is the last thing sheâs supposed to be doing
Avert, avert, avert.
She almost grabs her ears again but catches herself, settling for wringing her paws instead. In the front of the bullpen, the clock ticks ahead, taunting her with every single micromovement of its largest hand.
One tick closer to Nick showing up.
Another tick closer to Nick showing up.
Another tick closer to Nick showing up.
Anotherâ
Judy buries her face in her paws. Her head does hurt, so the pressure and darkness are doing wonders for that. Yeah, hangover, thatâs all this is. Just commit to the bit and no one will suspect a thing. Simple as peas and carrots.
Her chair trembles, just a bit, like someone bumped it, only now thereâs a brush of movement and a warmth filling the empty space beside her. She freezes at the contact and slowly, slowly, draws a paw away from one of her eyes while her heart thunders so loud it dampens all sound in the bullpen.
âMorninâ, Partner,â Nick says easily.
Judy feels like sheâs about to short circuit.
Outwardly, he looks completely normal. Same sly smile, same uniform with its rolled-up sleeves, same sunglasses perched atop his head, same over-sugared coffee in paw. Nothing out of the ordinary. The Nick Wilde M.O.
But sitting here, finally seeing him again face to face, makes a rush of memories come flooding in, and suddenly itâs eight hours earlier and her ears are buzzing with the beat of club music and thereâs a cold drink that tastes like strawberries weeping condensation in her paw and Nick is there too and heâs smiling in that charming way of his, kind of like he is right now, andâoh, no. Oh, no, no, no. Is it too late to call in sick? Chief Bogo would understand, right?
The thing is, Judy knows Nick. Like, knows him knows him. Probably better than he knows himself. So wondering whatâs going through his head right now isnât the problem. The problem is that she knows exactly whatâs happening in that dumb fox brain of his.
Heâs enjoying this. One thousand percent.
She clears her throat, ignoring the way her ears are burning hotter than the pavement in Sahara Square, and squeaks out a half-hearted, âMorning!â
Nickâs smile does that thing where it turns up higher at a corner. Itâs not quite a smirk, but something softer. Still self-satisfied and screams âIâm a dumb fox, please punch me,â but she lets it slide this time because itâs early and her head hurts and she barely got any sleep last night. Maybe three hours after she made it to her apartment and another two before she finally slept and . . . wait. Did she even sleep?
Judy groans and rubs at her eyes. âNo more drinking on work nights. I think I got into a fight with a meowjito and lost.â
âHey, donât talk about yourself like that, Carrots.â He nudges her with his elbow. âYou fought valiantly for that hangover. I would know, being that I was there and all.â
Like everything else so far, his touch is nothing out of the ordinary. A casual gesture between friends. Theyâd always been on the touchy-feely side, anyway. What isnât normal is the brush of his tail at her backside that makes her smother a very undignified shriek from how far out of the cornfield it comes. Â
She glances at him sharply. He stares toward the front of the room, his expression giving nothing away.
Damn Fox.Â
The worst part is that it could have been accidental. Theyâre two mammals standing close together on a single chair, so itâs impossible not to brush against each other at some point. It happens. Sheâd never noticed before because existing around Nick Wilde is usually as easy as breathing.
She canât prove it, but she just knows heâd done it on purpose.
âWhatâs the matter, Carrots?â Nick asks too innocently.
âNothing, nothing,â she says, staring straight ahead. The clock is her friend now. It gives her something else to focus on besides chaos covered in orange fur. âJust wondering how youâre still alive. You were drinking too.â
âEasy.â He shrugs. âIâve trained for this.â
âTrained for this?â
âIâve spent the majority of my life in a state of barely functioning so when the time came Iâd be ready.â
She groans again, rubbing her temples. âWell, youâll have to teach me your ways then.â
Nick snorts. When he doesnât immediately respond, she shoots him a look and he smirks at her. âThereâs just so many things I could say to that, Fluff. Sooo many things.â
McHorn coughs into his arm. Behind them, several officers snicker.
Judy wants to melt into the floor.
Fortunately, Bogo arrives just in time to end her suffering and to, less importantly, delegate assignments. Grateful for the distraction, she straightens and clasps her paws on the table, ears at attention, trying to appear as attentive as possible. She definitely doesnât watch Nick from the corner of her eye the entire time, nor does her heart race with every glance she catches him sneaking her way.
Itâs just another day. Another perfectly normal day at work with her not-quite-platonic work partner. Thatâs all.
