this isn’t about supernatural, not really. i stopped watching in 2014 when i dropped every show i was following in real time because figuring out how to watch them was just too much effort. it was hard to drop so many things, even if it was necessary at the time. i’d always planned to watch the finale even if i never watched anything else if only to see what kind of closure it might have. and then 2015 did its best to steamroll me into the ground and with each passing year i withdrew more and more from the internet in general. this year is the most i’ve been active on any of the sites i’ve participated in in a long time.
over the years (y i k e s) that i’ve been on this site i’ve encountered so many people whose thoughts i enjoy reading and no community has been as influential as the people i’ve found through mds. in all honesty, following along on watches and participating in the comments on those reviews and on spoils was some of the most fun i’ve ever had. whether it was nunning about future pain that ‘misty-eyed boy talk’ was going to inflict on us or ranting about the things we hated.
sometimes i would go back to it though, read through old posts and comments. i was in a completely new city where i didn’t know anyone and things kept falling apart around me. so there was something comforting about being able to look back on that time - like catching up with an old friend. and it helped. it helped then, it helped in 2018 and it’s helping now.
i know i said this wasn’t about supernatural, and it’s not, but it also kind of is? because my whole life has just turned into this giant question mark - all the way down to what day of the week it is. so i sort of have to keep finding regular things to do on certain days to help keep track of that. which is how i found myself reading through tags on thursdays just cause why not. there’s something fun about reading about events you lost context for over five years ago (well mostly, internet osmosis is still real even if it’s inaccurate). and then at the moment my stress was reaching a breaking point, we all got to witness this wonderful blue hellsite descend into utter chaos in a way it hasn’t in literal years. and of all the things i could have anticipated, that being the the thing to break me out of a rapidly spiraling stress cycle was not one of them.
in all honestly, what i have to say here really doesn’t matter but i’m gonna say it anyway because why the hell not:
thank you. whether it was through the mark’s reviews or through spoils, the fact that you might be reading this means that you were part of creating an experience that has helped carry me through some of my worst days. and i hope that, if you’re still watching, you get an ending you’re happy with because after 15 seasons you all deserve some closure.
this is kind of a mess but i’m gonna leave it here, and take this final opportunity to throw myself back into 2013 and post what is quite possibly the most ridiculous (also dated) thing i have ever made:
