#mankar

The devious 3 liked my Mankar design, so i just drew his whole ass family for the shiggles

Yapping under the cut

The remastered version

Fun fact about the og, it was the first time i had ever drawn Mankar, so i had no design for him and just drew him based off of how he looked in the game 💀 The old one is lowkey crusty asf (i drew it on my phone) but its under the cut LMAO

There are nights where I find myself just staring at my ceiling in the dark looking for something. Anything. A sign usually that I’m going to be okay. Those nights I usually am okay. I end up not feeling much at all. But other nights I feel everything. And I’m forced to cover my mouth so no one hears my sobs of raw emotion. That’s the thing about raw emotion. No matter the feeling, if it is in its raw form. When it hits you after you’ve been beaten down and kicked and you are already on the floor in a piled up mess, they hit you like a bullet and you can’t help but cry and sob until your shoulders shake. Has that every happened to you? You just cried so hard your entire body shook with the emotion you felt? It’s painful. Or when you cry so hard no sound comes out....it’s a lot like when you laugh really hard no sound comes out except it’s the worst feeling in the world or the best. Funny actually, one extreme to the other and no sound comes out. Proves silence speaks louder than words sometimes.  All of this ranting and I’m not saying anything. Sometimes I just need to talk. I don’t really talk much anymore or get things off my chest. I tried to get a journal and write in it everyday but I’m really bad at those. I write in it when I remember or when I feel like it.  I think I need to get help. I might be getting depressed or I don’t know what. I don’t know how to talk or cope anymore. Right now I don’t know whether I need to cry or just go to sleep and hope I wake up.  I’m sad and confused.  Some nights I’ll be so restless and nothing works to calm my body down. Nothing until I tried going outside. So far, every time I get restless like that and I can’t sleep I just go outside and, so far, without fail, our star has been there. Mankar. Always and forever Mankar is watching or guiding or god knows what. But after I find it, the restlessness goes away. It might be the fresh air or maybe it’s the reassuring subconscious thought that the universe will bring you back one day. Sam has even accepted that I’m more than likely going to end up with you. I told him about a dream I had of you apologizing to me and he said it probably means I’ve already forgiven you for all the shit you put me through. I couldn’t deny that.