Before she knows it, thereâs a clamor of chairs squeaking and large mammals heading for the door. She blinks, because what? Sheâd somehow missed the chiefâs entire briefing!?
A coffee slides toward her on the table.
âHere,â Nick says, amused. âYou need it more than I do.â
He hops from their chair and swaggers toward the door, tail swishing behind him.
âWhere are you going?â she asks.
âDidnât ya hear? Chief Beef assigned us a beat in Savannah Central.â
Sweet cheese and crackers, this is going to be a long day.
~~~~
The patrol car isnât any easier.
On one paw, theyâre alone so sheâs freed of the gossiping entity that is the ZPD.
On the other paw, however, theyâre alone so thereâs no gossipy officers there to diffuse the tension. Â
They both stare at the dashboard for a long moment, neither of them saying anything. Judy fiddles with the corkscrew cord of the patrol carâs mobile radio.
âWell this isnât awkward at all,â Nick jokes.
âNick . . .â she starts.
 âNope,â he replies, grinning.
âNo?â
âYes, no.â
âNo what?â
âYou know.â
âKnow what?â she asks incredulously.
He turns, removes his sunglasses, and looks her up and down. Thereâs no disguising it. No way for her to reason away that her best friend had, very brazenly, just checked her out. Immediately, her ears burn, and her stomach twists itself into knots. She doesnât know what to do or say, just sits there frozen like the worldâs dumbest bunny to have ever dumb bunnied.
Because, in that moment, theyâre not in the patrol car of the ZPD, theyâre back at that seedy club in Tundratown the Big family owns, and Nickâs breath is hot on her throat while her arms wind around his neck. The music thrums and hides her gasp when teeth graze her collar bones.
Present day Nickâs expression says he knows exactly what sheâs remembering. His grin is all teeth. âCare to share with the class, Carrots?â
The space between them is charged with something sheâs too afraid to name. It leaves her squirming in her seat, wondering how in the world Nick is able to make something as simple as direct eye contact seem so . . . intense.
âAhhh, no. Nope, nothing to share here,â she says. And for some absurd reason, she pats herself down and then shows him her empty paws. âSee? Fresh out of shareables.â
Nick blinks like he needs to process and then falls back into his seat laughing. âOh, Sweetheart, youâre actually killing me. I could have you up to your fuzzy wuzzy ears in innuendos right now.â
âOh my god, Nick,â Judy cries with her paws over her face again. âWe do need to talk. You know that right?â
He nods. âAbsolutely, we do. But not right now.â
âWhy?â
He leans forward. Not much, just enough to get his point across, his eyes never leaving hers. âBecause Iâm having too much fun. Youâll get your conflict resolution, Carrots. Promise. Foxâs honor.â
And then he does the most heinous thing of all. He boops her. Right on the nose.
Judy recoils and covers the lower half of her face with her paws. Her ears are molten floppy traitors pinned to the back of her head. Â
Nick laughs again as he opens his door. âCâmon. Letâs go make the world a slightly less terrible place.â
After recovering what few scraps of her dignity remain, she scrambles out of the driverâs seat and catches up to him. âI think you mean, letâs make the world a better place, Slick.â
âMarginally more acceptable. My only and final offer.â
âWow, that was almost optimistic.â She joins him on the sidewalk and smirks up at him as they start their beat. âDo you woo all the ladies with that enthusiasm?â
He makes a face like heâs sucking his teeth. âNope, just you.â
âYikes.â
âTrust me, Carrots, it pained me as much to say it as it did for you to hear it.â
She pats his arm. âI appreciate the effort. It mustâve been so hard for you.â
âIt was. It absolutely was.â He shakes his head. âIâm not sure Iâll ever recover. The things I go through to keep my bunny happy.â
There it isâthe ammunition sheâs been waiting for. She grins. âYour bunny, hmm?â
Nickâs too-cool-for-school expression falters, the first chink in his armor, and he quickens his pace so heâs walking ahead of her and points toward a crowd of mammals milling before an array of colorful storefronts. âOh, would you look at that! A shifty individual!â
âThe only shifty individual I see is the one in front of me,â she retorts.
âCarrots,â Nick hisses over his shoulder with feigned outrage. He pats the gleaming badge on his chest. âIâll have you know I have a real badge, and your bias is impeding my very important investigation.â
She rolls her eyes with a smile as she catches up to him again. âOh really?â
âMmhmm, yep. Totally.â He nods. âWe should probably find him or her before they get away. Hopps and Wilde?â
âWilde and Hopps,â she replies, allowing him the segue.
