Maybe there's another road for me or maybe I was wrong all along. Maybe I'm not who I was trying to be. Now that all my dreams are dead and gone, there's no rush anymore. Time's on my side. All my worries are gone. I'm enjoying the ride. Been feeling like myself more than ever before. And now I don't even know what I need you for. Been feeling like myself more than ever before. And now I'm not hungry. I'm not hungry for love, your love anymore. Now I feel like myself, myself more than ever before.

Someone tell me how to heal the terror living inside me. I don't even know what's real, I just know I wanna be free. All the things I lost and loved, swept them underneath the rug. Like the child, I wait and hope, you might repair the things you broke. Now I understand the world of adult boys 'cause I'm an adult girl. I'm an oyster without a pearl, but that's just how it is for an adult girl. An adult girl. Adult girl.

Sometimes the truth is, I wanna leave everything behind. Maybe if I disappear, then the black hole will clear inside of my mind. As if that's gonna fix it. I like to pretend that I'm better off on my own. I spend the weekend in bed. I see none of my friends, so I turn off my phone 'cause no one's gonna miss me. I try to hide it, protect my pride. So superficial, don't realize I've been so lonely all of my life. Don't know if I can, I can survive. Maybe I'm not built for this kind of connection. Why is it so hard to let myself get close? Uh uh, uh uh, I can't even look at my own reflection. Don't want to admit that I've lost all hope. 'Cause everybody knows I'm sad, sad. They know I never felt this bad, bad, bad. Everybody knows I'm sad, sad. 'Cause everybody knows I'm sad, sad, sad.

They're all going to Y2K, we're going to the '70s. Silver stars upon my face, leather boots upon my knees. Sorry, I'm a little late, I've been spinning around and around. Welcome to the golden age, everything is peachy now. Is it something you like? Mhm, la la la la, you like? Mhm, is it something you like? Oh, is it something you like? Uh huh, la la la la, you like? Uh huh, gonna tell you tonight. Night, night, ni ni night. 'Cause I love you, and I know that you love me too. I want you, and I know that you want me too. I love you, I've been waiting to make you mine. I want to be holding you tonight.

Mm, mm, mm, mm, mm, mm, mm, mm I wanna go on a rollercoaster. Uh, uh, uh, uh, uh, uh, uh, uh I wanna do things I'm not supposed to. Mm, mm, mm, mm, mm, mm, mm, mm I wanna go where the free ones live now. Uh, uh, uh, uh, uh, uh, uh, uh never going back to the place I lived, no. Uh, uh, uh, uh, uh, uh, uh, uh. I wanna swim topless in the ocean. Have sex on the sand, on the grass, in the garden. Spread me like a picnic on the floor in the forest 'cause I don't wanna live if I can't be honest. Baby, I've been down, I've been down so low, down so low. But the more I love myself, the higher up I wanna go, oh. Go, go, go, go, go, go, go, go. Go, go, go, go, go, go, go, go. I'm on a rollercoaster ridе, ride. I've been low, but I know that I wanna get high. I've never been so happy, smiling so wide. I never thought I'd find the love of my life.

Sometimes I wonder why, why I'm alone, ah, alone at night. In a foreign city, doesn't even matter if you're pretty. Doesn't matter what I do. 'Cause everybody knows I'm sad, sad. They know I never felt this bad, bad, bad. Everybody knows I'm sad, sad. 'Cause everybody knows I'm sad, sad.

I can let go of the flower, now my power has returned. I can look back at the past, now I see what I have learned. Try my best to act my age, but the child won't behave. She wants to scream and cry and rage, and who am I to dig her grave? The teenage years I never lived. The innocence of high school kids. Young romance and endless nights of carefree joy and pure delight. Didn't grow up in a normal world. And now I'm just an adult girl.