Am I dreaming or dying?
I don’t know if I must feel weird about what’s happening or I am just too overwhelmed about the sweetness that keeps banging my heart these days. Some of my friends were acting a little different or should I say a little weird toward me. Jake sent me some personal text messages that made me cry, I already know that he was a sweet guy with bad jokes but the messages he send was beyond that sweetness he used to that really put a huge smile in my face and makes me want to hug him right away. He also text me every chance that will meet and even let me use his shoulder when I’m tired. Kuya J and Kian started tagging my name along their group messages, saying out loud my name thru text message and even greeting me and saying something sweet which was very unusual or should I say rare, it was so sweet that makes me miss them badly. Alexis, surprisingly texted me, I haven’t heard a bit of a news about her and the in one text, we already catch up things we missed and even have extra time to chat and plan things about our very own reunion. I got even closer to PPKT peeps such as Gem, Ran, Melai, Kin, Berto and others whom I bond a lot during free time and weekends. Some of my other friends outside the Tumblr magically appeared like it’s been a long time and needed to hang out a bit, my ex-lover who I haven’t talk for years just sent me a message, telling stories like we used to do.
Everything was unexpected but well appreciated, I have no idea why but I am too busy enjoying it rather than to find answers. I am thankful to hear their voices or feeling their presences around me like I am a dying man on a hospital bed, gathered around with some flowers and get well soon or happy trip cards, smiling and reminiscing history but if it’s a sign, I don’t regret it. (But I hope it’s not a sign)