If thereâs one thing sheâs learned about Nick Wilde over the last two years is how much he hates being railroaded, whether itâs their casework, or a conversation about something as cataclysmic as his feelings. She knows itâs time to ease up. Back off and let him make the next move. Which he willâshe knows thatâin due time, when the moment is right.
Itâs one of the harder lessons sheâs had to learn. Not only is Nick emotionally standoffish, heâs also a predator. He wants to catch her off guard. To feel like heâs the one with the upper hand. So, despite how much the tension between them is making her want to chew her own paws off, she resists the temptation to grab him by the tie, yank him down the nearest shaded alley, and demand for him to name what this thing between them is.
Then she remembers the last time sheâd yanked his tie. Less than twelve hours ago, in fact.
And boom, there she is again, back in the damned club. His paws on her hips, her back pressed against the wall, lines shattered and inhibitions thrown to the wind as theyâno, bad Judy. Not supposed to be going there, remember?
The heat of Sahara Square is sweltering enough that Judy pulls at her collar and groans. The heat, coupled with the intense sunlight, has made the dull ache behind her eyes reach its crescendo. Really, of all places, Bogo had to send them here? She scrubs at her eyes again.
Nick notices, because of course he does. He rustles through a pouch on his duty belt before depositing a small water bottle and bunny-sized dosage of pain reliever into her paws. âHere, Fluff.â
She stops short and gapes up at him. His expression is unreadable, masked by his sunglasses. âYou brought me water and pain meds?â
âFigured you might need them.â He shrugs and looks away.
Judy is speechless. A fluttery sensation does summersaults in her belly as she stares at him. Then she nods too quickly. âThank you! You were right of course, oh dear partner of mine!â She swallows the pill and downs the water faster than one of her siblings smuggling stolen soda pop from the warren kitchen. âOh would you look at that? Emp-tyyy. Iâm going to go find a trash can.â
He snorts. âYou do that.â
After, they return to walking their beat shoulder to shoulder, business as usual. Nothing out of the ordinary. Just two best friends who work together and definitely didnât spend the previous evening doing anything that could be construed as non-platonic. Nope, not at all. That would be silly. That would be so unlike them. That would beâ
Oh, carrot sticks. Sheâs going to explode before this day is over with.
Like, actually self-destruct.
Meanwhile, Nick is cool as a cucumber, exuding raw confidence in that effortless way of his, leaving her to second guess every time their shoulders brush, or his tail swishes against her legs, or one of his gazes, perhaps, lingers longer than it should. It couldnât all be in her head, right?
It doesnât help that her fox just so happens to look really good in blue. His deep navy uniform complements the russet of his fur in ways that she almost wants to write him a citation. For what, sheâs not certain. Disrupting the peace, maybe? Namely her own inner peace.
Whatâs worse is sheâs not even the only one to notice. While most mammals just seem surprised to see a fox with a badge, there are other looksâmore heated onesâdirected at him from male and female mammals alike. Heads swivel in their direction, a path in the mammal sea cleaved open for them to walk, hushed murmurs left to linger in their wake. And yeah, sure, it could have something to do with them being the celebrity faces of City Hallâs Mammal Inclusion Initiative, but Judy doesnât see it that way. She sees Nick. Her Nick. Her overly charming best friend and partner who just so happens to be a little easy on the eyes.
Not that she thinks heâs hot or anything.
âCarrots,â Nick drawls, voice light and teasing. âYou keep tugging on that ear like that and you just might rip it off.â
Judy releases the ear sheâd been unwittingly wringing and gives a strangled laugh. âOops.â
âHypothetically though,â he says as they come to an intersection and pause, waiting for the light to turn green, âif you do so happen to find yourself sans an ear, does that make you more unicorn or narwhal coded?â
âOh, youâre hilarious,â Judy retorts, crossing her arms and hoping her ears arenât as red as they feel. âIf you suddenly lost your tail would that mean weâd have to start calling you Bob?â Â
He grins, not missing a beat. âI donât know, âThe Adventures of Bob and the Narwhalâ has a nice ring to it.â He glances over his shoulder at the other mammals waiting at the crosswalk, waving a paw. âQuick, someone take note! We have the start of the next bestselling childrenâs book here!â
Judy grabs his arm. âOr donât!â And tugs him across the street as soon as the light turns.
The remainder of their shift goes by slower than molasses. Crime activity in this part of the city is already low, which is only compounded by their presence, because wouldnât you know it, mammals are less inclined to break the law with law enforcement around. Sheâs not shockedâyou are.
Itâs when shadows lengthen and the heat continues its merciless pursuit to see her melted into a puddle that Nick gently nudges her shoulder. âHey, Iâm parched. Letâs get a smoothie.â
âYeah, okay. That sounds great,â she says, tugging at her vest. âItâs pretty hot out here, isnât it?â
His gaze does that thing where it lingers too long. She can see her own flustered expression reflecting in his dark sunglasses. Â âIt sure is,â he finally says.
He leads her to one of the medium-sized mammal smoothie carts the next street over, and she lets him steer her toward the counter with his paws on her shoulders. They peruse the menu for a moment while a surly-looking armadillo stares at them with barely repressed boredom, nails rapping on the stainless-steel counter.
âMy treat,â Nick says after a moment, âso get whatever you want.â
âOh, ah, thanks.âÂ
She swallows, struggling to read the menu, too distracted by how close Nick is standing behind her. When did he get so close? The fur of his neck is brushing against the top of her head. The heat of himâhis scentâitâs making his closeness overwhelming to the point that sheâs unable to make sense of anything that isnât him. She may as well be reading a sign about quantum physics. What even are words?
Instead, her mind wanders to the last time they were this close, when their bodies were pressed together in a cramped corner, music reverberating through her bones. Her ears flatten against her head.
Nick leans in for the killing blow. His breath is hot at her ear. âIf I may, madame, suggest the wild strawberry.â
That does it.
Judy squeaks, jumping forward, and whirls to glare at him. The grin heâs giving her is absolutely cheshire, canines flashing in the light of the setting sun, and Judyâsweet cream over biscuitsâsheâs a mess. Her heart is a frantic thing hammering against her ribs. And the memories, the ones sheâd spent the last seven hours trying not to think aboutâwell now sheâs thinking about them.
Strawberry meowjitos. Club music. Flashing lights. A brief stint of jealousy. And Nick. So much Nick. His teeth at her neck. Her paws twisted in his tie. His claws on her hips. Sweet words. Ragged breaths. Drunken declarations.
The line between them had blurred ages ago, but last night?âItâd been nowhere to be found.
Deeply embarrassed by how flustered she is in public and already plotting the ways in which she intends to strangle her partner, Judy turns back to the poor smoothie vender whoâd been unfortunate enough to witness her implosion.
The armadilloâher nametag says Brandyâjust stares at her with the same flat, could-give-two-shits manner sheâd had at their initial approach. She blinks at Judy, slow and indifferent, and lets out the longest sigh Judy has ever heard. âKnow what you want yet, rabbit?â
Nick chuckles behind her like heâs certain heâs won whatever game this is for him. Well, it takes two to teeter totter. If he wants to fight dirty, then gosh darn it, so will she. Judy lifts her chin, squares her shoulders, allowing a newfound calmness to rush through her veins and imbue her spine with steel. She devises a plan then, hasty and a little reckless, fire ready to fight fire.
âActually,â she says, her voice as sweet as honey, âstrawberry sounds perfect. My partner has great taste.â
The silence behind her is deafening. She grins.
âWonderful,â the armadillo drones, rolling her eyes. âAnd you, fox?â
Nick clears his throat. âUh, that works for me too, actually.â
The armadilloâs perma-frown remains unhindered. âLovely.â She gestures to the card reader on the counter. âYou can pay here.â
Nick does, and the silence that stretches between them as they await their order is tense enough that Judy almost cracks. She doesnât though. Just stands there smiling and inspecting her claws while her partner simmers beside her in what he no doubt assumes to be his imminent doom. The predator now the prey, being hunted at last.
The thought makes her giddier than it probably should.Â
The smoothies arrive, and Judy nabs both of them, turning to flash her partner with the widest grin she can muster. She holds one out to him. âShall we find somewhere to sit, Officer Wilde?â
Nick visibly gulps, then buries whatever it is heâs feeling behind a mask of charm. âWhat a wonderful idea, Officer Hopps.â Thereâs a sitting area nearby and he gestures to a picnic table closest to the foot traffic. âAfter you.â
She pretends to consider it for a moment, then frowns. âHmm. Maybe not there. The sun, you see, is just so very bright.â She points over his shoulder to the table furthest from the sidewalk. The one nestled within an alcove of city-maintained sickle bush and pressed against the side of a building.
âOr,â he counters, âwe meet in the middle and sit there.â He points somewhere behind her head.
Judy doesnât look. Doesnât even pretend to consider it this time. âNah.â
Without another word, she saunters toward the secluded table, so Nick has no choice but to follow. Which he does, of course, though he lags behind, and as she nimbly hops into her seat and smiles at him, he settles into his with a reverence that makes his tail stick straight out and the fur of it stand on end.
She has him nervous. Good.
Heâs trying to hide it. And, hilariously, if she didnât know him as well as she does, she would probably never know how nervous he really is. Nick Wilde is a master of deflection and feigned charm. He crosses one leg over the other, his expression schooled into that smooth slyness that used to make her want to throttle him. He takes a sip of his smoothie and adjusts his sunglasses. âFeeling better, Carrots? You were looking a little red back there.â
âAlmost,â she says, and makes a dramatic show of shielding her eyes from what little sunlight streams into their mostly shaded spot. âBut itâs still too bright and my head is pounding because someoneânot saying whoâthought it would be a good idea to go drinking on a worknight. Now if only I had some nice dark sunglasses to fend off this agony.â
âYeah, wouldnât that be something,â Nick says.
âNick.â
He winces. âYeah?â
âGimme.â
Nick groans and hands his glasses over without further complaint, blinking against the abruptness of Savannah Centralâs golden hour. Having not seen his bright green eyes since this morning in the patrol car, Judy smothers the urge to look away as a flush threatens to creep up her neck. She takes the glasses and positions them, not over her eyes, but atop her head instead.
He frowns, utterly unimpressed. âNice, Carrots. Real mature.â
âItâs called aââ
âA hustle, Sweetheart,â he finishes for her in a lilted voice meant to mock hers, claws waggling in exaggerated air quotes. âI know, I know. So Iâve heard a thousand times since you booted my stroller.â
âWow. Sounds like I really struck a nerve there.â
âIf weâre keeping a tally of all the nerves youâve struck then letâs just say Iâm numb at this point. Practically paralyzed.â
She bares her teeth in a gritted smile that she hopes looks as fake as it feels. âSorry.â
âNo, youâre not.â He chuckles. âNot even a little.â
She shrugs, sipping her smoothie. âYouâre right.â
âOooh, now she talks dirty to me,â he says, his grin sharp and wicked. Itâs worsened by his eyes, now freed from their shaded prison, because the look heâs giving her is the furthest thing from platonic sheâs ever seen. She debates giving him the sunglasses back right then and there. Perhaps theyâd been there for her benefit after all, and not for him to hide behind like she originally assumed.
Her position as the apex predator of the situation is slipping. Time to change tactics and go on the offensive. âI think Iâm going to go shopping after work.â
His smooth charm cracks at the abrupt turn in conversation and he blinks. âOh?â
âYup.â
âYay consumerism?â
âDonât you want to know what Iâm going to get? Arenât you even a little curious?â
âThis feels like a trap.â
âProbably because it is.â
He erupts with a bark of stunned laughter. âAlright, vicious bunny, Iâll play. What are you gonna get?â
Then he leans in and leers at her. She almost hesitatesâalmostâbut manages to reel in the prey side of her ready to take flight. Not happening, Slick. No way, no how. Sheâs winning this one. No twitching noses or ear wringing here, no sirree.
In fact, she leans in too. Close enough that she's consumed by the sent of him through his musk mask and spots the little flecks of gold amid the green in his eyes. She grins, imagining herself with fangs and claws sharper than a foxâs, and says, âIâm buying pillows.â
His brows rise. âPillows.â
âYup.â
âIf thatâs a euphemism for something I donât get it.â
âItâs not.â
â. . . Alright.â
She leans back, pleased with herself, and crosses her arms. âYou see, Officer Wilde, I donât like the ones I have. Theyâre too . . .â She taps her chin. âBoring. I want something new. Something . . . fluffy.â
Her words have the desired effect because he straightens, ears flattening against his head. âInteresting choice of dĂ©cor, Carrots.â
âI know right?â
âSo,â he hedges, fidgeting with the straw of his smoothie, âcircling back to hypotheticals . . . how fluffy are we talkinâ?â
Judy leans in again, the words sheâs about to say wielded like a loaded dart gun, this entire conversation culminating into her own killing blow, the trap primed and ready to spring. âSo fluffy.â
Nick just stares at her for a long moment, wide-eyed.Â
Sheâs certain heâs remembering the last time he said those words, just last night, when his own carefully maintained inhibitions had been superseded by the numerous strawberry meowjitoâs theyâd sharedâwhen his claws had gripped her ass as they made out like love struck teenagers in a club owned by Mr. Bigâwhen heâd so very lovingly uttered those very words against her lips as his paws toyed with the soft fur of her tail. âSo fluffy,â heâd moaned. Â
Dazed, Nickâs gaze flicks down to her mouth, then back to her eyes again, before he leans back and laughs, long and hard.
âOh, Carrots,â he manages between fits. âYou got me. You win this one.â
Judy allows her own façade to fade and laughs along with him. âGlad youâre seeing things my way, Slick.â
He claps, slow and loud, and pretends to bow. âProud of you I am, young grasshopper, for you have outfoxed the fox.â
She laughs again, ears burning at both the praise and the very serious direction their conversation is about to lead. âNick,â she says finally. The humor in her voice is now edged with apprehension. Her heart is hammering hard enough that sheâs certain is a BPM shy of cardiac arrest. âWe need to talk. About last night.â
Nick looks away for a moment and tugs at his collar before he clears his throat and goes into full charm mode. He steals the sunglasses back and pushes them up the bridge of his muzzle, shields raised and defense mechanism disguised as a smirk engaged. âAlright, Sweetheart. Letâs talk.â
âNick . . . I . . . we . . .â The words stay lodged in her throat. She looks at him helplessly.
The smirk doesnât waver. âCareful, Fluff, if your ears get any redder no one will be able to tell us apart.â
âNick,â Judy snaps, exasperated. âBe seriousâplease. Coconut.â
And just like that, the mask heâd been wielding vanishes and his expression softens. He sets the glasses down and scoots over to her side of the table, paws on her shoulders. âJudy,â he says. âItâs okay. Weâre okay.â
âWhat happened last night . . . we need to talk about it. No more teasing.â
âOkay,â he says carefully. âWhat about it?â
âWe kissed,â she says.
His mouth twitches. âThatâs cute, but you and I both know it was a lot more than that. Didnât know you had it in ya, making out like that in public. Gotta say though,â he winks, âit was hot as hell.â
She tries and fails not to react to his words. With how close he is now, his presence is overwhelming. She tugs at an ear, wringing it between her paws. âWhat does this mean . . . for us?â
âWhat do you want it to mean?â
âThatâs not fair. Answering my question with another question.â
Nick is frowning now, looking away from her to pick up his sunglasses and polish them with his shirt. âIt doesnât have to mean anything if you donât want it to. We were both drunk.â
For a long, tense moment, Judy says nothing. Just stares down at the table.
The thing is, Judy isnât the dumb bunny her anxiety is making her out to be. She knows thereâs been something between her and Nick brewing for some time now. The attraction, the looks, the flirtingâit was a matter of time before they reached a point they wouldnât be able to come back from. She just has to be brave enough to barrel forward.
âWhat are you doing tomorrow night?â she asks.
âYou mean besides you?â Nick says, waggling his brows.
Judy shrieks, heat blossoming beneath her fur, and punches him in the shoulder.Â
He laughs, rubbing the spot sheâd hit him. âWorth it.â And then his expression shifts, growing more serious. âIâm doing what I always do when youâre not around, Fluff.â
âAnd that is?â
âWaiting to see you again.â
Oh.
That wasnât a joke. She can tell just by how earnest heâs being, how his gaze flicks away from hers and down to the table. This isnât Slick Nick talking to herâno, this is Nicholas P. Wilde, sans sarcasm, sans mask. Just him in all his emotionally insecure glory, open and raw and ferociously vulnerableâall for her.
She realizes then sheâs never met a braver mammal.
She tries and fails to speak, several times, the words getting lost somewhere between her brain and her heart, sucked into that liminal in-between where her own insecurities fester. She wants to tell him how much she loves him, how much last night had felt like a dream she hadnât wanted to end, how she wants to do it again and again and again until theyâre old and greyâwell when heâs grey, and sheâs, perhaps, a tad lighter in toneâand awe hell, sheâs not saying anything at all right now, is she?
âNick,â she says, voice laden with intense emotion.
Nick stares back at her, caught between fear and yearning. â. . .Yeah?â
Then she smiles. âLetâs go on a date tomorrow.â
HELLO! So if you've made it this far, please head on over to AO3 (linked at the top of this post) to tell me how you feel! And there will be a second chapter to this one (though I won't post it here in its entirety). Not because it's going to have smut or anything, but because it will be a liiiiittle on the spicier side. I already felt I was kind of pushing it here with this one. AO3, I feel, just has a more appropriate tagging system. I'll be sure to post on this blog when the next chapter is ready! And no, it won't be a continuation...it's the club scene that was referenced throughout this fic. ;)









